I'm Definitely Totally Normal About Jude St. Francis

something i just find so hilarious is how obsessed with being comfy and cosy jude and willem are. like okay grown man shuffling about in his wee blanket in the morning and jude staying for five more minutes

people i imagine as jude (multiple people bcs in everything AND everyone i see, i see him)

1.) loyle carner

I SAW HIM LIVE AND I WAS LIKE?? OMG JUDE HI

2.) ethan hawke

very random but he is serving sm jude at university here

3.) rami malek

the average rami malek jude fancast, but i really do understand it

4.) james norton

THIS CASTING CHOICE FOR THE PLAY WAS SAUR GOOD (except jude isnt white)

5.) joseph gordon levitt

he’s just so jude in mysterious skin ok

6.) milo ventimiglia

i refuse to elaborate

Both Luke, Harold, and Dr Traylor would make Jude drink milk with his dinner

Milk as a symbolism of childhood, protection, nurturing care. Milk used to regain physical strength when it was lost, because the three of them each needed jude for something (a tool, a son, a toy) and he needed that strength to take on what they wanted from him.

do u understand how fucking deeply upset it makes me when i remember that anytime i say “a little life” people r gonna think im talking about “i think i like this little life :3” PLEASE NO

guys should i re read ALL or am i asking for a winter suicide attempt

here’s how i think the boys’ social media’s would be like

jude:

i think he would absolutely not have any social media at all, out of fear. but i can kinda imagine willem encouraging him to make an instagram after they went official. i feel like he’d post really artsy pictures of like trees in central park with a b&w filter on

willem:

i just know he is on EVERY platform ever idc and i feel like he’s super active on his stories too

malcolm:

would have instagram but it’d be one post from like 2013 of him and the boys

jb:

ABSOLUTELY would have insta and would make it everyone’s problem. i can picture him taking film photos of them all and just captioning it something like ‘judy.’ or ‘beauty.’ LMFAOOO

A LITTLE LIFE.

october 22, 2023

I just read the first chapter of the “axiom of equality” part of a little life and dude I’m really reconsidering the way I view life as a whole.

x=x, yes Jude, I feel you so fucking much, all my life I felt like I wouldn’t surpass this feeling of being wrong, the wrongdoings of my childhood, my mistakes and mistakes of others done to me haunt me every single moment of my days, maybe If I were funnier, maybe I if worked on my weight a little harder it would disappear, what did I do to deserve so much hate from others as a kid? to experience the heavy bullying? why should it stain my memory like a wine stained carpet? (you get used to it but it’s never really clean, this metaphor worked in my head so please bear with it). and Caleb, man I’ve met so many fucking Calebs in my life, people i trusted at first sight, thought it could work just to be utterly disappointed at the outcome.

“you’re not your past”, easier said than done.

it’s 3:15 a.m where I live as i’m writing this and I doubt i’ll be able to afford a good night of sleep due the mental state i find myself in. I haven’t cried once while reading this book, maybe it’s because I see so much of myself in these characters that I’m just perplexed and angry, at myself, at others who made me feel like a complete piece of shit my whole life, at the JB’s, cause we all have that one friend that, at some point, made fun of our insecurities and left us feeling like garbage.

read “a little life” by Hanya Yanagihara, i promise it’ll change you and the way you interpret life and others (and i haven’t even finished it yet)

i lowkey missed it the first time because it’s in the background of willem and malcom’s conversation abt jude’s long sleeves but

can we please talk abt jb and jude coming back from a nice beach walk and deciding to and i quote ‘fling sand at each other’ before jb drunkenly collapses and jude decides, apparently without any warning or discussion, to bury him up to his waist in the sand while jb lies there singing

what could be better than this just guys being dudes!!!!