Love on the Plaza.
I wrote to her
my fantasy love letters,
and she replied
to them
in reality.
Jessica,
3rd Home,
Little Attics Apartments—
you were crude
and jolly,
and now,
irreplaceable.
The kids want to be writers and painters, but by 22, as they pass car dealerships, watch movies with perfect, slim women, and step over men picking up scrap metal just to buy a cup of coffee, things change.
All they want now is to survive, to sit in cars with models from the movies they watched last night .
They choose that kind of win and it's understandable.
Maybe all that we want is already taken— no matter how much we cry, yearn, lament, we never seem to get what we seek.
A life-changing epiphany.
A complication.
A trepidation
that even in
the insurgents,
the ones with
bottles and bottles
of red pills,
the Mavericks.
Within them,
lies those
still
enslaved by
the very fruits of their rebellion.
Birds flying out of there nests, the sun unwrapping itself for the day some geniuses are being born and some are breathing there last. In the same chaos the fearful are sneaking into the world as if they can do a thing or two in it. Others fearfully in defeat escape it, they have lived it all not as they wanted but as fear mapped it out for them.
Fuck sex. Can you deal with me when my anxiety kicks in & my depression takes over?
And if you think I need help , the only kind I deserve is to understand me. I have been misconceived thus misjudged for ages am yearning for that feel, the feel to be be guessed right.
The fate of love keeps my wait warm, knowing that I will find you, love you, and show this world that deep within me, there was always love waiting to break free.
replies were restricted so i kind of reblogged in order to reply, am kinda attached to it in someway..
It's positive that your friend recognizes that they don't feel the sorrow of others. It can be tough to acknowledge that, but it's also a step toward understanding why that happens. Sometimes, we might become disconnected from our emotions or the emotions of others due to various reasons, like past experiences or self-preservation. It’s important to be aware of that so we can work on becoming more in tune with others’ feelings. If your friend is open to it, maybe they could explore what’s causing that emotional distance and whether it’s something they'd like to work on
guys
what does it mean if you hurt someone
and
you don’t feel anything
…
asking for a friend
…
War has come. Where is my artillery? We have failed, drastically, to reach a truce with life. So now, let the war begin. I am not afraid.