I LOVE jealous Spencer
ummm can i request jealous spencer? like reader has a boyfriend or spencer thinks she has a boyfriend and he gets all pouty. and then ... soft confession/kisses :)
feel free to ignore if it's not your cup of tea!
btw my criminal minds themed blog is @sweetheartspence !! but alas i cannot send asks from a side blog </3
thank u in advance! hope u have a wonderful day/night
Oh! This is definitely my cup of tea I love love love jealous Spencer đ
BYR(b4 u Reid): Jealous & mean Spencer Reid :0, teasing, and a bit of fluff toward the end, along w a cute little kiss scene hehe
Jealousy | Spencer Reid
It had been a week. A week since Spencer started noticing the shift in your behavior.
You were⌠happier. Lighter. More willing to do things for your coworkers than before.
Staying late without complaint, grabbing an extra coffee for someone, taking an extra file without the usual dramatic sigh.
You used to roll your eyes when Morgan pawned off paperwork on you, now you just did it. No protest. No banter.
And then there were the little changes. The way you started painting your nails, the extra time you took with your makeup.
If he didnât know any better, heâd assume someone was catching your attention, and truthfully he wasnât sure how he felt about that.
âHey.â He called, catching you before you could leave the bullpen. âThereâs a movie playing tonight, itâs based in the fifties, and about a serial killer whoâd eat his victims. Itâs supposed to be really good. Want to come with me?â
You hesitated, shifting on your feet. âAw, Spence, that does sound fun, but I canât. Iâm busy.â
ďżźâOh.â His fingers curled around the strap of his bag, grip tightening. âNo, thatâs fine. What are you doing?â He asked, curiosity getting the best of him.
âJust⌠something with a friend.â You said vaguely, offering him a small smile.
A friend.
He nodded, forcing a smile. âNice. Okay. Maybe next time.â
âYeah.â You agreed before walking away, leaving him standing there.
And it wasnât just him noticing the change anymore, it was the whole team.
The way you were always texting, checking your phone like you were waiting for something. For someone.
Morgan noticed first, of course.
âSomeone seems pretty occupied.â His voice was laced with amusement as he watched your fingers fly over your screen.
You glanced up, blinking. âYeah, sorry.â You muttered, locking your phone and setting it down.
âImportant stuff?â Spencer asks, trying to sound casual.
You shook your head. âNo not important at all.â
Morgan snorted. âRight.â
You narrowed your eyes. âWhat?â
âNothing.â He said, smirking as he leaned back in his seat.
You didnât buy it, but you let it go, getting up from your spot on the jet and heading toward the restroom.
The second you were gone, Morgan turned toward Spencer, grinning. âThat girl is definitely hiding something.â
Spencerâs head snapped to Derek. âYeah? Like what?â His brows raised, eyes wide.
Morganâs smirk only grew more. âWoah. Eager, arenât you, pretty boy?â
Spencer rolled his eyes. âIâm just curious. Does it seem like sheâs acting different? Like⌠someone is causing her to be like this?â
âOh, donât tell me youâre worried.â
âWorried?â Spencer scoffed. âAbout what?â
âThat she might be seeing someone.â
Spencer sat up straighter. âIâm not worried.â He said quickly, too quickly. âJust curious. Sheâs my friend. Donât you want to know?â
âYeah, but only because Iâm nosey. You, on the other handâŚâ Morgan tilted his head. âYou want to know because youâre scared of losing her.â
Spencerâs lips pressed into a thin line. âLosing her? How would I lose her?â
Morgan shrugged, still grinning. âNo more movie nights, no more friendly dinners, and definitely no more sleepovers. Your girl is gonna be busy with someone else.â
Spencer exhaled sharply, looking away. âSheâs just my friend.â
Morgan let out a low chuckle. âSure, pretty boy. Keep telling yourself that.â
Ëŕ¨ŕ§âď˝ĄË â
Lunch with Spencer had become a routine, quiet escape from the chaos of the BAU. Your usual spot, the same table by the window. Everything felt the same, except Spencer.
He was distracted. Off.
He couldnât shake the gnawing feeling in his gut, the one that told him something was going on with you. Something you werenât telling him. The past week had been filled with too many smiles at your phone, to many whispered conversations with the girls, and too many times youâd turn him down.
So he had to pry a little bit.
âSo, uhâŚhowâs everything been?â He tried to keep his voice even, but there was a nervous edge to it.
You furrowed your brows. âHowâs what been?â
âUh, life?â
You smiled, stirring your drink absentmindedly. âOh, good. Nothing much outside of work. Just busy.â You paused. âWhy?â
Spencer shrugged, feigning nonchalance. âJust wondering if anything has changed in your life.â
You eyed him for a second, suspicious. âOhâŚokay. Well no. Not really. You?â
âNo. The same. Work and home. Thatâs about it.â
âNice.â You said simply
There was a beat of silence before Spencer tried again. âCan I come over tonight? Iâve been wanting to play this new game I got.â
You hesitated, glancing away. âOh, my house? Itâs kind of a mess. Maybe we can do it at yours instead?â
His grip on his fork tightened. A mess? That was the excuse? Since when did you care if he saw your place like that? Unless⌠you were hiding something? Someone?
Had the person you were seeing already moved in?
The thought sent a sharp, unwelcoming sting through his chest.
âYes.â He said, a little too quickly. âMy house is good. Is eight okay with you?â
You nodded, smiling. âPerfect.â
Then your phone buzzed, and before he could say anything else, you grabbed it. You didnât just check it, you smiled at it. A real, genuine smile.
Spencer bit the inside of his cheek.
Something burned in his stomach. Jealously.
It was stupid. Irrational. He had not right to be upset. You werenât his.
But he was upset.
âWe should go back now.â He said abruptly.
You glanced at the time. âWe still have some time, though.â
He clears his throat. âIâm not really feeling good.â
Your brows knit tighter in concern. âOh. Okay.â
You donât question it. And that made him feel worse.
Back at the office, he watched as you practically sprinted to JJ, Emily, and Penelope. The four of you huddled together, whispering, giggling.
Spencer tried to listen, straining to hear past the office noise, but all he caught were Penelopeâs dramatic gasps and high-pitched âoh my gods.â
And then-
âWe need to meet him.â JJ says.
Spencer couldâve fainted right there.
Meet who?
Why did they get to know, and he didnât? He thought you were closer than that.
âMaybe Friday night?â You suggested. âWe can all get together. Heâd love to meet the team.â
Spencerâs stomach twisted. He.
Who the hell was he?
He felt sick.
But no one noticed the way his face fell, the way his fingers dug into his palm as he clenched his fists.
âYes, Friday!â Penelope clapped her hands excitedly. âIâll tell the guys! Derek loves a night out at the bar.â
âAlright, Iâll let him know.â You said, smiling at the girls before heading back to your desk.
Spencer, however, turned on his heel and walked straight to the restroom, locking himself in a stall to breathe.
By the end of the workday, heâd barely spoken to you. He wasnât even sure he could without his feelings slipping out in some pathetic, embarrassing way.
ďżźBut then you ran into him on your way out.
âHey.â You greeted, smiling up at him. âStill up for that game?â
Spencer hesitated, shifting on his feet. His emotions were too raw, too tangled. The thought of sitting alone with you tonight, knowing Friday he was probably going to have to come face to face with that guy, made him want to crawl out of his skin.
âI, ummâŚâ he scratched the back of his neck. âIâm still not feeling good. Maybe next time.â
Your face fell slightly, and it made his chest ache. âI can still come over and make you some soup? Or we can watch a movie?â
For a brief second, he melted. Your voice was so soft, so you. Sincere. You cared about him. But then reality him, maybe you were like this with him, too. Maybe you were sending him sweet messages, making him laugh, offering him soup when he wasnât feeling well.
The thought made his stomach turn.
âUh, no.â He said, voice flat. âI want to be alone.â
Something flickered across your face, something confused and a little hurt. âOh. Okay. Well⌠get better. Let me know if you do want my company. Iâd love to stop by.â
Spencer swallows hard. âYeah.â
Then he turned and walked away before you could see just how much he hated this.
Ëŕ¨ŕ§âď˝ĄË â
By Friday everyone had noticed, Spencer was off.
His usual, quiet, awkward charm had been replaced by something sharper, something angry. He was short with everyone, but mostly with you.
âAre you okay, Spencer?â You finally asked, cautiously approaching his desk.
His eyes lifted from the case file in front of him, sharp and unreadable. âWhy wouldnât I be?â
You frowned. âYouâve just beenâŚI donât know. Different.â
Spencer let out a dry, humorless laugh. âMe? Different?â His voice was laced with sarcasm. âRight. Iâm different.â
Your brows knit together. âDid I do something?â
âLook, I have a lot of work to do. I need to focus.â His tone was clipped, dismissive.
Morgan appeared behind you, catching enough of the conversation to raise an eyebrow. âHey man. just chill.â
âI am chill.â Spencer snapped, jaw tight. âJust both of you. Go.â
You rolled your eyes. âYouâre acting like a child, but fine. Iâll go.â
Morgan watched you walk off before turning back to Spencer with a disbelieving shake of his head. âMan, youâre scaring her off.â
âWhy should I care?â Spencer muttered, flipping a page in his file like it didnât matter. âSheâs taken.â
Morgan scoffed. âBecause sheâs your friend, and she cares about you. Youâre treating her like garbage.â
Spencer didnât answer. Just clenched his jaw and stared at the file like it could somehow fix what was wrong with him.
Morgan sighed. âYouâre gonna regret this, kid.â Then he walked off, leaving Spencer alone with the gnawing, unbearable feeling twisting in his gut.
Later, in the break room, Emily found you pouring yourself a coffee.
âHey! Have you asked Spencer if heâs coming tonight?â
You sighed. âNo. Honestly, Iâm kind of scared to talk to him right now. He seems off.â
Emilyâs lips pressed together. âYeah, Iâve noticed too.â
âIâll try again.â You said, exhaling âmaybe he just needs time to cool off.â
Emily nodded. âHope it goes well.â
With your coffee in hand, you made your way back through the bullpen. You passed Spencerâs desk, and once again, found the same hard expression on his face. He didnât even look at you.
But you werenât giving up on him.
Two hours later, you decided to try again.
You walked over and casually perched yourself on his desk, something youâd done a hundred times before. But this time, Spencer tensed. Like he wanted you off.
âHey,â you greeted softly.
His eyes flicked up. âHey.â
âAre you coming to the bar tonight? Iâd love it if you came.â
Spencer swallowed. âIâI donât know. Bars arenât really my thing. You know that.â
You nodded. âYeah, I know, but someone really important is coming, and Iâd love for you to meet him.â
Spencer inhaled sharply.
Important. You had to say it like that? Right to his face?
His fingers twitched against his desk. âYeah, I-I donât think so.â
You pouted. âSpencer, please. Heâs so funny, so cool. The girls already love him, and I know you guys would. Heâs such a good guy, you need to meet him.â
His entire body went rigid.
He wanted to snap. He wanted to yell. But instead, he just clenched his jaw so hard it ached.
âNo.â His voice was sharp, and final.
You gave him those wide, pleading eyes. âPlease?â
He shook his head.
âAlright.â You sighed, standing up. âWell, if you change your mind, itâs at Rudyâs. I really want you there.â
Before leaving, you leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to his cheek.
His breath hitched.
âIâm here if you need to talk.â You murmured. Then you walked away.
And Spencer ?
He dropped his head into his hands, exhaling sharply.
He felt awful.
Why was he like this? He couldnât stop himself, couldnât control his jealousy, the anger, the way his emotions spiraled out of control every time he thought about you with someone else.
And worst of all?
He knew he was hurting you.
Ëŕ¨ŕ§âď˝ĄË â
The bar was packed, the energy high. Everyone laughed, letting loose after a long exhausting week.
You were happy, smiling, surrounded by your team. But still, you couldnât help but miss the one person who wasnât there.
âHeâs not coming.â JJ said gently, watching the way your smile faltered.
You sighed. âHe hates me. And I donât even know why.â
JJ shook her head. âHe could never hate you. That boy practically worships the ground you walk on.â
You let out a humorless laugh. âThen why does it feel like thereâs nothing left for us? I should've made a move when things were good. Now itâs like⌠he's a different person. And I'm scared he doesn't want me.â
âJust give him time.â JJ said, squeezing your shoulder. âHeâll come around.â
You gave her a small smile before heading to the bar, sipping your drink.
Then.
âCan I sit?â
Your head snapped up. And there he was.
Spencer.
Your heart leapt. âWhat are you doing here? I thought you werenât coming.â
He shrugged, slipping into the seat beside you. âI changed my mind, I guess.â
âGood.â You beamed. âIâm so happy.â
His eyes softened. âUh, so whereâs that guy?â
âOh, Brian? Heâs running a bit late, should be here soon through.â
Spencer exhaled, forcing a nod.
âCome on, letâs sit with the group.â
Before he could process it, you grabbed his hand, pulling him toward the booth where the team sat. His pulse kicked up at the contact.
As soon as the team saw him, a cheer erupted.
âLook who finally decided to have a life!â Penelope teased.
Spencer forced a smile, sliding into the booth beside you.
For awhile, things felt normal. Drinks flowed, conversations bounced between cases, childhood memories, and ridiculous office gossip. It was the kind of night that made you all feel less like FBI agents and more like lifelong friends.
Until.
âSo, this guy weâre meetingâŚâ Rossi drawled sipping his whiskey with an amused smile.
Spencer tensed.
You lit up. âYes! His name is Brian! Iâve told him all about you guys, and he cannot wait to meet all of you.â
Spencer swallowed hard.
âHeâs amazing.â
Spencer rolled his eyes before he could stop himself.
Luckily, no one seemed to notice his reaction.
Then, your name was called.
Spencerâs stomach dropped, this was the moment he had to come face to face with his fears.
You turned, your entire face brightening as you ran into the arms of some guy. You hugged him tightly. Held on to him like he was the best part of your night.
Spencer was sick.
âGuys, this is Brian, my best friend.â You introduced him, glancing around the group. But when your eyes landed on Spencerâs empty seat, your heart sank. He was gone. A knot formed in your chest, but you pushed it aside.
The team greeted Brian warmly, and soon, conversation flowed easily. It didnât take long for everyone to love him, he was energetic, kind, and full of the craziest stories that had the group laughing.
âSo, Brian, what made you want to move here?â Emily asked, taking a sip of her drink.
âWell,â Brian grinned, throwing an arm around your shoulders. âThis girl right here told me there was a lot of cute guys out here, so I figured, why not? Hot guys and my best friend? Seemed like a no-brainer.â
He smirked, blatantly eyeing Hotch and Derek.
Ëŕ¨ŕ§âď˝ĄË â
Derek had managed to slip away from the group, and go with Spencer who was at the bar, nursing a drink that seemed like it hadnât been sipped on.
âAlright, pretty boy. Whatâs your deal?â
Spencer didnât even look at him. âI canât watch her be with him.â
Derek let out a deep sigh, shaking his head. âLook, man, youâre spiraling. You need to go talk to your girl. Seriously.â
âShe isnât my girl, she has a boyfriend.â
Derek rubbed his face like Spencer was exhausting him. âQuit your pouting and go talk to her. Before the night ends.â
Spencer didnât respond.
Derek groaned and walked off, leaving Spencer with his own miserable thoughts.
He turned toward the booth again, watching you.
You were smiling and having fun but he knew when it was genuine and when it wasnât, and right now it wasnât.
A weight settled in his chest.
So he made his choice.
Pushing off the bar, he crossed the room, weaving through the crowd until he was in front of you.
You looked up, surprised, but your expression softened. âSpencer, youâre back.â
His voice was low. âCan we talk?â
You studied his face, concern flickering across your features before you nodded.
Without another word, he took your hand and led you somewhere quieter, somewhere just for the two of you.
You both sat down, the buzz of the teams laughter and music muffled by the distance. There was a silencer between you, not uncomfortable. You didn't say anything. You were waiting... For him.
Spencer was thinking. If the man had steam coming out of his ears, you wouldn't even be surprised.
