SALTBURN • SELBY WALL (ETHEL CAIN)

#you can always use your autism for evil

Saltburn just asks the question that everyone is too afraid to ask. What if people were using their autism for evil.

I have this kickass plot idea for a book, I have the character outlines, I have the situations and circumstances and the overall plot outline. Hell I even have the title and the names. All I need now is the witchcraft that allows me to convert this into a well written 50k book.

My only friend, to whom I'm out and completely myself is gone on an indefinite retreat; and I never realised how we talked a lot and without him I can feel my words rotting inside my throat begging to get out, begging to be heard.

am unemployed and unmotivated so gonna indulge in fun and silly little ramblings for a bit :D

relationship status: willingly single

favorite color: white, brown, sea green

song stuck in my head: show me how by men I trust

favorite food: idk cheese? Sweet n spicy chicken probably? Boiled pasta! (Can you tell I have autism :)?)

last song listened to: Talk by hozier not willingly spotify shuffled it while I was doing laundry and couldn't change the song, not that I don't like it but I overplayed it in 2021-22 and it has lost it charm to me now

Dream trip: I don't dream of trips, I only think of moving in to certain places for years and more. Though probably a trip to mountains with spiritual retreats and stuff like that. I'd love to be healed with the power of meditation.

last thing I googled: what's a star inside a circle called? I kept thinking it's penta something but couldn't remember and I had a great joke to make except I don't remember the name of the main character of the joke

tyyy for the tag @floralsapphics and @antlerslayer !!

relationship status: single

favorite color: black, sage green, navy blue

song stuck in my head: casual by chapell roan who i am slowly becoming obsessed with

favorite food: this is boring but probably ramen noodles by default because they're about everything i eat

last song listened to: i am currently listening to triple dog dare by unbelievable lyrical genius lucy dacus and it is queued on repeat with please stay lmao

dream trip: not much of a traveler but once when i was rly young i went to a small town in england which i definitely don’t remember the name of and i think ab that place a lot!! i would love to go back there if i got the chance

last thing i googled: howl’s moving castle which i somehow haven’t gotten around to watching yet

open tag for anyone bc i am tiredd! i also love to read people’s ramblings soo

So every Roy kid is fundamentally, inherently gay in a straight relationship is what I'm getting after watching the pilot of Succession for the first time. And Roman is the Bunny Corcoran of the show.

Everytime I watch yellowjackets I get flashbacks of the himbo guard in OITNB saying that women inmates are crazy and raging today because they're hungry; you should never keep a woman hungry if you want peace. Or something along the lines.

Sometimes I think I'm completely devoid of love. After all these years of running away, isolation and mistrust but then every now and then, in the silence of my apartment, while staring at my phone I feel all the suppressed love within me begging to be set free. It knocks and it knocks desperately. But I closed the door long ago with a promise to never open it. So I turn cruel once again and ignore it like I am.

and what’s a god to a non believer?

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lottienat

Please come back I don't want to make friends with loneliness yet