Finally, his eyes met yours. âIâm sorry.â he said softly.
He gave your hand that was still in his a gentle squeeze, you should've pulled away because truthfully, he didn't deserve to hold it, but you couldn't.
âIâm sorry I was being a-â
âAn ass?â you filled in, no hesitation.
His jaw dropped slightly at your bluntness before he sighed in surrender. âYeah⌠I deserved that.â
You nodded. âYou did.â
Then your voice lowered, a little more vulnerable. âWhat did I do, Spencer?â
His shoulders sank under the weight of your words, he couldnât believe he made you feel like it was all your fault. âNothing. God, you didnât do anything.â He said. He couldnât even look at you.
You followed his gaze and it was on Brian, so it all clicked together for you.
âBe honest.â You urged gently.
His eyes flicked to you, guilt written all over his face. âI was jealous.â
âBy who?â You asked, already knowing the answer, but needing to hear it from him.
âBrian.â He muttered, looking down at his shoes like they might offer an escape. You tilted your head. âBrian?â
You couldâve teased him. Let him stew a little more, just for the hell of it. But he already looked like heâd been spiraling all week, and the truth was, you didnât want to see him in pain, not when you cared about him this much.
âSpencer, Brianâs not into me.â You said. His head snapped up. âHow?â He asked, baffled. âYouâre- youâre perfect.â
You chuckled, shoulders lifting in a little shrug. âIâm not his type.â You glanced toward the booth where Brian was now leaned in, laughing at something Derek was saying. âBut I think Derek might be.â
Spencer tracked your gaze, eyes narrowing in that profiler way of his. One second. Two. He blinked.
âOh.â
The air left his lungs in a rush, like someone had cut the string pulling his jealousy tight.
But then his brows furrowed again. âThen why have you been different lately? Happier. Dressing up. You stopped inviting me overâŚâ
You smirked. âDidnât know you were paying so much attention, Dr. Reid.â
He flushed.
âBrian and I moved in together. Thatâs why Iâve been in a better mood, I guess. Itâs nice having my best friend from home close. And yeah, Iâve been putting more effort in⌠but thatâs because Iâve been trying to get the attention of this one genius loser I work with.â
Spencer blinked. That trademark genius brain of his clearly went offline.
You rolled your eyes with a grin. âYou, Spence. Itâs you.â
His lips parted, like the words were there but stuck. âI-I just didnât want to assume.â
You gave him a playful look. âRight.â
He looked lighter now, like the guilt and confusion heâd been carrying and finally lifted.
âI really like you.â He said, voice more confident now. He leaned in a little. âAnd I-I want to make everything up to you.â
You raised brow. âOh yeah? How?â
He smiled nervously. âCan I take you to dinner?â
You nodded slowly, clearly enjoying watching him squirm. âIâd like thatâŚand?â
He bit his lip, thinking. âMoviesâŚand then we can go back to my place and play that game I was telling you about?â
You nodded. âNot bad. Itâll be perfect if you also take on a couple of my files for a month.â
He groaned but smiled. âFine, Iâll do it.â
Your guys eyes locked on each others, and you werenât sure who leaned in first. It didnât matter.
The moment your lips met, it was soft, hesitant, but warm. Then Spencer deepened the kiss, one hand rising to cup your jaw, his other still holding you hand tightly like he couldnât let go. His tongue slid across your lips, and you let him in.
You guys moved in sync, like you were perfect for each other.
And like this is where you guys were supposed to be.
You kissed until the need for air pulled you apart. Both of you stared, wide-eyed, lips parted.
âI was supposed to be mad at you a little longer.â You teased, he grinned smug. âCan I kiss you again so you wonât?â
You giggled. âMaybe.â
He leaned in again. This kiss was sweeter and gentler like he had gotten all the desperate need for you out with the first kiss. Now, he just wanted to continue feeling your lips on his, even if it was just a peck.
âI can do this all night.â You tell him
âI can too.â
And with that, the two of you stayed wrapped in each otherâs company for the rest of the night. The team didnât interrupt or tease, they simply let you be, giving you the space to enjoy the quiet warmth between you. It was easy, comfortable, like everything had finally fallen into placeâŚ
@beeintheskies Hope you love this<3 it was so fun to write, thank you for your request!
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Summary: Reader is deep in preparation for her finals, much to Spencerâs frustration. When she creatively incorporates him into her anatomy review, it turns into a pleasurable experience for them both.
Couple: Spencer Reid/Fem!Reader
Category: Smut
Content Warning: f!receiving oral, face sitting, face riding, f!masturbation, softdom!spencer, but he's needy and desperate, anatomy terms that may have been used incorrectly (sorry), slight dry humping, overstimulation, yearning.
Word Count: 3.3k
Masterlist
Finals season.Â
The ever-dreaded, ever-disliked period between the end of April to June where every student you know is scrambling to absorb roughly four months of material in a matter of weeks.
All bets are off in this lawless space of time. Coffee at 2 AM? Completely advised, go right ahead. Hundreds of dollars spent in food delivery? Sure. Anything to keep the grind going, right? Major papers that shouldâve taken weeks to write being done in a frantic three hours? Itâs a rite of passage, really. And luckily, you get to spend a much-needed summer break afterwards, recovering from all these horrific decisions youâve put yourself through.Â
Needless to say, your current setup involved many textbooks, flashcards scattered about, and highlighters in the most random of places, all in the name of preparation for this beast of a week.Â
And of course, it was all set to the sounds of a very needy Spencer Reid, whoâd been begging for your attention since heâd gotten here.
âYouâve studied so much already, I swear. Canât you take a break?âSpencer questions petulantly, sitting on the bed adjacent to your desk, where you were currently hard at work memorizing the thirty-one pairs of nerves that made up the spine.Â
Youâd been studying intensely for this semester's finals. By making a couple of well-informed choices beforehand, you were actually quite on track when it came to your learning and retention of material.
For the most part, it seemed like you were on track to sail through all your classes without a hitch. That held true, until you brought up Introduction to Anatomy.Â
Anatomy was fun, by all means. Interesting labs, interesting people, interesting content. However, what daunted you more than anything in pertinence to the material was the enormity of the terms and vocabulary you were expected to know in time for the exam.
âI havenât studied enough.â Is your quick response, a small smirk finding its way to your lips. Despite loving your boyfriend, there was a certain pleasure in seeing him so desperate for you, a power-rush that felt unbelievably good.
And to your credit, you really were hard at work memorizing these terms. As much as you enjoyed his company (and the sex he wanted to engage in), it simply could not take precedence over the task at hand.Â
âYou know, multiple studies recommend at least twenty minutes of a break for every hour you study, for peak brain efficiency, and you-â He checks his watch, mentally calculating how long youâd been at that desk. âYouâre due for at least an hourâs worth of break at this point.âÂ
You finally look up, your finger halting on the paper itâd been tracing over. âSpencer, you know Iâd love to take a break but-âÂ
He sighs heavily. âIâm aware. This is important. I get it.â He grumbles, flopping onto the bed in a slightly dramatic fashion.Â
You giggle at the scene. For all his propriety, there was never a more amusing sight than your boyfriend reduced to base desire and instinct. You take pity on him though, and smile gently at him.Â
âLook, why donât you get out? Go have lunch, do whatever, and come back. Hopefully Iâll be closer to finishing then, and we can hang out then?â You offer, hope in your voice.Â
He sighs and nods, lifting himself off your bed. âYeah, sounds good.â He murmurs, coming over to the desk to place an affectionate, chaste kiss upon the top of your head. âGood luck.â He says, cracking a half smile as he leaves, which you return with a smile of your own.Â
The door closes, and youâre left with nothing but silence, and the lateral cutaneous branches looking up at you from their place on the page. Time to work at it, you suppose.Â
Itâs about two hours later, when you hear the tell-tale knock of your boyfriend at your door, presumably back from his excursion away from you. Your place at your desk is momentarily abandoned in favor of letting him in, and thereâs instant delight in your eyes, considering the two cups of coffee he presents to you. One is iced, one is not. Without any words exchanged between either party, the iced coffee is grabbed and you grin.Â
âThank you.â You say, taking a sip. Of course heâd remember your order perfectly.Â
âYou know, that couldâve been my coffee, for all you know.â He teases, striding into the room.Â
You roll your eyes fondly whilst you close the door. âSpencer Reid drinking iced coffee? Iâll believe it when I see it.âÂ
âCoffee is supposed to be hot!â He protests, immediately, this being an obvious subject of passion for him. âHot brewed coffee contains far more antioxidants, and doesnât risk being watered down by ice- oh, and another thing-âÂ
You stifle a chuckle whilst watching him. This had been an ongoing debate for you two, essentially since the day you met. Your first date had been at a coffee shop. When he'd asked for your order, he looked almost appalled at the prefix of âicedâ youâd tacked onto your statement.
Nevertheless, he still ordered it, and did his best to educate you on why hot coffee was âclearlyâ superior.
Somewhere between lecturing you on caffeine effectivity and nutritional information, you were head over heels.Â
âAnyway.â He says, breaking your thoughts, and seemingly done with his argument. âHow far are you into studying?âÂ
You make your way back to your desk, biting your lip as you stand over the material. âPretty far.â You murmur, reluctantly. âI dunno. I know I know this material, but I feel like it hasnât solidified in my brain, you know? Like I need to keep hammering it in until itâs basically muscle memory for me.âÂ
He moves slowly to be behind you, his hands coming to rub your shoulders gently, soothing the worn out muscles on your back. His touch is warm and reassuring, a quiet way of saying, âYou can rest.â
âYou know.â He murmurs, softly. âYouâd probably do better with a break. Take a breather, let your brain relax for a second.âÂ
Thereâs a pause, before he adds in a quiet voice, âMaybe spend some time with me?â His hand comes to move some hair away from your neck, leaning down to press a gentle kiss to the side of it.Â
You melt into the movement. He always knew exactly where your weak spots were, where youâd falter and give right into his ministries.
But you know you canât. You force yourself to breathe and look away, as though that simple act might help you forget how his hands had lingered on you just a moment ago.
âI want to, I swear. But I wonât feel good about taking downtime until Iâm absolutely sure Iâve got this.â You say, firmly extricating yourself from his grasp.
He gives another one of his heavy sighs, accepting his fate quietly, knowing he wonât be able to convince you outside of your own accord.Â
âAlright then. Iâll just hang out here then.. For however long that might take.âÂ
You give a small, pained smile. âThank you. I know Iâm being difficult.âÂ
âYouâre not. You could never be difficult.â He responds, immediately, returning your smile with one of his own. âItâs just finals season. I know your performance will be wonderful, and weâll have all the time in the world afterwards to spend time together.âÂ
Your heart melts. You were beyond lucky to have him, and that adoration and knowledge is displayed plainly through your expression. âThank you.â You repeat, unable to verbalize just how much his support meant to you. âI hate finals.âÂ
âYou and I both.â He shoots back, cracking a grin. âYouâre going to do great.âÂ
Thereâs no trace of doubt in his tone at all.Â
For the next hour or so, you both quietly coexist in the same space, the names of musculature and types of fibers muttered under your breath. After a while, the terms click into place, and with a quiet breath, you let the tension go. The final step in your preparation involved practicing the newly learned terms on a human model. Ideally, it would be one of the fake skeletons in the anatomy lab. Your gaze, however, drifted to your boyfriend on your bed, sprawled out, reading your physics textbook for fun.Â
Nerd.Â
An almost evil plan enters your brain, and your voice goes sickly sweet as you call out his name.Â
âSpence?â âMm?â He murmurs, looking over the book.Â
âCan you strip down to your underwear, please?â A harmless smile plays on your lips as you ask.
Spencerâs all ears as he hears that, and in record time his clothes are shed. âAre you-â âLie back on the bed.â You order.Â
Heâs so obedient and eager, immediately complying with what youâve asked of him without question. You smile, and discreetly grab a washable marker before making your way to where he was laid out.Â
âGod. Iâve been so insanely needy for you all day. Iâm so glad youâre done.â He says, his expression reeking of starvation as you straddle him. You can feel him harden under your touch, and choose to ignore that.Â
You lean down, your head at about his chest. His breathing quickens in anticipation, already so turned on from the minimal contact between you two.
Before he can make a move of his own, you pull out your marker and mark the space between his clavicle and shoulder.
âBrachial plexus.â You murmur, much to his utter confusion and dismay.Â
âYou have to be kidding me.â He says, his look of confusion quickly morphing into one of realization. âI thought you were done-âÂ
âIâm not.â You say, with a small smirk on your lips. âBut I will be, if youâre quiet and let me work on you.âÂ
He groans. âYouâre evil, this is evil. I wonât-âÂ
âThe faster we get through this, the faster Iâm all yours.â You interrupt, mostly ignoring him, because you know heâll do anything if it means touching you by the end of it.Â
He takes a pained breath and tries to relax while you work on top of him, his obvious erection straining against the fabric of his briefs.
The pen drags down his chest, as you move down on him to better position yourself in accordance to the medial pectoral nerve you were marking.
âBaby, please.â He groans out, his hands fisting in the sheets below him in an attempt to not grab you and take you right then and there.
The slightest bit of friction seems to set him off, and you can tell he isnât playing it up in the slightest. He truly was, well and gone for you within this moment.
âSorry.â You murmur. âJust marking your.. anterior cutaneous branches.. of the thoracic nerves.â The pen drags against a spot on his chest, and he shudders.Â
âWonât this stain my skin?â He says, a slight whine in his tone, doing absolutely anything to free himself from the absolute torture of this predicament heâd found himself in.Â
âNah. Itâs one of those pens they use for surgery.â You respond, dragging it along his sternum to mark a few more necessary terms. âItâll come right off in the shower.âÂ
You know exactly how to push his buttons. You lean in closer and whisper against his ear enticingly, âWe can get clean together.âÂ
He squeezes his eyes at that, the feeling of your lips brushing against his earlobe triggering an involuntary response, a low moan escaping him. âThis is.. so unfair. I just want to touch you. Please.âÂ
âNot until Iâm done.â You fire back. âC'mon. You can be good and wait, right?âÂ
âEasy for you to say.â He grits out. âYouâre not the one, half naked and hard and having to watch you be..â He trails off.
âBe what?â You ask, a bit distracted as you mark another nerve of importance.
âBe.. sexy.â He mumbles out, clearly embarrassed by his own musings.Â
A small, wry smile comes upon your mouth. You lean back, a breath of laughter slipping free. âYou think I look sexy?â You say, a teasing lilt in your tone.
He rubs a hand over his face, clearly mortified. âYes. Yes, okay!â He grumbles out, clearly self-conscious by just how much heâs managed to be affected by you. âYouâre on top of me, drawing on me, and Iâm aware theyâre just anatomical terms, but God the way you say them.âÂ
His voice devolves into a near whimper, pitiful and aching. âItâs killing me.âÂ
You hum, pleased with yourself. âKilling you, huh?â
âYes.â He mewls. âKilling me. I want you so much, please. Youâre so smart. Please. I know youâre going to do so good on this final. Just please, please, let me touch you.â
He collapses into his words, into you. No pride left, just need.
âYeah? You think Iâm smart?â You murmur teasingly, tracing the plastic of your marker along the side of his neck.Â
âYes.â He moans, lowly. âSo smart. Youâre so hot when youâre working so hard. Makes me want you so bad.âÂ
Your head turns back, and you can see the wetness of precum leaking from his cock on his briefs. He wasnât faking it to get your attention. He yearned for you, plain and simple.
Your eyes find his, and theyâre full of need, his expression absolutely shameless and desperate. âPlease.â He repeats. âPlease let me touch you. I donât care how. Just- god. I can't do this. Please.âÂ
Itâs enough to make you yield. You slide off of him, and he lets out a soft, needy sound, already missing the press of you, until his breath catches at the sight of you stripping, your clothes landing somewhere off the edge of the bed without a second thought.
âYou wanna touch me?â You murmur, crawling up the bed a little.Â
âYes.â He whispers, nodding.
The way he looks at your naked body, eyes fixed, hungry, reverent.. itâs almost too much. You feel dizzy from the weight of it.
You straddle his face, a thigh on either side of him whilst you hover over his face, and then you look down. âTouch me then.â You murmur.
He practically growls as his hands wrap around your thighs. âWith pleasure.âÂ
He pulls you down entirely, effectively forcing your core against his mouth, his tongue lapping against every inch of your wet folds.
You moan, your hands coming to grasp the headboard in front of you. Thereâs absolutely nothing he could be thinking about, besides the taste and smell of you flooding and overwhelming his senses.Â
He devours you with a single-minded focus, his tongue expertly alternating between flattening and lapping you in slow, deliberate strokes, and quick flicks against your clit. Itâs all done in service to you, Spencer thinking of the fastest way to unravel you, desperate to taste your release against his tongueâ to hear you moan his name and shake above him.Â
He gets his wish when another stroke of his tongue finally causes you to come, your sweet release flooding his face, and him eagerly drinking it in. He moans as he attempts to pull you even closer to his mouth (if that was even possible).Â
You let out a breathy laugh as he seems to slow down, indicating the end of your session. âSpence.. Oh god. That was so good.â You try to get off him, but his grip on your thighs is iron-clad.Â
âAgain.â He moans.Â
âWhat?â You ask, not sure if you heard him right.Â
âAgain, please.â He begs, voice broken. âI need you.âÂ
The absolute depravity and torment in his voice lulls you into complacency, as you assume your previous position above him.Â
âOkay. Okay, baby. We can go again.â You murmur, soothingly.
He wastes no time going right back in, his tongue albeit, a little slower now, keeping in mind that youâd just orgasmed, and that you were probably still sensitive.Â
Heâs right to do so, little high-pitched moans and drawn out of you as you get comfortable again, despite the overstimulation.
His tongue circles your clit slowly, never properly touching it, delaying your next release. After a while of this teasing, you finally moan out his name, your hips shamelessly rocking against him.Â
âSpencer, god. Please. Need to come.â You beg, feeling yourself at the edge of a small death.Â
Spencer responds in kind, rapidly flicking his tongue against your swollen bud, and in record time, youâre coming again, much to his delight. He doesn't let up until he's absolutely sure he's lapped up every single drop, not letting any of it go to waste.
âOkay, baby. I gotta get off. Gotta breathe. So do you.â You pant out, as you get off from your seat on his face.
He shakes his head, tugging you closer.Â
âPlease, wanna keep touching you.â He pleads, eyes teary, your release practically dripping off his chin. His hand digs into your arm with a lustful urgency. âPlease. We can go again. I know we can.âÂ
You yield to his request, because honestly, who could deny him right now? His hair messy, lips shiny and his voice, fractured and full of ache, barely held together.Â
You nod, lying down, on the bed, motioning for him to roll on top of you.Â
He rolls over and kisses you, and itâs absolutely sinful. You can taste yourself on him, moaning as your lips easily part and make way for him, the wet warmth of his tongue sliding against yours. Thereâs nothing held back between the two of you as your lips connect and reconnect, as his hand slowly slides down the expanse of your skin, finding your clit and beginning to rub slow circles against it.Â
âOh god, Spencer.â You moan bonelessly, feeling the effects of your previous two orgasms and the one you were hurtling towards currently taking over you.Â
âYeah?â He mumbles. âThat feel good?âÂ
âGod, yes.â You moan. âYou always know how to touch me, always know how to make me feel good- oh-âÂ
He groans in delight as he dives in for another kiss, his fingers sliding across the slick bud even faster now, determined to make you fall off the edge for him one last time. He humps your thigh, practically desperate for some relief for his aching cock as well.
âSay my name.â He murmurs against your lips.Â
âSpencer.â You wail out, in response.Â
âLouder.âÂ
âOh god, Spencer, please!â You groan, your body beginning to tense up with the tell-tale signs of an orgasm, your body taut like a bowstring.Â
âThatâs right, come for me.â He whispers, placing a sweet kiss against your collarbone, his hips continuing their rut in an attempt to chase his release as well.
And with a shout, you come, your body seizing up and succumbing to his touch, your hands wrapping around his neck in an attempt to ground yourself as you experienced the intense pleasure that could only result from being with him.
He seems to follow shortly after to the sound of your moans, a wet patch appearing on the front of his briefs.
You whimper as you come down for your orgasm, Spencer stroking your skin soothingly, peppering little kisses wherever he could reach.Â
âYou doing okay?â He pants out.
âBetter than okay.â You murmur, folding into his embrace, feeling as if you were floating on clouds, or some other poetic description of just how light you felt in this moment.Â
âI pushed you pretty hard, huh?â He mumbles, his voice tinged with a slight bit of concern.Â
âDonât worry. I deserve it for teasing you so hard." You mumble.
"Thanks for helping me study, by the way." You tack on, already feeling yourself drift off into a quiet, peaceful slumber in his arms.Â
He chuckles a bit, and places a kiss against your forehead. âGlad I could make the lesson... hands-on.â
woah!!! hello!! so unfortunately, much like reader, i have also been swamped by finals :( but, this idea came to me and i decided to write it and try to make my way back to writing even a little bit more regularly. as usual, please like, reblog and comment if you enjoyed this fic. reblogs are basically the lifeline of tumblr, and if you'd like my work to reach more people, i would 10000% appreciate it so much. thank you so much for reading regardless, and i hope it was enjoyable. thank you thank thank you for all your support!!!! <333
Perfection
SOME THINGS STAY.â â â 㠤㠤â㠤㠤㠤 ă ¤ ă ¤ S. REID
SUMMARY ŕ§ŕ ever since spencer gave you that delicate little flower necklace, itâs barely left your neck. even when you're getting all dressed up for a fancy night out and it doesn't quite match, youâre not taking it off. itâs his giftâitâs specialâand no way are you going anywhere without a piece of him close to your heart
WARNINGS ŕ˛. fluffâ lots and lots of it, heart-eyes!spencer, emotional!spencer
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Youâre standing in front of the full-length mirror, carefully adjusting the straps of your dress as your heels click softly on the hardwood floor. Itâs elegant, timeless, the kind of dress that makes you feel like youâre starring in some classic black-and-white filmâonly with better lighting.
The zipper is just out of reach, and so, in a soft voice tinted with playful affection, you call out, âSpence, can you zip me up?â
From down the hall, you hear the soft rustle of fabric and the quick, familiar shuffle of socked feet on hardwood. Moments later, Spencer appears behind you, looking unfairly beautiful in his suit and slightly crooked tie, his hair falling a little messily over his forehead. He has his glasses on, which always makes your heart stutter for no good reason.
âI can do that,â he says gently, already stepping closer.
His fingers brush your back as he slowly pulls the zipper upward, the motion achingly carefulâas though heâs handling fine lace or some kind of sacred treasure. Which, knowing him, youâre pretty sure he thinks you are.
Once the zipperâs secured, you expect him to pull away. But instead, his hands settle lightly on your waist, and his eyes catch on the chain around your neck. His brows knit together as he leans forward to inspect the pendant more closely.
âYouâre wearing the necklace I gave you,â he says softly, a surprised note in his voice.
You glance down at it in the mirror. Itâs a simple silver chain, holding a small glass orb with a tiny, pressed forget-me-not encased inside. The gift he gave you months agoâafter one of those long, exhausting stretches where he was gone on a case for ten days straight. He had handed it to you, sheepishly, in the middle of your shared kitchen, mumbling something about permanence and flowers and how he hoped youâd like it.
âI am,â you say, your smile soft and content.
Spencer tilts his head. âBut⌠it doesnât quite go with the neckline. I mean, aesthetically speaking, it interrupts the visual line of the bodice, andââ He pauses, recognizing your expression of amusement in the mirror. âSorry, I was rambling.â
You giggle under your breath. âA little.â
He clears his throat, his fingers gently brushing against the clasp at the back of your neck. âI could take it off for you. Just for tonight. Iâll put it somewhere safe, I promise.â
But you immediately shoo his hands away, your tone light but firm. âNope.â
He blinks. âWhat do you mean ânopeâ?â
âI mean no.â You turn to face him now, reaching up to fix his slightly crooked tie. âYou gave it to me. Itâs yours. Iâm not taking it off.â
Spencer stares at you, blinking slowly, like heâs trying to process the words but his brain short-circuited somewhere in the middle.
âIâŚâ He exhales. âBut it doesnât matchââ
âStill,â you interrupt gently, smoothing your hands over his lapels. âItâs my favorite thing. You picked it out. You remembered what flower I said I liked when we watched that documentary about botanical symbolism and how they used to mean secret messages.â Your eyes meet his, full of warmth. âItâs the most you thing I own. So yeahâobviously, Iâm not taking it off. Ever.â
And thatâs it. Thatâs the moment Spencer Reid absolutely melts into a puddle of goo on the bedroom floor. His eyes go glassy, his mouth opening just enough to say somethingâanythingâbut no words come out. Just a breath. A shaky, wonderstruck breath.
âYou remembered I said that?â he murmurs, like he still canât quite believe it.
âOf course I did. Youâre you.â
He laughs, quiet and breathless, before pulling you into a gentle hug. His arms wrap around you tightly, almost like heâs afraid if he lets go, the moment might dissolve. âYouâre unbelievable,â he whispers into your hair.
âYou say that like itâs a bad thing.â
He chuckles, and you feel his lips press to the top of your head. âNo. Itâs the best thing.â
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Spencer walks into the bullpen looking like a man who just witnessed actual magic.
âSomeoneâs glowing,â Emily teases as he drops his bag by his desk. âDid the gala have an open bar or did your girlfriend finally admit sheâs secretly a time traveler?â
âShe wore the necklace I gave her,â Spencer says, completely unprompted. Heâs not even looking at anyone. He just says it with this dazed little smile on his face.
âOh?â JJ glances over. âThe pressed flower one?â
âYeah,â Spencer nods, adjusting his satchel strap unnecessarily. âIt didnât match her dress at all. Like, it was totally off. I offered to take it off for her, but she wouldnât let me. She saidâŚâ He trails off for a moment, eyes unfocused, like heâs reliving it all over again. âShe said it was my gift, so sheâs never taking it off. Ever.â
Thereâs a collective pause around the bullpen.
And thenâ
âAwwwwwww!â comes in stereo from Garcia and JJ.
âGod, thatâs so disgustingly cute,â Emily says, sipping her coffee with a smirk. âHow are you not married yet?â
âI love love,â Penelope declares, dramatically clutching her heart. âYouâve got the heart-eyes going so hard, Doctor Reid.â
Spencer just shrugs, a soft smile still pulling at his lips. âI guess I do.â
Thereâs a long pause. Then, almost absently, he adds: âI think Iâm going to get her another one. One for every flower sheâs ever told me about.â
And just like that, Emily squeals and Garcia nearly falls off her chair.
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hiyaa, cold reader series is so so amazing i just read it all in one sitting again but i was wondering if you could do one where she's jealous of a woman who starts flirting with spencer on a case maybe? maybe she's pissed because it's "unprofessional" but really she's pissed because he's being flirted with
AS IT SEEMS â SPENCER REID!
a local detective seems to hang on spencerâs every word. the unprofessionalism of it all really frustrates you.
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a/n â is this⌠progression?
The flashing red-and-blue lights of the local PDâs vehicles paint shifting patterns across the asphalt as the BAU team steps onto the scene.
The air is thick with the scent of damp pavement and something acridâgunpowder, maybe, or the lingering remnants of a nearby dumpster fire.
Officers mill about with that particular brand of tension that comes from knowing the FBI has been called in, half-relieved, half-defensive.
You take it all in quickly, the details slotting into place in your mind like a well-practiced routine. The weight of your badge clipped to your belt, the holster pressing against your hipâeverything is familiar, grounding. But then she appears.
Detective Elena Foster is sharp-jawed and self-assured, the kind of woman who wears authority like a second skin. Her strides are long, purposeful, the confidence in her posture making it abundantly clear that she knows exactly how competent she is.
And sheâs looking at Spencer like heâs fascinating.
You stand slightly off to the side as introductions are exchanged, arms crossed over your chest, expression unreadable. Youâre practiced at thisâat keeping your face neutral, your tone cool, your presence sharp enough to command respect without ever needing to raise your voice.
Itâs always been easy. But right now, as Fosterâs hand lingers just a little too long in Spencerâs when she shakes it, something tightens in your chest.
âDr. Reid,â she says, eyes flicking over him with open appreciation. âI read your paper on statistical anomalies in serial offender data last yearâbrilliant work,â
Spencer, to his credit, looks momentarily startled. âOhâthank you,â he says, blinking. âThat was actually an extension of some previous research onââ
âThatâs impressive,â she interrupts, flashing him a smile. âIâd love to pick your brain about it later, if youâve got time,â
You watch as her fingers graze his forearm in a way that is entirely unnecessary.
He doesnât seem to notice, too preoccupied with processing the compliment, his mind already spinning with whatever information he had been about to share. You, on the other hand, notice everything. The deliberate lean-in, the way her voice dips just slightly when she speaks to him, the way her eyes linger.
Itâs unprofessional.
Thatâs what irritates you. Not the fact that her attention is singularly fixed on him, or that heâs being flirted with in the middle of a crime scene. Certainly not that sheâs touching him when she doesnât need to be.
Itâs the principle of the matter. This is an active investigation, and Foster should be focused on the case, not Spencerâs academic credentials and whatever else has caught her interest.
Your jaw tightens as you glance toward Hotch, who doesnât seem to care about the interaction as long as it doesnât interfere with the briefing. Morgan, beside you, exhales a quiet chuckle under his breath, like heâs picked up on something amusing. You ignore it.
âI assume we have a body to look at?â you say, voice even.
Foster blinks at you, as if only just remembering your presence. You donât react, donât shift under her assessing gaze, donât give her anything to work with. Eventually, she nods.
âOf course,â she says smoothly. âRight this way,â
She turns, and Spencer follows, already mid-sentence about some statistical deviation he had noticed in the case file. And you?
You stay exactly where you are for half a second longer than necessary, exhaling slowly through your nose before following after them.
â
You follow the team through the cordoned-off area, past uniformed officers and the murmuring press lingering at the edges, searching for scraps of information. The crime scene is up aheadâan abandoned warehouse, dimly lit and rank with the scent of stagnant water and decay. It should have your full attention.
But instead, you feel your focus splintering.
Just behind you, Spencer is still speaking, his voice carrying that familiar, eager cadence he gets when discussing something intellectually stimulating. âItâs interestingâwell, not interesting in the traditional sense, given the context, but rather statistically significantâthat the unsubâs victim selection aligns with a pattern previously seen inââ
âOh, I love that you talk like that,â Fosterâs voice is warm, teasing, admiring. âMost people dumb things down, but you donât. Thatâs rare,â
You stiffen.
Itâs unprofessional.
Thatâs what you tell yourself as you watch the way she tilts her head slightly when he speaks, as if absorbing every syllable. As if heâs the most fascinating thing in the room. She leans in a fraction closerâjust enough to make it noticeable, just enough to make your stomach twist.
Itâs unprofessional, you think again, but the words donât sit quite right in your mind anymore.
Because the truth is, you shouldnât care. You shouldnât be noticing the way Foster looks at him. You shouldnât be hyper-aware of the way her fingers brush the edge of his sleeve again, so light it could almost be accidental. You shouldnât be waiting for him to pull back, to shake off the attention like he does when social interaction becomes too much.
Except he doesnât. He just lets it happen.
And that irritates you.
So you do what you always do when something threatens to knock you off balanceâyou shut it down.
âReid.â
Your voice cuts through the air, sharper than you intended. The team stops, turning toward you. Even Foster straightens slightly, blinking at the sudden shift in tone. Spencer glances over, his expression a mixture of mild confusion and concern.
You exhale, tightening your grip on the case file in your hands. âWeâre here to solve a murder,â you say, your voice even but firm. âNot to make friends.â
Fosterâs eyebrows lift slightly, but she doesnât comment. Morgan, who had been watching the interaction unfold with barely concealed amusement, makes a low sound in his throatâsomething close to a chuckle. You ignore it.
âI wasnât aware discussing case patterns was off-limits,â Spencer says, tilting his head. His tone is neutral, but thereâs a hint of something else there.
You meet his gaze, keeping your own unreadable. âItâs not,â you say. âJust keep it relevant.â
Itâs not a lie. You are focused on the case. You do want to keep things professional. Thatâs all this is. Thatâs the only reason your patience is stretched thin.
Except.
Except you can still feel the ghost of Fosterâs laugh curling around Spencerâs words. Except your shoulders havenât relaxed since the moment she touched him. Except your own thoughts are turning against you, pressing in like a vice, asking the question you really donât want to answerâ
If youâre so unaffected, why do you have to convince yourself of it?
â
The investigation continues with the same steady pace, but your attention keeps wandering.
Every time you glance toward Spencer and Foster, you find her leaning in a little too close, her voice a little too sweet as she asks him to clarify some trivial detail. Sheâs carefulâalways carefulânever quite crossing a line, but the way she speaks to him, the way she looks at him, it grates at you.
The word âunprofessionalâ loops endlessly in your mind, but each time you tell yourself that, something inside you pushes back.
Youâre not jealous. You just want her to focus. This is a case, for Godâs sake.
But the more she smiles at him, the more he just stands there, absorbed in the conversation, oblivious to the subtle dance sheâs performing, the more that uncomfortable twist in your stomach tightens. Every laugh, every overly familiar gesture, stirs something inside you that you canât quite name.
You can feel your teeth grinding as they talk, your gaze hardening on the two of them. Youâre trying to focus on the case, youâre trying to ignore the nagging irritation building in your chest, but the more they interact, the more annoyed you become.
Sheâs practically flirting, and Spencer isnât doing anything about it. Or, if he is noticing, heâs pretending it doesnât bother him.
But it bothers you. Why does it bother you?
Your fingers tighten around the edge of the evidence bag in your hand, and before you know it, youâre standing too close to them, watching as Foster tries to steer Spencer away from the group to discuss something you know is irrelevant to the case.
Itâs not urgent. You know itâs not urgent. But when you hear the soft cadence of her voice inviting Spencer to join her for a âquick chatâ away from the others, the words explode out of you.
âReid.â you say sharply, the sound of his name a snap. The words feel harsh even to your own ears.
Spencerâs head jerks around, blinking at you in surprise. His lips part, but you cut him off again, your voice colder than you intended. âCome on, weâre leaving.â
Foster stops mid-sentence, blinking in confusion at the sudden interruption. Her eyes flick to Spencer, and then back to you. The tension in the air thickens, but you donât care.
You donât care.
Except you do. And that makes it worse.
Spencerâs gaze softens as he turns back to you, the furrow in his brow deepening, something akin to concern flashing across his face. It only makes you more frustrated.
âIâm not finished yet,â Spencer protests quietly, but thereâs a careful note in his voice, the kind that suggests heâs trying to be diplomatic, to avoid upsetting you.
You blink, realising youâve taken another step too far. Your heart skips a beat at the softness in his voice, and for just a moment, you feel guilty. Heâs just trying to help, trying to be professional. And yet, the only thing you can focus on is her.
You donât let the guilt linger long. âThen stop getting distracted.â you snap, then force yourself to look away, eyes darting back to the scene as if it somehow holds your attention now. Youâre already backing off, leaving the words hanging in the air.
Spencer stares at you for a beat longer than necessary, confusion and concern still flickering in his eyes, but he doesnât press it. He doesnât argue, doesnât question you further. Instead, he shifts back toward the group, muttering something to Morgan about a pattern in the evidence, and you hear the subtle shift in his voiceâheâs letting it go.
But you donât feel relieved.
The knot in your chest tightens again. Why did you say that? Why did you let her get to you?
You tell yourself itâs about professionalism. Itâs about the case. You donât have time for distractions, not when the clock is ticking. And you definitely donât have time to unravel this feeling thatâs spreading through you like an infection.
Spencer doesnât argue. He doesnât snap back at you, doesnât give you the defensive posture that you might expect from anyone else. Instead, he does something that immediately pulls the rug out from under you.
He looks at you.
Really looks at you.
For a moment, the world around you blurs, the noise of the crime scene and the murmurs of the team fading into the background. Itâs just Spencerâs eyes, filled with something you canât quite placeâconcern, maybe, or confusion, maybe a little of both. But itâs soft. Too soft.
Your pulse spikes, and for a split second, it feels like the floor is tipping beneath you. Itâs so disarming, the quiet concern in his gaze, and it makes the frustration building inside you flare even higher.
âAre you okay?â
The question is simple, unassuming, and it cracks something inside you. Itâs not a challenge, not a reprimandâitâs genuine, and thatâs what makes it harder to brush off.
No. Youâre not okay.
Youâre furious, but you canât explain why. Youâre hurt, but you canât pinpoint the cause. Youâre jealous, and the idea of admitting that to yourself is enough to send your thoughts spiraling. And all the while, Spencerâs standing there, oblivious to the storm building inside you, just waiting for your response.
You canât look at him anymore.
âIâm fine,â you mutter quickly, not meeting his eyes. You swallow, forcing your chest to loosen, fighting the sudden weight that presses down on your shoulders.
Your words come out stiff, rehearsed, and even to your own ears, they sound like a lie. But you say them anyway. Because itâs easier than admitting the truth.
You donât wait for him to say anything else. You turn abruptly, your boots echoing on the concrete floor as you walk away, away from Spencer and away from the nagging feeling that he might see through you if you stay.
But youâre not running. Youâre not hiding. Youâre just⌠focused.
At least, thatâs what you tell yourself.
As you round the corner, your mind keeps racing, fighting to keep everything in order. You tell yourself you donât care about the detectiveâs attention.
You tell yourself itâs unprofessional, itâs inappropriate. And you tell yourself that youâve seen it all before, that Spencerâs just being Spencerâoblivious to the subtle ways people gravitate toward him.
But none of that feels convincing anymore.
By the time youâve reached the far side of the warehouse, your hands are trembling slightly. You push them into your pockets, trying to centre yourself. You feel the familiar coldness wrapping around you again, your professional mask sliding back into place like armour. Itâs easier this way.
A sharp breath escapes your lips as you lean against the wall, your head pressed back, eyes closed for a moment. Focus.
You force yourself to take another breath. Youâre here for the case. Thatâs all.
But as the minutes pass, the tight knot in your chest refuses to loosen, and all you can think about is the way Spencerâs face looked when he asked you that question. Are you okay?
And, just for a fleeting second, you wonder if he knows more than you think.
â
The rest of the case proceeds, but something has shifted.
Thereâs an undeniable tension nowâboth around you and within you. As you walk through the newest crime scene, examining evidence and speaking with witnesses, Spencer doesnât give you the space youâd expected.
He stays close, hovering just behind you, always near enough that you can feel the warmth of his presence even when youâre too busy to glance at him.
Heâs speaking to you more than usual, asking for your input first, even in situations where itâs clear he already has the answers. Itâs as if heâs checking in with you constantly, gauging your reaction before making any decisions of his own.
The subtle shift doesnât go unnoticed by anyone. Foster, who had been so eager to claim his attention earlier, is starting to back off, visibly frustrated by his sudden disinterest in her suggestions. She tries a few more times to pull him away for a âquick chat,â but Spencer doesnât respond to her advances the way he did before.
Instead, he looks to you.
âHey, I think we might need a second look at the victimâs phone records,â he says, voice casual but with an edge of expectation, like he already knows youâll agree. âWhat do you think?â
You pause, the request startling you slightly. Spencer doesnât usually ask for your opinion on the more technical aspects of a case, but you donât have time to process it. The words come automatically.
âYeah, definitely. It might give us a window into the unsubâs next move.â
Spencer nods in approval, his face softening slightly as he absorbs your response. But thereâs something else there, something unspokenâa quiet acknowledgment.
He doesnât say anything, just continues to stay close as the investigation progresses, as if heâs subtly keeping his distance from Foster without even addressing it.
Youâre still frustratedâat him, at the detective, at yourselfâbut thereâs a tiny, almost imperceptible shift in your chest. That small part of you that feels like youâve been seen. That he noticed.
Every time Foster attempts to direct him away from the group, Spencer brushes her off with a polite but clear, âIâll be right with you,â his eyes flicking to you before he moves to stand closer. You donât say anything. Youâre not sure you even want to acknowledge it. But itâs thereâan undercurrent you canât ignore.
Your mind still races with frustration. You canât shake the gnawing feeling that somethingâs off, and you canât decide if itâs the case, the detective, or yourself. But every time Spencer looks to you for direction, every time he positions himself just a little too close, your frustration starts to dull, replaced by something else.
Heâs noticing you. Heâs listening.
When the team breaks for a quick huddle to discuss their next steps, Spencer stands beside you. Not next to Morgan or Hotch, not pulling away to talk to Foster. Heâs deliberately close, his shoulder just grazing yours as he flips through his notes.
âYou alright?â he asks again, in that soft, concerned tone that makes you almost uncomfortable. Itâs like heâs waiting for you to admit something, like he already knows thereâs something youâre not saying.
You want to brush him off, to tell him to stop worrying about you, but the question catches you off guard. For a brief moment, the irritationâtoward him, toward Foster, toward everythingâsubsides, and you're left with something unspoken hanging between you two.
"Iâm fine," you mutter again, a little more convincingly this time, even though itâs not true. But you canât find the words to explain it. Not when youâre still trying to convince yourself that none of this should matter.
Spencer doesnât push. He just nods, the faintest flicker of a smile tugging at his lips before he pulls away to engage with the team, but he keeps an eye on you, always just a little more attentive than usual.
You try to shake off the feeling that thisâwhatever this isâmatters, but itâs hard to deny. The connection between you two is there, unspoken, and for some unknown reason youâre feeling a lot more vulnerable than usual.
And that, more than anything, is what frustrates you the most.
This is literal perfection, what the hell
sweet nothing | the great war | masterlist
Warnings: none
Summary: the one where derek morgan realises that you had fallen for him
Wordcount: 1.8k
Derek Morgan was everything that every girl wanted. He was tall, dark, handsome. That was what every woman wanted. Not only that, but he had the best personality. He was so kind, and charming, good with kids, funny. What list didnât he check? There was so much that you could say about your co-worker of 18 months and yet that in itself would take thousands of words.
It was November and there was a chill in the air, one you had gotten used to in your 18 months working at quantico. You remembered your first day there, locking eyes with the federal agent who was now walking alongside you. He had made you feel so welcome the moment and eased all of your nerves on the first day. It was like the planets and the stars had aligned, bringing you both together.
From that first day, the two of you had clicked instantly and it was like you had known each other for forever. There was nobody else in your life that you had ever bonded with so quickly.
The only issue with him is that he was a bit of a playboy. He had so many women that he would talk to and they would all love him and have sex with him and that was all you had ever wanted from him. Knowing that you would never get to have that side of him made your chest ache.
You looked up at him to see that he was already looking down at you, his deep brown eyes staring at you so intently in a different way than normal; or at least, you had never noticed this gaze before.
âWhy are you looking at me like that?â You asked.
âLike what?â He quirked an eyebrow up, like he knew exactly how he was looking at you but was not ready to explain it yet.
âLike thereâs something on your mind,â you were both profilers, there was no way of avoiding the questions. You could read each other well enough by now.
âYou know thereâs not usually anything on my mind,â he teased, a slight pull of his lips.
You snorted at his comment, he never failed to make you smile. Derek smiled at the way that you laughed shortly at his comment, the way your head tipped back, the crinkle by your eyes. He would never get bored of the sight.
You shook your head, dropping the subject, âWhatever,â
âWhatever?â He repeated your comment with the same inflection.
You shrugged your shoulder before looking right in front of you, avoiding eye contact. If he wasnât going to tell you, you werenât going to bug him, âYou don't have to tell me,â
âI know,â
You hummed in response. There was something going on here that you werenât sure of. You would figure it out soon enough, you promised yourself, you always did. He couldnt hide anything major from you.
You had been close ever since your first case, where you had sat next to him nervously on the plane, explains your irrational fear of planes. Reid told you that it wasnât irrational, spewing facts about the amount of Americans afraid of flying. Morgan just promised you that he would sit by your side the whole time. And as the plane came down to land, he held onto your hand as you squeezed your eyes shut.
That was the kind of man Derek was, one who would sit and hold a complete strangers hand just to make sure they were comforted. The touch of his hand had lit a fuse inside of you and you were still reeling from his touch.
So why was he being weird?
as a profiler, your mind started to race a hundred miles a minute as you wondered what you could have done to make him act this way. Maybe you had gone too far with a joke, made him uncomfortable somehow. God, had you flirted with him?
âYou cold?â He asked and you looked up at him, his voice breaking you out of your destructive thoughts.
You hadnât even noticed the way that your arms were wrapping around your body in an attempt to warm up, the cold was bothering you but you would never admit it to him, not after he had annoyed you.
You shook your head, âIâm a big girl,â
He left it there, muttering something under his breath about how you should just accept it before the two of you started walking in silence again along the tree lined street.
It was peaceful with him, it always was. He could never bother you for long, but as you walked along the trees, orange leaves falling off the trees and landing on the ground beneath your boots, there was something off.
As you walked along, you couldnât help the way your eyes lingered on a couple across the street. They were holding hands and after a few moments, the guy took off his coat and draped it over the girls shoulders. She smiled at him bashfully, cheeks warming up before they kept watching. You tilted your head back to look at them for a moment longer.
You could feel your face warming. That was all you wanted, someone to love you like that, to the point of carelessness for themselves. There was that all consuming loneliness that had been bothering you ever since you realised your fruitless crush on SSA Derek Morgan.
Derek noticed that your eyes had lingered on the couple a little longer than most peopleâs would and he wondered what was going on with you.
âTake my jacket,â he demanded after a few steps, pulling off the leather jacket that he had been wearing all afternoon. His arms were covered in goosebumps within seconds but he couldnât care less.
âNo thanks,â you shook your head, folding your arms across your chest.
He scoffed, âNo thanks?â
âI didnt realise I was walking with a parrot,â you spat back at him, speeding up your walking to get away from him.
He did the same thing in response, jogging slightly to catch up with you. He shook his head, confused as to why you were acting like such a brat today.
âWhy canât you accept my kind gesture?â He questioned.
âI am fine,â
âYou want it, I know you do! So whatâs your problem?â He reached over, a hand coming down on your shoulder and he felt how cold you were.
You stopped in the middle of the sidewalk and his shoes skidded to a halt to stop alongside you and that is when he saw how angry you were, brows pulled together, âMy problem is that if I wear it into that building I am going to get the same spiel that I normally get behind my back!â
the admission made your cheeks heat up. Nobody had ever liked you as a kid and you had schemed and begged to make friends. Everyone was always talking behind your back about you and although you had friends here, you always worried they were still talking about you
âWhat are you talking about?â He questioned. This was it, he had finally cracked why you were being so pissy towards him.
Your chest heaved at the thought of admitting everything to him and you pondered for a second on the consequences of your actions, on how you would have to go back to the office feeling like shit. And before you could even stop yourself, all the words were spilling out of your mouth, âEveryone in the office can see that I have feelings for you! It is so painfully obvious and I can see them whisper every time we talk and-â
Derek cut you off with the sound of your name and you froze, letting the word wash over you. there was something about the way he said it that calmed you in an instant.
He was looking at you with a face that you had never seen on him before. Thatâs a lie you had seen it before, it was a face that was reserved for the family members of victims at work. It was pity. The face made you sick.
You furrowed your brows together, anger boiling in your veins again, âNo. They think I follow after you like some lovesick puppy, like I am always dragging you around places and they think itâs just me being delusional and I know that so-â
Derek shook his head. The face he was pulling wasnât one of pity, it was of adoration, that kind of love that poured out of every pore in your body as the person you loved made themselves look stupid.
He took a step towards you, his hands coming to your face and you froze, the crease between your brow deepening as you tried to figure out what was going on but before you could say anything, he was leaning in.
âShut up pretty girl,â his voice was low and there was a look in his eyes you had seen directed at you hundreds of times before but you had never known what it meant. It was love.
He leaned in slowly, watching as your eyes fluttered closed in anticipation. The first kiss shared between the two of you was the definition of perfect. His head tilted to the side slightly as he pressed his lips against yours, pressing with just the right amount of pressure to make your head dizzy with desire.
he pulled away after a second and your head fell down to his shoulder, a giggle escaping your lips as you realised what had just happened. Your hands came up to his shoulders, grounding yourself.
there was a heat spreading through your body and you werenât cold anymore. This explains why he had been so weird earlier, because he was waiting to admit this to you.
âDoes that seem delusional to you?â He asked when you pulled your head away from his shoulder.
You shook your head, hoping he couldnât tell how flustered you were at the whole experience.
He looked down at the jacket that he had been holding onto in his free hand the whole time and lifted it up so you could see it, âTake my jacket,â
You nodded your head this time, not trying to fight him this time. Derek slung it over your shoulders, it smells like him.
You smiled up at him like this was the best day of your life and he only made it better with the words that slipped from his mouth afterwards at the sight of your joy, âIâm taking you to dinner tonight, you tell them all that, let âem whisper,â
You always thought that you had been the one in control but maybe he was the mastermind the whole time, and now you were his and he was yours.
What about cutie first season Spencer Reid who is desperately in love with his coworker and is kinda blind sided when Lila kisses him𼺠He wants to make it really clear that the kiss was one sided but his soon to be girlfriend is jealous jealousđЎ
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader ( no use of y/n ) content warnings: reader being jealous , mention of lila ( obviously ) a/n: hiii !!! i hope you like this :)
When you read in books the phrase âjealousy boiled in her veins,â you never quite understood it. Sure, youâd felt jealousy before, in fleeting moments of insecurity or longing.
But boiling jealousy? That had always seemed like an exaggeration.Â
Not until four days ago.Â
Though, boiling wasnât the right word for it. No, what you felt then was explosive jealousy.
A kind of heat so intense it made your skin prickle, your throat tighten, your hands curl into fists at your sides. It was the kind of jealousy that made your stomach churn and your heart pound with something dangerously close to heartbreak.Â
Because four days ago, you saw them.Â
Spencer and Lila. In the pool.Â
The images were burned into your memory, tattooed on the inside of your eyelids like a cruel joke. Every time you closed your eyes, there they wereâher arms wrapped around his neck and their faces too close.
You had barely slept since.Â
And work? Work was even worse.Â
Two days ago, when you walked into the BAU for the first time since that dreadful moment, you told yourself youâd be fine. You could be professional. You could pretend it didnât bother you.Â
But you couldnât even look at Spencer.Â
Every time he stepped near you, all you could see was her in his arms. Every time he spoke, all you could hear was the laughter they shared in that damn pool. You forced yourself to act normal, to keep your voice steady and your posture composed.
But it was so, so hard.Â
Elle had noticed. She kept shooting you those pointed glances, raising an eyebrow in silent question. Are you okay?Â
Of course you werenât.Â
How could you be when you had been crushing on Spencer for so long, you could barely remember a time when you hadnât been? How could you be okay when the sight of him with someone else had nearly shattered you?Â
Spencer noticed too. Of course he did.Â
He wasnât obliviousânot when it came to you. He saw the way you avoided his gaze, the way your once warm smiles had faded into stiff nods and clipped responses. He saw the way your shoulders tensed when he entered the room, how you kept your distance like even standing next to him was unbearable.Â
And it was unbearable.Â
He wanted to talk to you, to explain.Â
To tell you that what happened was one-sided. That he hadnât meant for it to happen. That he hadnât wanted it to happen. That it had been unexpected and overwhelming and, ultimately, meaningless.Â
That he was in love with you, not Lila.Â
But how could he say that when you wouldnât even look at him? When every time he tried to get close, you turned away? When the words on the tip of his tongue kept dying in the silence you forced between you?Â
Today, when you walked into the bullpen, the first thing you noticed was Derek. He was leaning against Spencerâs desk, a smirk playing on his lips as he held a paper in his hand.
The moment he saw you, he straightened, casually tossing the paper into the trash, his expression softening as he placed a warm hand on your shoulder.Â
âMorning, sweetheart,â he greeted smoothly.Â
âMorning,â you replied, offering him a small, tired smile.Â
You already knew what he had been holding. The pictures. The ones of Spencer and Lila in the pool. The same ones Derek had undoubtedly been using to tease Spencer with before you arrived. You also knew why Derek immediately threw the magazine away.
Because Derek, just like the rest of the team, knew exactly how you felt about Spencer.Â
And how Spencer felt about you.Â
Everyone with eyes and ears could tell. The way you gravitated toward each other, how you always seemed to seek each other out, how Spencerâs face lit up when you laughed. It wasnât just friendship. It had never been just friendship.Â
Spencer glanced up from his desk as you passed by, flashing you a hesitant, almost hopeful smile.Â
You only nodded, forcing yourself to keep walking.Â
You settled into your chair, taking a slow breath as you forced your hands to stay busy, flipping through the files on your desk. You could feel Spencerâs gaze lingering on you, like he was trying to gather the courage to say something.Â
Spencer missed you.Â
He missed the conversations, the inside jokes, the way you used to nudge his shoulder whenever you walked by. He missed the way your voice softened when you said his name, the way you actually listened to his rambles instead of tuning them out like most people did.Â
And he wantedâneededâto explain.Â
But every time he opened his mouth to speak, the words tangled in his throat. Because what if he ruined everything? What if trying to explain just made things worse?Â
He had been so close before all of this happened.
Just a few days ago, he had been sitting right here, talking to Elle, asking for advice on how to ask you out. He had been nervous, but excited. He had a plan, one he had been going over in his head a hundred timesâsomething simple, something meaningful. He just wanted you to know how much you meant to him.Â
But then Lila happened.Â
And now, instead of planning a date, he was trying to figure out how to make you look at him again.Â
He couldnât take it anymore.Â
Spencer stood abruptly, pushing back his chair with a quiet scrape against the floor. He hesitated for only a second before crossing the room, stopping just beside your desk.Â
âCan we talk?â His voice was quieter than usual.Â
You didnât look up right away, your fingers tightening around the file in front of you. A moment passed before you finally let out a slow sigh and nodded.Â
âOkay.âÂ
Spencer felt his heart stutter in relief.Â
The two of you walked to the breakroom in silence.Â
Spencer closed the door behind him, the soft click sounding much louder in the quiet space. He hesitated, shifting from foot to foot, fingers twitching slightly at his sides.Â
âIââ He stopped, inhaling sharply. Then exhaled. Then hesitated again.Â
You leaned against the coffee counter, arms crossed, waiting. Your heart pounded a little too fast in your chest. You felt awkwardâjust a tiny bit. Because Spencer wanting to talk to you meant he had noticed your behavior. Not that you had been subtle about it.Â
But it also meant he had noticed your jealousy.Â
And that was almost worse.Â
Finally, Spencer spoke, his voice quiet, careful. Earnest.Â
âI miss you.âÂ
Your head snapped up and you just stared at him, wide-eyed.Â
You didn't expect him to be so direct.
Spencer was blushing, a deep red creeping up his neck, dusting the tips of his ears. He looked like he wanted to disappear, like saying those three words had been the most terrifying thing he had ever doneâwhich, knowing him, it very well might have been.Â
But the way he was looking at you, like he was afraid he had already lost you, made something twist painfully in your chest.Â
âIââ You swallowed, your throat suddenly dry. âYou⌠what?âÂ
Spencer gave a small, nervous laugh, running a hand through his hair. âI miss you,â he repeated, voice softer this time. âAnd IâI know youâre upset. I know why. And I just⌠I need you to know that what happened with Lila, itâit wasnât what it looked like.âÂ
You pressed your lips together, your fingers gripping the counter behind you. âIt looked like you were kissing her,â you muttered, unable to stop the sharp edge in your voice.Â
Spencer winced. âShe kissed me,â he corrected quickly. âIâI didnât expect it, and I definitely didnât want it. I pulled away as soon as Iââ He stopped himself, shaking his head. âIt wasnât what I wanted.âÂ
You stared at him for a long moment. He was shifting anxiously, his hands half-raised like he wanted to reach for you but didnât know if he could. His brows were drawn together, his lips pressed into a tight line, like he was bracing himself for you to tell him you didnât care.Â
But you did care. That was the problem, wasnât it?Â
You looked down, inhaling deeply before meeting his gaze again. âThen⌠what do you want, Spencer?âÂ
His breath hitched.Â
For a moment, he said nothing, just looking at you like he was memorizing every detail of your face, like he needed to get this right. Then, finally, he took a small step forward, eyes locked onto yours.Â
âYou,â he said simply.
Your heart stopped.Â
And then it started again, thundering against your ribs, because Spencer Reid had just admittedâout loudâthat he wanted you.Â
The jealousy that had been burning inside you for days was suddenly replaced by something else entirely.Â
Hope.Â
âIâwhat?â Your ability to form sentences had seemingly vanished. Your mouth hung slightly open as you stared at him, heart hammering against your ribs.Â
Spencer, for his part, was barely looking at you. His eyes flickered to yours for a second before darting back to the coffee pot behind you, like it was suddenly the most fascinating thing in the world.Â
âMe?â you finally managed to say. That was it. That was all your brain could come up with. Me?Â
Spencer nodded, still not quite meeting your gaze.Â
Silence stretched between you, thick with unsaid words.
Then, finally, he spoke again.Â
âI wasâI was trying to figure out how to ask you out,â he admitted, his voice quieter now, more uncertain. âI was talking to Elle about it, actually. Trying toâŚto make a plan.â His hands twitched at his sides, like he wasnât sure what to do with them. âAnd then Lilaââ He exhaled sharply, shaking his head. âEverything just got messed up.âÂ
âReally?â you asked, your lips curving into the smallest hint of a smile.Â
Spencer finally looked at you again, his expression both relieved and vulnerable all at once. âYeah,â he breathed out.Â
The heaviness in your chest eased, just a little.Â
You took a slow step toward him, close enough that you could see the way his breath hitched, the way his fingers curled slightly like he was stopping himself from reaching for you.Â
âSoâŚâ You tilted your head, your voice softer now. âHow were you going to ask me?âÂ
Spencer let out a short, nervous laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. âUh⌠I had a whole thing planned. Something about books and coffee and, um, statistics on first-date success ratesâŚâ He trailed off, his face burning. âIt was probably a bad plan.âÂ
You bit your lip, your smile growing. âI donât know,â you mused, your heart pounding. âI think I wouldâve liked it.âÂ
Spencer blinked at you, hope flickering across his face. âYeah?âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
The silence that followed wasnât awkward this time. It was warm.
You took another step forward, and this time, Spencer didnât move away. He was still nervous, still hesitant, but he didnât look away when you reached out and brushed your fingers against his.Â
âI still would,â you said quietly.Â
Spencer swallowed, his fingers twitching against yours before he finally, finally curled them around your hand. His grip was unsure at firstâlike he was waiting for you to change your mindâbut when you didnât pull away, his shoulders relaxed.Â
âThen,â he said, his lips curving ever so slightly, âwould you maybe want toââÂ
âYes,â you interrupted, grinning now.Â
Spencer smiled, a real, relieved smile, and you felt something settle in your chestâsomething that had been in turmoil for days.Â
This was sooo cute
summary: spencer studies intimacy like any other subject, but nothing prepares him for the reality of being with you. in your arms, he finally learns that some things canât be understood- only experienced. pairing: inexperienced!spencer reid x reader warnings: fluff galore, lots of kissing (practically making out), intimacy, but no explicit sexual content! wc: 1.1k masterlist. a/n: this brilliant idea came from my very lovely moot @/jackiesistired over on twitter <33
Spencer had read five books about kissing.
Not just any books, no. They were scientific, psychology-based books that broke down the act of kissing into its most basic neurological, physiological, and psychological components. Heâd also skipped numerous peer-reviewed journal articles, and, at some point, had managed to venture into less scientific territory- modern dating guides that made his skin crawl but ultimately did provide insight into what people expected in relationships.
And then, there was the⌠other research.
The kind that led to him sitting in front of his laptop at 3 a.m., his ears burning as he read about intimacy in ways he hadnât yet experienced. He took notes. Intricate organized, handwritten notes in which he annotated his key findings, storing them away like highly classified information.
But all of it- all of the extensive research- meant absolutely nothing the moment your lips crashed against his.
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You and Spencer had been dating for a few months now, and while things had been progressing steadily, he hadnât made any major moves beyond gentle, lingering kisses and hesitant, shaky touches.Â
He was shy about it- not because he didnât want you to know, but because he was terrified of messing up. Heâd told you early on about his utter lack of experience, and you had reassured him earnestly that there was no pressure.
But he wanted more. He wanted to touch you the way you touched him. He wanted to kiss you until you were both breathless, and he wanted to see if reality could really live up to things he had spent so long reading about. He wanted to know if he was capable of making you feel good.
Most of all, he desperately wanted to stop overthinking.
Which is how he found himself here.
Spencer hadnât realised just how sensitive he was until he was beneath your hands, beneath your lips, and was trying (and failing) to stay coherent.
You had started slow and gentle, kissing him with a sweet, lingering tenderness, but the moment he responded- the moment he made the quiet, needy sound in the back of his throat- you deepened it. Suddenly, he wasnât sure if he could survive this.
Your fingers tangled in his curls, tugging softly, and the delicious whine that escaped him was so involuntary, so desperate, that you felt him tense in embarrassment.
You pulled back just enough to whisper against his lips, âDonât hold back.â
His breath hitched. His head spun as his grip on your waist tightened, unsure whether to pull you closer until there was no air between you or to push you away before he completely unraveled under your touch.
âI- I donât-â He swallowed harshly as your lips gently brushed across his jaw. âI didnât know I was this-â
âSensitive?â you supplied graciously, dragging your lips down his neck.
Spencer shuddered. âY-yeah,â he admitted, voice wrecked already.
You smiled against his soft skin. âI like it.â
He let out a ragged breath, his eyes fluttering shut as you pressed kisses down the column of his throat. âI- I think I do too.â
You laughed softly as you trailed lower, and Spencer actually whimpered.
Youâd never heard a sound quite like that from him before- so high and desperate- a noise that he clearly hadnât intended to make. His whole body twitched beneath your teasing touch, and he was gripping the couch cushions like they were his sole tether to reality.Â
âOh, God-â His voice cracked as your teeth grazed over his pulse point, his hips shifting instinctively beneath you.
He inhaled sharply as you went back up and pressed a kiss just beneath his jaw. Suddenly, his brain kicked into overdrive. "Did you know that the skin along the neck has an increased concentration of sensory receptors? Itâs why-" His words cut off with a sharp inhale when your lips gently caressed the skin where his neck met his shoulder.
"Why what?" you teased, brushing your lips lightly over his neck.
"Why- itâs- um- " His breath hitched. "Itâs a- an erogenous zone- highly sensitive- oh-"Â
"You were saying?" you murmured, dragging your lips up the column of his throat.   Â
"I-" He tried again, but when you nipped lightly at his jaw, his thoughts crumbled.   Â
You pulled back to take in the sight of him. He was flushed, panting, his pupils blown wide with something akin to pleading.
âSpencer,â you murmured, running your fingers through his tousled curls, reveling in how he leaned into your touch like he was starving for it.
He looked up at you in a daze, his lips parted like he was trying to form words, but he failed to find them.
âI-â He swallowed hard. âI did research on this.â
You tilted your head slightly and bit your lip, amused. âUh-huh?â
âVery extensive research,â he admitted, his voice hoarse. âA lot of it.â
âAnd what did your research tell you?â You hummed softly as you trailed your fingers lightly down his chest.
He inhaled sharply as he tried not to react to your touch. âThat, uh- physical contact increases oxytocin, which promotes bonding, and- oh-â His voice broke when you pressed a kiss just below his ear, his whole body trembling beneath yours.
You grinned. âGo on, Spencer.â
âI- I-â His fingers clenched at your hips as you shifted, his breath stuttering. âOh, my God-â
You kissed him again, slow and deep, and he let out the softest moan against your lips, feeling utterly helpless.
His hands trembled where they held you, like he was overwhelmed and he didnât know where to move them. Like he was afraid that if he moved too much, or breathed too much, he might just lose control completely.
âYou are adorable,â you whispered against his lips, dragging your nails lightly down his back.
He exhaled shakily. "I- um- "
Your smile softened, pressing a kiss to the corner of his mouth. âLetâs practice more.â
Spencerâs hands tightened on your waist, and for once, he didnât overthink.
He just felt.
And it was so much better than anything he had ever read.
âą âââââââââ {â . ⯠.â } âââââââââ â°
Later, when you were curled up against him, fingers tracing lazy circles on his chest, he let out a quiet, disbelieving laugh.
You lifted your head. âWhat?â
He shook his head, cheeks still tinged pink. âI spent weeks preparing. Studying. Making sure I knew everything I could possibly know. And yetâŚâ He looked down at you, still dazed. âNothing I read could have prepared me for you.â
You smiled, pressing a lingering kiss to his jaw.
âThatâs because,â you murmured, âsome things you just have to experience.â
Spencer exhaled shakily, pulling you closer.
âThen I think I still have a lot to learn.â
You grinned, playing with the curls at the nape of his neck. âGood thing I loved teaching you.â
And when you kissed him again, he decided that practical application was his new favorite subject.
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đŹđŽđŚđŚđđŤđ˛: your relationship is still very new, and you're getting ready to tell the rest of the team about it. in the meantime, you find yourselves again in another unusual hotel...where suddenly spencer starts acting very strangely?
đđ¨đ§đđđ§đđŹ/đŠđ¨đđđ§đđ˘đđĽ đđ°: glasses spencer reid x newbau!female!reader, fluff, intimacy conversation, spender being adorably shy
đ/đ§: 'matilda how many more times are you gonna write that one bed trope' AS MUCH AS I CAN TILL I DIE btw i wrote this fic over a pretty long period of time, had a main idea (supposedly), but in the end i'm not happy with how it turned outâkinda all over the place. anyway, enjoy
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"My five dollars"
Spencer sighed and reached into his jacket pocket to pull out the slightly crumpled bill. You closed it in your hand, a triumphant smile on your face.
"Let's make bets more often, darling," you suggested.
When you used that nickname, his gaze briefly flickered over your face, as if studying whether it had been said purely in jest.
"Youâre puffing up like you just invented the wheel," he said, gently shaking his head from side to side. "And just to remind you, all you did was park parallel."
"Parked parallel, indeed. And my coffee?"
He also handed you the paper cup heâd been holding while you performed those incredibly complicated car maneuvers that the bet was about. It was morning, the first day back at work. January, the first days of the new year. You had just arrived at the office parking lot in your car, after spending the night at your place. Everything around you still seemed to smell of that melancholic blend of the past mixed with the fresh scent of the coming months. And coffee, bought at the cafĂŠ on the way.
You took a tiny sip of the hot drink. Spencer, it seemed, hadnât touched his even once. Both of you, consciously or not, were stretching out the moment just a little longer. And, truth be told, you could afford to. The parking lot around you was only beginning to fill with cars, suggesting the early hour. It was nice to sit there together, sharing the quiet without any discomfort.
You realized this was supposed to be your first day at work as a couple.
A warm, pleasant feeling spread through you at the sound of that word, even though you hadnât said it out loud. It still felt a little unreal. You had grown closer during the New Yearâs Eve party at your place. It was only after that sharedâand not just oneâkiss that a new perspective dawned on you about the past months of your relationship, revealing some undefined emotions.
"I was wondering..." Spender suddenly began, his brows furrowed slightly, pulling you out of your thoughts.
His gaze suddenly fell on his watch.
"We still have some time," you reassured him calmly. "Let me guess. You've been wondering what would happen if we crossed the DNA of a jellyfish that can reverse its life cycle with the human genome?"
A small smile flickered across his face, a touch of affection despite the rather serious expression on the rest of his face.
"That too," he admitted, nodding. Then he opened his mouth, with some visible hesitation, as if a particular question was troubling him. You shifted in the driver's seat, preparing for whatever he wanted to discuss, whatever he wanted to ask. "How...how are we supposed to act...you know, towards each other? At work?"
For a moment, your brain didnât understand what he meant. But then, a fleeting oh escaped you as the meaning of his words sank in, and you realized that it was indeed something worth considering. Somehow, over the past few days, neither of you had brought it up. You had just gone back to work, without any reflection on the fact that none of your colleagues knew about the progress in your relationship. About how it had suddenly taken a step to a completely different level.
Spencer studied your face in silence, waiting for a response. As he looked at you, coming up with a logical solution became incredibly difficult. Before you finally said anything, you let out two half-intelligent mutters, like a fish thrown onto the surface.
"We have to tell them," you finally said, stating the obvious. "Somehow. Maybe...we can meet at my place this weekend. All of us. Or we could go out somewhere, and then tell them calmly."
"This weekend?" Spencer repeated cautiously.
It was Monday.
Suddenly, it became incredibly hard to read the expression on his face. He was facing you, his brows slightly furrowed, a look of uncertainty, almost withdrawal. The air inside your car thickened, making the silence even more palpable. He seemed almost concerned, downcast. You froze, wondering if you had really said something wrong.
"So until then," he started more quietly, "are we just supposed to hide it from them?"
âI'm not sure hide is the right word," you replied with a grimace. "I just...I meant, maybe we should wait. For a better moment, you know? Instead of walking into the office on the first Monday of the year, when half the people are still nursing hangovers, and saying hey, guess what? we hooked up!â
His expression hadn't changed, despite your pretty honest explanation.
"You don't like the idea," you stated, rather than asking. You made sure your voice sounded gentle, adjusting it to the situation. "I can see that, Spencer."
"Okay, you're right, I don't like it," he admitted with a sudden coolness, his lips tightening slightly between sentences. "Because...I don't get your reasoning. Or, maybe I just donât know if this is really what you mean."
Slightly surprised, you shook your head.
"What else could Iâ"
"I donât know if it's really about that, or maybe..." he cut off, looking into your eyes as if hoping you'd understand by now. But you didn't have the skill to read his mind, no matter how remarkable it wasâit was also incredibly complex. "Or maybe...I donât know, you just donât take it seriously. That's why you don't want to tell anyone about it."
You gasped, finally understanding his behavior. Realizing the hidden concern.
"Youâre worried I don't take us seriously?"
Spencer shrugged briefly.
"You know, if that's really the case, I'd rather know now..."
You leaned in to catch one of his hands, which had been clasped over his chest. You broke his defensive stance, pulling him toward you by his long fingers, simply holding it for a moment before speaking again. With a smile. A slightly amused smile.
"Of course, I take us seriously, you idiot," you snorted. A sense of relief washed over you. Earlier, heâd seemed genuinely worried, and youâd been expecting far worse things than the fact that your guy literally paled with anxiety over worrying you werenât as invested in your fresh relationship as he was. Well, out of context, it sounded like a very serious concern. But the context was, you took it seriously, and you were incredibly happy he did too. "You know what? Maybe you're right. Why should we make idiots out of ourselves for the next week? Letâs just walk in like this."
You motioned toward your intertwined fingers, raising them as if they were a trophy earned through sweat and tears. Spencer followed their movement with his gaze, initially surprised, but then the corner of his mouth twitched, and he tilted his head with a quiet chuckle.
"We can do it your way," he said, taking control of your hands, clasping them with both of his. He looked relieved; your reassurance and the sincerity in your voice clearly calmed him. You smiled too, finally seeing that peace on his face. "I really don't mind waiting a few days. It might even be⌠interesting. One of us might not hold out and accidentally slip up."
You raised an eyebrow in a teasing manner.
"Another bet, Reid?" you clicked your tongue. You kept eye contact with him, feeling his thumb gently tracing circles on the back of your hand. He seemed so unaffected, as if he didnât realize he was doing it. "You already lost five bucks aboutâŚten minutes ago. At this rate, you'll be broke within a month, and we'll have to skip that overpriced coffee downtown. Now that would be a real horror story, speaking as a citizen of the first world."
"Didn't say anything about another bet!â
"Too late," you shot back, turning his hand and taking it in a more formal handshake. "Handshakes sealed the deal."
He rolled his eyes, but a half-smile lingered on his face. He still hadnât let go of your hand.
"I think we should get going," he said reluctantly.
You sighed with the same enthusiasm. You really felt stuck to that seat, right next to him.
"You know, being late on the first day of the new year should be fully justified..."
"We really need to go."
He was right. But before either of you could move to get out of the car, he leaned forward. Gently cupping your cheek, he drew you in, his lips meeting yours in a soft, lingering kiss. You closed your eyes, feeling the warmth of his touch, and for a brief moment, the world outside seemed to vanishâjust the two of you, in that quiet, perfect stillness.
His face suddenly turned to the side, noticing something through the windshield. You frowned and looked in the same direction.
"That's Gideon," you remarked out loud, even though both of you had already spotted the silhouette of your coworker stepping out of a car that had just parked a short distance ahead. He wasnât looking your way yet, but he could at any moment. "Quick, hide!"
Okay, you were completely honest with yourself. It wasnât about being afraid of getting caught. After all, there was nothing strange about two coworkers arriving at work together in the same carâit was even very eco-friendly. You just liked the idea of shoving Reid under the seat. And the poor thing, so thrown off by the mock authority in your voice and the situation itself, did it without a second thought.
When Gideon finally noticed you, you cheerfully waved at him.
"Fuck," you muttered suddenly.
"What is it?" Spencer returned to his seat, adjusting his glasses on his nose. "Do you think he saw me?"
You shook your head.
"I just realizedâŚthis is your car."
*
"Okay, draw a straw."
"Morgan, how old are you?" You shook your head in disbelief, staring at the man standing across from you in the motel lobby. The place where you were spending the night this time was very tidy, with subdued colors, but, as tradition demanded, there had to be some sort of problem. You had one room for two, but one of them only had a double bed. So, you had to decide which two lucky people would share it. "Five?"
"And a half. Listen, we have to decide somehow. Let fate do it. The two who pull the shortest will sleep together. Simple as that."
Before you could say anything else, Garcia approached, weighed down by her bags. Yes, herârarely did any case require her to be on-site, but it wasnât completely unheard of.
"Oh, come on, Sweetie," she muttered to you, setting her luggage down and hunching slightly to catch her breath. "Let him feel like a kid again for a moment. He doesnât get the chance often."
You sighed in resignation, but before you could pull one of the purple straws (how did he even get them?) that Morgan was holding in such a way that their lengths were hidden, you glanced around briefly. Sometimes you arrived at hotels at different times, some getting there faster, others later. Spencer and JJ had just walked in, both wearing coats to shield them from the cold January air. You couldnât help but smile at the sight of him and his fogged-up glasses, which he quietly cursed under his breathâjudging by the movement of his lips. However, you quickly composed yourself, returning to a neutral expression. It had only been two days since your agreement to keep the details of your relationship hidden, and so far, neither of you had slipped or forgotten to keep quiet around the others. Well, out of the two of you, you were probably struggling with it moreâbeing a bit of a clinger, sometimes even your body would naturally gravitate towards his when standing next to him.
âWhy are you standing here?â Spencer asked, approaching you. âIs there a problem with the rooms?â
âIs there ever not a problem with the rooms?â you responded, laughing. âSome poor souls are going to have to share a bed,â you explained, making brief eye contact with him. You were sure only he could catch the emphasis you placed on poor souls.
Of course, you wouldn't mind ending up in the same room. It wasn't about the fact that you were togetherâbefore, youâd shared rooms and even beds, and you were used to it by now. You would've probably offered it yourself, if it werenât for the potential suspicion and that silly bet, which was starting to lose its point in your eyes. Maybe you shouldâve just told them a few days ago?
âOh,â he said shortly, crossing his arms with a bit of stiffness. His brown bag hung from his shoulder. He held your gaze for a moment, but his expression wasnât as amused as yours. His brows furrowed slightly as he cleared his throat. âPoor them. Whoâs it going to be?â
You slightly puffed out your lips slightly, watching him with a sharp look. What was it that made him so uneasyâthe fact that you might not be in the same room this time?
âWe were just about to decide,â Penelope replied, glancing at her friend with a teasing smile. âMorganâs going to show us a game he learned today in kindergarten."
 JJ couldn't help but snort.
 âJust draw a strawâŚ!â
You couldnât recall another moment when all of you, every single one, rolled your eyes in perfect unison. But thatâs exactly what happened when Derek once again enthusiastically explained the rules, as though they werenât already ridiculously simple. In the end, each of you reached for one of the straws he was holding.
JJ went first. She pulled hers quickly, and it was of regular length, so it was immediately clear she wasnât one of the poor souls. She raised her hand in a mock display of triumph, earning a few amused chuckles from the group.
Your turn came next. You approached the task with a certain gravity, as though the fate of the night depended entirely on the straw you chose. You studied each one carefully, as if their lengths could somehow be deciphered from the way they were arranged.
You wouldnât have minded drawing the shortest straw. But only on one condition.Â
Morgan looked at you with mock sympathy. Your straw wasnât even half as long as JJâs, which seemed to settle things. Now, it was just a matter of figuring out which of the remaining twoâReid or Garciaâwould end up joining you.
Spencer reached out with a calculated, deliberate motion, his eyes immediately darting to yours when his straw turned out to be...one of the longer ones.
You shot him a look of bitter disappointment before your gaze shifted to your soon-to-be roommate. Penelope didnât seem disheartenedâon the contrary, an enthusiastic smile lit up her face. She opened her mouth to say something, but you caught the fleeting shift in her expression and the subtle flicker of her eyes.
âOh no,â she suddenly gasped, her voice filled with exaggerated horror, even though sheâd just seemed perfectly content, or at least not displeased, at the idea of sharing a room with you. âNo, absolutely not. Thereâs no way Iâm sleeping in the same room with her. Do you guys even know how loud she snores?â
Lies! You wanted to yell, but stopped yourself as realization dawned. Garcia was a good actressâyou had to give her thatâbut her flair for dramatics always bordered on overkill, making it far too easy to catch her in a lie.
âIâm not used to traveling as often as you guys are,â Penelope continued in the same over-the-top tone. âI barely get a wink of sleep in a new place when itâs quiet, let alone with someone next to me snoring like a steam engineâŚâ
âLove you too, Pen,â you muttered dryly.
âSomeone has to switch with me, please,â she concluded, clasping her fingers together in a dramatic plea and pulling off the best puppy-dog eyes youâd seen in a long time. Well, at least since the time Reid had tried to coax you into reciting one of your old, cringe-worthy high school poemsâthe existence of which youâd only ever confessed to him.
âJJ?â Penelope turned her hopeful gaze toward her.
âNot a chance. My straw was the longest,â JJ replied, smug and immovable.
âDonât even think about asking me,â Morgan chimed in before anyone could so much as glance in his direction.
And so, all eyes inevitably fell on Reid.
He awkwardly scratched the back of his ear, not looking directly at you.
âWell, I always carry earplugs with meâŚâ
âThen itâs settled!â Garcia declared, hoisting her luggage with sudden determination. One of her heavy bags was thrust into Morganâs arms so abruptly that he staggered backward under its weight. âSweet dreams, everyone! Donât let the bedbugs bite, and may the sheep you count tonight be extra fluffy and adorable. Goodnight!â
Just before she fully turned to leave, she sent you a quick, knowing wink.
You shook your head in disbelief, but the faintest smile danced on your lips. You didnât even bother questioning how she knew. Only one conclusion circled your mind. Penelope could be really impossible. Thankfully, being impossible didnât disqualify her from also being the best friend under this vast, sprawling sky. Period.
*
"What do you think about starting a tier list for all the hotels we stay in?â you remarked as both of you crossed the threshold of the room. Your eyes immediately landed on its unexpected feature. âOr at least the weirdest ones. Like the one with walls the color of cat pee where the power went out in the middle of the night. That oneâs definitely at the top..."
"I donât really get the point of a mirror on the ceiling," Reid said after a pause, looking over his shoulder at you. He was standing a few steps away, near the bed in the glaring white room with birchwood floors. "Who wants to look at themselves while trying to fall asleep?â
You raised an eyebrow, unsure if he was joking or not. He raised an eyebrow too, not understanding why you did that. Okay, he wasnât joking.
"You know, the main point isnât really to look at yourself while falling asleep," you explained, with a bit of amused pity. Your gaze also briefly lingered on the glass surface above the bed, designed to reflect the bodies of people lying in bed. You thought it was a surprising addition but werenât planning on spending too much time on it for now. You just wanted to get your shoes offâshoes youâd been wearing since sunriseâand finally lie down on something soft. "By the way, Iâm taking a shower first."
Spencer only muttered something under his breath in response. Before disappearing behind the bathroom door, you cast one last glance at him. He seemed quietâstrangely quiet. Not that you were expecting his usual chatter after a long day of work; it could weigh on anyone and leave them feeling subdued. Maybe he just needed an extra moment to unwind, and thatâs where his restraint came from.
Anyway, you took a quick shower. The pressure of the hot water nearly scalded your skin, which meant youâd be spared the bitter complaints, grumbling, and dramatic resignation threats from Morgan the next day. You felt too tired to linger under the stream for long. After a few minutes, you stepped out of the shower, changed into your sleepwear, and gathered the clothes youâd worn all day from the floor.
You and Spencer passed each other in the doorway without a word.
Glancing back over your shoulder, you frowned. The bathroom door shut behind him, and some concerned question froze on your lips. For a moment, you stood still, debating whether you should ask it. But then the sound of running water reached your ears, and you figured he probably wouldnât hear you anyway.
Instead, you decided to climb into bed, wait for him, and ask about it then. Whatever it was clearly weighed on him, and the fact that something was bothering him bothered you. Funny how that worked, right?
You spent that moment lying on your back, eyes wide open, afraid you might accidentally fall asleep if you closed them. A comfortable bed during a caseâit felt like pure luxury. You were waiting for Spencer to finally emerge from the bathroom so you could curl up next to him, fall asleep to the fresh post-shower scent of him, and the gentle rise and fall of his chest as he breathed.
Just like you had spent half the day after the New Yearâs party at your placeâwrapped around each other, arguing over who would get up to make coffee and whether you should start cleaning up the mess from the night before.
You tucked your arm beneath your head, gazing at your fully-covered form reflected in the ceiling mirror.
âDid you find a portal to another galaxy in there or what?â you finally called out, impatient. Heâd been in there way too long. And coming from youâa known lover of long, indulgent bathsâthat was saying something.
âSorry,â he murmured as he finally emerged from the bathroom, wearing a gray t-shirt instead of his usual neat work attire and tie perfectly knotted at his neck. He still had his glasses on, which he mightâve forgotten to remove, judging by the way he slid into bed to your left without taking them off.
You watched him closely, rubbing at your tired eye. The shower had managed to wash away about half of the tension from Spencerâs face, but the other half stubbornly remained.
âYou didnât have to wait for me,â he said softly.
âI didnât have to,â you admitted simply, watching as he carefully adjusted himself, finding the right position. The lamp on his side of the bed cast a warm glow over his skin. You were both half-sitting, you comfortably propped up against the soft pillows, and him barely leaning back against them. âBut I wanted to. We really lucked out with this room, huh? Penelope is one of a kind.â
"Did you tell her about us?"
"I didnât say a word. She's just more observant than the restâ
He nodded, agreeing with you. You thought he might say something else about it, maybe make a joke about the bet, but he didnât. You yawned.
"You seem tired.â
âHow did you figure that out, Sherlock?â you asked, your sarcasm light, without a hint of malice. âYou too, by the way. Although, itâs not just that you seem tiredâyou are tired, at first glance. Or maybe somethingâs bothering you. Or maybe both. Am I right?â
He shrugged slowly.
âNo, as far as I know.â
âOh, come on,â you muttered, rolling your eyes. You pulled your knees closer to your chest, shifting into a full sitting position with slightly bent legs. You leaned forward just enough to gently take his glasses off and fold them, your fingers brushing briefly against his cheek. He didnât look at what you were doing, his gaze fixed on your face under the soft fall of his lashes. The wonderful color of his eyes, the slight hesitation in your movements as you moved a little closer to kiss himâa fleeting, tender press of lips.
âSomethingâs going on, and you can tell me about it.â
âOr we could just go to sleep,â he suggested quietly. âItâs been a long day. You must be tired, I mean, you yawned a little while ago.â
You tilted your head, studying him thoughtfully. Was he really trying this hard to dodge the topic? How could you get him to open up?
âI know blackmail isnât exactly healthy for relationships,â you started finally, turning his glasses over in your hands, âbut Iâm not giving these back until you tell me.â
Both corners of his mouth twitched at once.
âOh no, what am I going to do now?â he replied with feigned concern, gently shaking his head. Then he lowered his voice. âThis is exactly what Iâd say if I didnât also have contacts with me.â
"Sometimes I just want toâŚugh."
"Violence isn't too healthy for relationships either."
"Just like not opening up. Remember what we talked about a few days ago in the car? You were worried I don't take you seriously. How else am I supposed to prove I'm serious if I donât ask whatâs wrong when I can tell somethingâs off?"
Your explanation sounded a bit jumbled, but he had to get the general idea. The reference to that specific conversation and his own words seemed to hit a sensitive spot.
"I didnât want you to feel like you have to prove anything to me," he quickly corrected, swallowing hard. His chest fell, and the sigh felt like surrender. "I'm sorry. I just don't want you to worry about it. It's nothing serious. Iâm just tired...and a little stressed."
"Stressed?" you repeated, surprised. "You're stressed? But about what?"
He hesitated for a moment.
"Just... about this," he said vaguely, his gaze shifting from you to your reflection in the glass ceiling. "Us, I mean."
"What do you mean?" you asked quietly, still confused, gently shaking your head. "We've shared rooms before, so if itâs about that, I really donât get it."
"Yeah, but never like this. In a room with a king-sized bed and a huge mirror right above us," he explained, his voice tinged with embarrassment, clearly wishing he could just stop talking. "Okay, I know this sounds dumb, I know it does, but I donât know why itâs messing with my head like this. I just...I kinda thought maybe you'd want to..."
"Spencer," you interrupted, saving him from going any further. You saw a flicker of relief in his eyes. You werenât sure what emotion was bubbling up inside you nowâwhether it was still confusion or just pure amusement. "You were worried Iâd want to have sex with you?âÂ
You didnât even need to wait for his answer to know youâd hit the nail on the head. Considering how your relationship had grown out of friendship, slowly evolving over time and shared experiences instead of a sudden burst of passion, you werenât surprised you hadnât yet taken that step together. It was something special in its own wayâthere had never been any pressure, and you hadnât expected that he might feel the exact opposite.
So when you finally figured out what had been bothering him all this time, you couldnât help but laugh, the sound light and genuine.
"You were right, you know. It does sound kind of dumb," you said, unable to keep the smile from your face. His expression remained unreadable, his posture betraying a hint of anticipation as he waited for the rest of your reaction. "But alsoâŚI donât know, kind of adorable? But seriously, Spencer, we donât have to do anything if youâre not ready."
"Itâs not that I donât want to at all," he clarified quickly, almost too firmly. "I mean...itâd be our first time. Together. Thatâs what I mean. And I guess I just didnât expect it to...happen tonight, here, of all places."
"I didnât either," you admitted truthfully, the smile still lingering on your face. Unlike him, you didnât feel even a hint of embarrassment. "I figured weâd just go to sleep, especially since we both already admitted weâre exhausted."
"Fair point," he mumbled.
"Honestly, this has to be the biggest example of overthinking Iâve ever seen anyone put themselves through, Spencer," you teased lightly, shaking your head.
For a moment, he stayed silent, but it felt like he was letting out a breath heâd been holding.
âYouâre gonna have to get used to that,â he admitted finally, his voice soft. But then, you caught the faint glimmer of a smile tugging at his lips.
He even started to laugh, a quiet chuckle filled with a sort of amused self-awareness. Meanwhile, you leaned out of the bed to place his glasses on the nightstand on your side. If he wanted them in the morning, heâd have no choice but to reach right over you.
âBut just for the record,â he began after a moment, as you reached for the edge of the blanket that had slipped off you earlier, pulling it back up to wrap around yourself. Your head was only inches from the pillow now. You gave him a questioning nod. He, too, was getting ready to lie down, finally looking genuinely relaxed. âHow pathetic do you think that was, on a scale from one to ten?â
You just rolled your eyes, not even dignifying the question with an answer.
âIn the interest of science,â he pressed, âone to ten?â
âPathetic enough that youâll need to redeem yourself a little in my eyes,â you sighed dramatically. âGo on, Iâm waiting for your ideas.â
âI think I might have a few,â he replied with a soft chuckle.
You prolonged the kiss, savoring the deep sense of comfort it brought you. The two of you lay face to face, and you gently brushed a few still-damp strands of hair from Spencer's forehead, though they stubbornly fell back into place. Eventually, you gave up with a soft sigh against his lips. Spencer kept his eyes closed, lost in a quiet bliss, even as you pulled back just slightly, leaving only an inch of space between you.
"Can I turn off the light now?" you asked, as always. The question had become a tradition since you'd learned about his complicated relationship with darkness.
He hummed in agreement, nodding faintly. Leaning over him, you reached for the bedside lamp on his side. The room was instantly bathed in darkness, your reflections in the mirror above fading into obscurity.
You didnât fully return to your original spot. Instead, you shifted closer, resting your head comfortably against his chest. The hotel pillows were unbelievably plush, you had to admit, but that night, you chose this over anything else.
"Youâre not asleep," he noted gently after about fifteen minutes. He cleared his throat. "During sleep, a personâs breathing becomes slower and more regular. You know, if youâre uncomfortable here, you donât have toâŚ"
"Iâm listening to your heartbeat," it slipped out of you. Though it was true, you hadnât planned on admitting it out loud. "Nothing sinister, just to be clear. Iâm not planning to rip it out of your chest or anything like that. It just works for me."
"Really?"
"Yeah. Like those videos that imitate the sound of a crackling fireplace. Pretty calming."
"My heartbeat reminds you of the sound of a fireplace?" he said, a glint of confusion in his softly hoarse voice.
You sighed, in the darkness, he couldnât see the faint smile painting itself on your face, pressed against his chest.
"Sweet dreams, silly."
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summary: it's the night before your wedding and lando can't bare to spend it all alone
Your head shook as another knock at the door came, knowing exactly who was on the other side. You tried your best to ignore it as you unpacked your suitcase, but they were ever so persistent, knocking once again.Â
âLando, you shouldnât be here,â you called out, walking over to the door. âYou can stand there all night long but Iâm not opening the door. The boys will all be wondering where you are.âÂ
âI donât care abou them,â Lando replied, leaning against the other side of the door. âI just want to see you one last time before tomorrow, just a couple of minutes, thatâs all that Iâm asking for.âÂ
Your eyes closed as you leant on the door, hearing Lando sigh. His voice was desperate as he tapped on the door once again, letting you know that he was still there. You could only smile at how determined Lando was, refusing to go without seeing you.Â
âYouâll get to see me forever after tomorrow,â you tried to assure him, âitâs only one night away from each other, weâve done it hundreds of times before.âÂ
Landoâs head shook, âthis time itâs different, itâs our wedding morning tomorrow.âÂ
âWhy are you here Lando?â You groaned, beginning to think that there was more to things than he was letting on. âSomethingâs not gone wrong, has it?âÂ
His head shook, remembering that you couldnât see him. âI spoke to George and he said Carmen told him that you were feeling nervous. I wanted to come and see you and make sure that you were alright, I donât want you to be nervous, you should be excited.âÂ
âI am excited,â you responded, dropping down to the floor, âtomorrow is just such a big deal, and thereâs so many people going to be there. I hate having all that attention on me, thatâs all.âÂ
Lando remained where he was, only wanting to see you more now that he knew how you felt, keen to settle your nerves and reassure you not to worry.Â
âLet me see you and just give you a hug,â Lando requested, tapping the door once again. âWeâre fine to see each other, tradition is only tomorrow morning, not that either of us really care about that anyway.âÂ
The sound of the lock turning made Lando jump up, watching as you opened the door slightly. It was wide enough for Lando to see you, but not open enough for him to be able to reach in and hold onto you.Â
âLando, I promise you that Iâm absolutely fine. Go and enjoy your evening.âÂ
âI canât see well enough to be sure,â he grinned, refusing to give up quite that easily, trying to push the door to fit his hand through it. âWhatâs the point of just letting me see a bit of you, why not just open the door all the way?âÂ
âBecause once youâre here I know you wonât go away,â you chuckled.Â
Landoâs eyes widened at your assumption, shaking his head in reply to you. The smile on his face told you otherwise though, you knew exactly what he was up to, and once he was in, there was no way that he was going to be walking back out again.Â
You tried your best to keep the door shut, but Lando was far stronger than you were, digging his heels into the ground and pushing the door open, stumbling over his feet and falling straight into your hotel room.Â
âServes you right,â you grinned, offering your hand to help him up. Â
Lando stood himself up and straightened his clothes before heading in your direction. His arms wrapped around your frame as he tightly held you against his chest, pressing several kisses against the top of your head, refusing to let go now that he had a hold of you.Â
Lando kicked the door to your hotel room shut, keeping you in his hold as he walked you both over to your bed, dropping down in the middle of it with you by his side, making himself comfortable like he was there for the night.Â
After a few moments, Landoâs hand trailed along your back. âThereâs no need to worry about tomorrow you know, itâs going to be perfect, Iâm sure of it.âÂ
With all the efforts you and Lando had put in, you knew there was no reason to worry, there was no chance of anything going wrong. You had the perfect place, perfect theme, and everyone who you wanted to attend was doing so, there was nothing more you could ask for.Â
âMaybe if you are nervous, it might be a good idea for me to stay here,â Lando added, catching your eyes roll. âI mean we both know how much it helps when you sleep next to me when youâre worrying, so it makes perfect sense, right?âÂ
âIâm not going to let you stay,â you said, quickly shutting Lando down.Â
Lando hummed in reply to you, âwe both know how this is going to work, Iâm going to wear you down until you say yes, you know that, donât you?âÂ
âNope,â you laughed, âI refuse to cave tonight, youâll be gone soon.âÂ
âYouâll have to get rid of me,â Lando told you, âand judging by your hand against my chest, Iâd say that youâre pretty happy for me to stay a while still yet.âÂ
You quickly moved your hand off of Landoâs chest, shuffling across the bed to create some distance between you both. Lando looked at you in surprise, trying to move back towards you again, only for you to move back too.Â
âItâs going to be a pretty rubbish stag do if youâre not there,â you reminded him, standing up from the bed. âPlus, you only said that you wanted a couple of minutes of my time.âÂ
âI donât need a stupid stag do, not when I could spend my night with you instead,â Lando sighed, sitting up in the middle of the bed. âDo you really actually want me to go?âÂ
You tried to ignore the little voice in your head telling Lando to stay, nodding your head. You didnât want him to miss out on his stag do, the party that he had been looking forward to for so long.Â
âI should probably go,â Lando pouted, sliding off of the bed. His shoulders hung low, his feet dragging along the floor dejectedly. âBut all you have to do is give me a call and Iâll forget all about the boys tonight and rush straight over here to be with you instead.âÂ
âGo on,â you grinned, opening up the door. âIâll be alright without you for one night.âÂ
Lando stood in the doorway, turning back to face you one final time, letting you see just how disappointed he was that you were making him leave.Â
âIn five years, I think this is the first time youâve declined to spend the night with me,â Lando mused, âand the night before my wedding too.âÂ
âIâm not declining to spend the night with you,â you protested, âthis is what we agreed on, youâre going to be stuck with me for the rest of your life after tomorrow anyway.âÂ
âI canât believe it,â Lando smiled, âthe rest of our lives together.âÂ
âOnly if you go,â you teased, pushing Lando out of the door. âGo and enjoy your evening, Iâll see you tomorrow Lando.âÂ
âI canât wait to marry you sweetheart.âÂ
âI know, me too Lan.âÂ
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I love him so much, this is so adorable đ
https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGeTkmpNy/ SPENCER MF REID đđ can I pretty please request a one shot based on that video ITS SO CUTE
in which spencer does the most spencer activity first thing in the morning - reorganizing your bookshelves
(tiktok link)
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: fluff content warnings: i'm fairly certain there aren't any word count: 619 a/n: the beauty of this being my account is that, even though my requests are closed, i was able to exercise free will and write it anyway. because reorganizing your bookshelves unprompted is so something spencer would do.
The other side of the bed was cold when you woke up. Your desire to roll over into Spencerâs arms before getting ready for the day squashed by his absence. Aimlessly patting your bedside table for your phone, you checked your notifications.
You hadnât received a text, there was no note left on his pillow.
Sitting up in bed, you frowned before climbing out of bed. Cringing at the cold laminate under your feet, you hugged your arms around yourself and mourned the feeling of your comforter over your skin.
To your surprise, Spencer was wide awake, standing in front of your bookshelf like he was an opponent ready to strike. Padding across the living room, you approached him from behind and wrapped your arms around his waist, depending heavily on his body heat to give you the courage not to run back to bed.
âGood morning love,â he murmured, voice gruff from lack of use. With a morning slowness, he skimmed his palms along your arms, swaying gently to the soft sounds of dawn. âAre you alright?â He asked you when you didnât respond, too caught up in the feeling of him to speak.
Pressing your cheek to the fabric of his plain white t-shirt, you sighed, closing your eyes and breathing in the scent of him, the scent of your laundry detergent on his clothes.
âWhatâs wrong, angel?â He whispered, softly squeezing your arms before turning himself around while trapped in your arms.
You didnât let up, forcing him to twist himself within the circumference of your limbs just to see your face. The maneuver was so notably ungraceful that you couldnât hold back your smile, âNothingâs wrong,â you mumbled, now pressing your cheek to his chest while he tenderly cupped your head. âWhat are you doing up?â
Spencer dropped a kiss to the crown of your head, keeping his arms casually slung around you while he nodded at your bookshelves, âI was reorganizing your bookshelves.â
Furrowing your brows, you looked at your previously unruly shelves. They had now been adroitly redone, no longer having books stacked horizontally and being put off for another day, âWhat do you mean you were reorganizing my bookshelves?â
âWell, initially I had planned on using the Dewey decimal system, which is how my books are organized at home, but you had such an uneven ratio of each category that I ended up doing it alphabetically,â he explained to you, lazily using a hand to gesture to your collection.
Catching a glimpse of the titles, you asked, âBy title?â
He shook his head, âAuthorâs last name,â he responded as if it shouldâve been obvious to you. Spencerâs arms tightened around you as he craned his head to nestle his face in the crook of your neck, âDid you sleep well?â
You hummed contentedly at the proximity you had to him, âRight up until I woke up and you werenât there.â
âI was reorganizing your books,â he emphasized, reminding you what he had spent his morning doing.
Nodding, you shut your eyes, savoring the feeling of his fingers as they now skated their way along your spine, âIt looks nice, Spence.â
âDid you want to read a book together?â He asked you, continuing his ministrations on your back.
Pulling away slightly, you rested your palms on his shoulders as you looked up at him, âWhat?â
He jutted his chin in the direction of your shelves, âThere are some books that I shelved, I think we could have a good time reading one together.â
You raised your eyebrows, âYouâll finish way before me though,â you hinted at his reading speed.
âThen I can read aloud to you,â he offered, beaming down at you.
Love, love, love đ¤
hi!!! here for a request. can we have a imagine where reader has a wound from surgery or whatever on like in a rib and she hides to change the bandages but then spencer sees her and heâs like âlemme help youâ andâŚ
you do you for the rest!
in which spencer helps BAU fem!reader change her bandages in the bathroom at work. it's intimate, and he's adorable and awkward, and it only fuels her terrible, terrible crush.
warnings/tags: fluff, talk/description of wound, brief talk of being stabbed (does not actually occur in this fic lol), reader wears a bra, spencer undoes said bra but not sexually, lots of suggestive humor and teasing, a TINY sprinkling of angst but not really, idiots in love
a/n: i'm picturing early seasons spencer and it is filling me with so much unbridled joy. I. LOVE. HIM. thank you for the request!! and lets not talk about how inconsistent my formatting for requests is pls and thanks!!
Itâs not like you meant to bend down so quickly that your wound reopenedâbut here you are, suffering the consequences of your actions in the womenâs bathroom at Quantico as you try to assess the injury before you re-bandage it. And your shoe is still untied.Â
Unfortunately, the fact that you had quite literally been stabbed in the back last week makes it hard to reach said injuryâespecially when youâre at work and so canât take off your shirt like you normally would. And all this struggling means itâs taking longer than it should, so now youâre focused on the wound and its scabby, wet edges and all the things itâs secreting rather than hurrying to give another statement of the entire event to Hotch since the first one had apparently been too sparse on the details.Â
A knock sounds on the open door. Spencer calls your name.Â
âYou in there?â
The angle of your neck has your voice slightly strained as you call back, âyeah, whatâs up? Is it Hotch?â you pause to hiss as you accidentally scratch at the wound with a nail. You donât even want to know how much bacteria you just introduced to it. âTell him I didnât forget our meeting, Iâll be there inââ
âItâs not Hotch. I just wanted to make sure everything was okay with your back? I know you said you were going to check on it, but youâve been in there a while.â
You sigh, dropping your sore arm as you continue to hold up your shirt with the other and regarding the reflection of your back in the mirror.Â
âActuallyâcould you come in here?â
Thereâs a pause.Â
âYou want me to come into the womenâs restroom?â
âYes, Spencer. Itâs fine. Thereâs nobody else in here. I just⌠I need some help, I think.â
The last part is admitted quietly, with an air of defeat. To admit to needing help, is, by your standards, the same as failure. Spencer knows this, which is probably the only reason he puts aside his hesitations and shuffles uncertainly into the tiled room. If youâre asking for help, itâs because you really need it.Â
âWhat do you need help with?â he asks, sweeping his gaze suspiciously around the lavatory as if you were lying about there not being any other women present and this whole thing might be a trap of some sort.Â
âItâs gross, and you can totally say no.â
He raises his brows expectantly, before spotting the weeping wound on your back. Unconsciously he steps closer, leaning forward. Itâs not your fault, and the gore is not specific to youâanyoneâs body would react this way to being stabbed. But you still feel embarrassed by the close attention to such an ugly marring, which nobody besides you and your doctors has actually seen up close.
âThat doesnât look good,â he mutters. The expression on his face is irritatingly familiarâthe drawn brows, tightened eyes, barely parted lipsâbut it takes a moment before you realize what it is.Â
âReid,â you complain. Heâs still stooped over slightly to examine the wound, and looks up at you through dark lashes with those infuriatingly warm puppydog eyes.
âWhat?â
âYouâre looking at me the way you look at a dead body on the slab.â
His nose scrunches.
Some might say it scrunches adorably.Â
âNo, Iâm not. Thatâs just my face.â
âOkay, well stop. Itâs freaking me out.â
He poutsâactually pouts. Subtle, but bottom lip jutted out and all. Itâs ridiculously endearing.Â
âMy face freaks you out?â
âWhâno! Thatâs not what I said! You haveâyou have a great face! I didnât meanââÂ
You manage to claw yourself out of the hole youâre digging when you see the dopey smile growing on his face.Â
Oh. He was fucking with you.Â
He never used to do that. Itâs unnerving to be the fucked with instead of the fucker for a change. Especially when itâs Spencer.Â
âWhat did you need me for?â Spencer asks by way of peace offering. You close your eyes and sigh, attempting to collect your thoughts without his presence re-scrambling them. Â
âUmâI just need you to put this bandage over it. I canât reach without taking my shirt off.â
And now youâre forced to wonder if heâs thinking about you shirtless as much as youâre thinking about you shirtless.
âYeahâdonât do that,â he says absentmindedly, stepping again closer to get a better look before turning to the nearest sink.
For some reason, this offends you.Â
âWhy not?â
Spencer pulls another face as he washes his handsâyou love the constant flow of expressions he always seems so unconscious of. Even when theyâre not pleasant and directed at you. Â
âAre you asking me why shouldnât you take your shirt off?â he clarifies.Â
âI know why I shouldnât take my shirt off, but I want to know why you think I shouldnât take my shirt off.â
âBecause weâre at work?â he observes astutely. You frown deeply at his completely logical reply. Spencer chuckles as he dries his hands and approaches once more, taking the square of gauze pre-lined with medical tape from your hand. âI mean, I canât stop you. But it would be kind of a weird choice.â
âOh, so me shirtless is weird?â
Cool fingers meet the comparatively hot skin of your backâwhere everything is still sensitive because the wound wreaked havoc on your nerves there. You flinch slightly.Â
âSorry,â he murmurs gently. Though his touch is so incredibly light it doesnât really hurtâit hurts much less than when youâre tending to the wound, anyway. Itâs almost soothing. After a moment he continues, a bit louder. âAnd that is not what I was saying. But I am completely comfortable asserting that it would be weird for you to be shirtless at work.â
The gentle touches contrast with his teasing words and serve to disorient you as youâre shaken back in to your usual dynamic. Which is markedly more sarcastic.Â
âWellââ
Before you have to think of something to say, Spencer interrupts you.Â
âYour, umâI think yourâŚÂ brassiereâŚÂ is in the way.â
As soon as he says it you burst out laughing. It echoes through the room.Â
âMy brassiere? Are you actually 70 years old?â
His brows knit even tighter and his face gets very pink very quickly. He canât meet your eyes over your shoulder.Â
âThatâs what itâs called.â
âSpencer, you may be the first person to use that word since 1952. Say bra.â
âI donât want to,â he complains. Your laughter only grows as your head tips back.Â
âWhy? How is brassiere better than bra?â
âItâsâitâs too colloquial! Iâm trying to be professional!â
âCall it a bra or Iâm going to rub my dirty hands all over my back,â you threaten, adopting a poker face so he knows you mean business. His eyes widen immediately.Â
âOh my god! Bra! Do you want to introduce staph and meningitis and gâdo not do that!â
âSee? How hard was that?â
âI hate you,â he mumbles, face still flushed and adorable. âAnd you still have to take it off.â
âExcuse me?â you grin, pretending to be affronted because you know he didnât mean it like that but itâs fun to pretend he did. Fun for you, of course. Not so much for him. He's utterly flustered by this point.
âOr at least undo it! Itâs in the way.â
With a deeply bored sigh, you go to unclasp your braâbut as you go to do it your shirt drops down. You grimace, humor briefly forgotten as the fabric brushes the damaged skin.Â
âI canâtââ
âOkay, justâIâll do it,â Spencer says. âJust move your shirt again.â
So you do, watching his reflection as he works.
And you have not one joke to break the heavy silence with as you feel his knuckles gently pressing into the middle of your back, as he unclasps the bra with his characteristic tenderness and a surprising amount of agility. Itâs quiet except for your pulse in your own ears as he carefully pushes it out of his way, holding it down with a hand to your rib cage and fingertips slipping just under the fabric of your shirtâunintentionally and certainly non-sexual, no doubt, but skimming under your heart in a way that still feels so intimate youâre realizing how touch-starved you are.Â
âYou do that often?â you find yourself asking, because youâre stupid, and you need to cool the tension before it chokes you, and you canât help yourself even though you donât actually want to know the answer.Â
âI,â he begins, voice quiet as rustling paper, tongue darting over his lip and eyes narrowed. The sentence stalls as he focuses on placing the patch just so. âDo not think that is an appropriate workplace question.â
Something aches in the pit of your stomach.Â
Something resembling jealousy.Â
It was not the timid evasive linguistic maneuver of someone who is insecure about the thing theyâre discussing. It was not the awkward fumbling no but I donât want to tell you that which you were expecting from Spencer Reid.Â
Nor is it an easy yesâan admission between friends. He doesnât want to tell you.Â
You swallow and try to act like yourself.Â
âYet here you are, in the womanâs restroom at our place of employment, undoing my bra. I think weâre past professionalism.â
âWhen you decontextualize it like that it sounds like something itâs not. This is professional, because Iâm helping you with a wound you sustained on the job. Iâm being a good colleague.â
Your lips twist into a smile he canât see.Â
âA great colleague would kiss it better.â
âIt's almost like you want me to file a sexual harassment complaint with HR," he says through a little smirk as he smooths the bandage over. Before you can snip back, he steamrolls over his own teasingâyouâve both been speaking in almost reverent tones since he started but his voice loses the sarcastic edge from a second before and reverts back to concerned and sweet. âDoes that feel okay?â
You rotate your shoulders best you can without letting go of your shirt or flashing the good doctor to check if it feels secure. Â
âItâs good. And heyâif I were going to sexually harass you I would do a lot better than that. You think thatâs my best material? Thatâs just the tip of the iceberg. I keep so many inappropriate comments to myself. Youâd be shocked by some of the things I have almost said to you.â
He laughs, secures the band of your bra and begins fitting it to the clasp youâd had it onâand at that precise moment Emily walks in.Â
âHâwoah.â
âItâsâIâmâI was helping her!â Spencer panics, immediately removing his hands from you like his palms are burning and holding them up defensively.Â
âOh, you helped me alright,â you tease, pulling your shirt back into place.Â
âDonât say it like that!â And then, to Emily, âI was changing out her bandage!â
âChanging my bandage,â you emphasize, winking more than is advisable.Â
âThatâsâthis is a hostile work environment! I feel unsafe!â Spencer almost yells, half laughs, as he scampers towards the door. âIâm going to HR!â
âShut up! You love it!â
His laughter audibly travels farther away for several moments as he presumably goes back down the hallway to do his actual job.Â
You have the stupidest grin on your face, but you wipe it off when you notice Emily staring.Â
âWhat?â
âNothing,â she says, shaking her head and looking away, moving toward a stall. âYouâre just⌠you guys are funny.â
âWhat do you mean funny?â You demand, standing right outside her stall as she closes it.Â
âWhâI mean funny! Are you going to listen to me pee, you weirdo?â
You frown.Â
She makes a good point.Â
Unfortunately, giving Hotch a more detailed statement is just as bad as youâd thought itâd be. Despite how cheery youâve tried to remain about the whole situation, despite the way you insisted that the wound was so shallow you didnât need more than a few days off work, despite the jokes you make about forgetting itâs even there because itâs on your backâitâs hard not to remember exactly how the glass felt twisting under your skin, how youâd felt suddenly so hot and lightheaded and sick to your stomach and the way Morgan hollered because he didnât know how deep it had gone after you crumpled quick from shock, when youâre asked to describe it all in excruciating detail.Â
It only takes ten minutes, but they seem to drag on and on and by the time youâre leaving Hotchâs office you feel utterly drained. You hurry back to your desk, covertly wiping away moisture that you refuse to allow to become tears. Once seated, and having dodged sympathetic looks and avoided any do you want to talk about its, you allow yourself a few deep breaths with your eyes shut.Â
When you open them, you realize thereâs a fresh cup of your favorite tea on your desk, in the Snoopy mug the team is always fighting over. Now his little black nose is covered by a square of yellow paper. Youâre already smiling as you peel away the sticky note and hold it closer.Â
On it is an adorably odd smiley-face, and a note in familiar, messy looping scrawl.Â
I would never report you to HR beautiful
That would be a stab in the back!
You snort loudly and clap a hand to your mouthâbut youâve already drawn the attention of almost everyone in the bullpen.Â
When you turn to look at Spencer, heâs not looking back. Instead, his eyes are firmly trained on his computer screen. But heâs got his chin propped on his fist over the desk, and his knuckles are doing a poor job of concealing a giant self satisfied grin. He is the only person on the team who knows you well enough to make such a distasteful joke. And he also knows you well enough to know that it would make you feel so much better after your meeting with Hotch than all the well-meaning sincerity in the world ever could.
Funny.Â
Maybe that is the right word for what you two are.Â