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dude ur interrupting on the floor time with ur beautiful face STOP
This is the way, brother.
Iâm still kinda mad we didnât get more Paz content before his demise, I so wish we could have seen more of his relationship with Din :â)
Anyway, this is just me coping lmao
something something johnny dating a premed student who has never had sex and as soon as he finds out he gets all gentle and coaxing, âsâlright, bonnie. gonna be so good for you. treat you so good.â
but sheâs looking at him like itâs a test, while sheâs giving him head (she insisted) her mind is working a million miles a minute and itâs almost clinical how sheâs treating it.
knowing what parts are more sensitive, using different types of tactics she knows will feel good because she knows how dicks work. and johnny is getting the best head of his life thinking thereâs no fuckinâ way this is your first time doing this shite.
he cums quickly, barely able to able to think clearly before your crawling over him, ready for him to fuck you.
and his poor spent cock twitching against you, already hardening as you rub your clit against him in a way that belies your inexperience.
okay, maybe youâre going to teach him a thing or two.
So. Highly inspired by this series
Imagine dying next to Ghost. Alongside him. In bed, asleep together, and itâs no oneâs fault. It wasnât a targeted attack. A gas leak. There was no pain, no panic, nothing. Tragic, before your time, and wrought with the impotent agony that can only come about when thereâs no target for revenge.
There are worse things, than being a trapped spirit with the man you loved in the house where you loved him. Despite how all of the world has gone quiet, you can still feel him, and he can feel you.
You can still make love.
But every so often, when he takes you from behind, you feel this sharp, burning pain in your back. You know itâs his doing, but something about him has been so⊠hard to read, since you both died. Even though you donât have anything left to lose, he holds you tighter than he ever did before. Wonât leave you alone for a moment. Thereâs terror in his eyes. You donât understand itâ he died in peace. None of the things that haunted him in life can follow him here. But you donât have the courage to ask him.
Heâll die a thousand times over before he tells you that heâs ripping the feathers from your back because god is trying to take you somewhere he canât follow.
Can you imagine how the commanders felt when they found out they would have Jedi placed over them in the chain of command?
Sure they had been raised and trained to believe the Jedi were good and they were made to serve the republic together. But it had to have grated that they were all going to have to take order form pacifist space monks with an unknown level of experience in combat or military strategy and logistics. The commanders were probably worried that they were going to end up with incompetent generals or worse.
Instead they end up with this grab bag of, largely, the nicest people youâve ever known.
Ponds probably thinks he lucked out. Master Windu is sensible, levelheaded and spends half or more of his time safely tucked away in the Jedi Temple where heâs unlikely to get shot.
Cody is doomed from the start. He stood absolutely no chance against Obi Wan. No man should be that combination of confident, compassionate and hot.
Same goes for Bly. Honestly it probably felt like the floor collapsed under him when Master Secura took command.
Rex is honestly too busy dealing with Skywalkerâs antics and his manic nexu padawan to even wonder if he got a good deal or a bad one.
Master Mundi seemed sensible and level headed until he started telling stories about his wives and showing holos of his kids.
Wolffe probably thought he lucked out at first. Mater Plo seems like a dignified older gentleman who knows to stay out of the line of fire⊠aaaand heâs taking a jaunt out in the vacuum of space without a suit.
These Jedi are all crazy.
Got inspired, made something, hope you enjoy.
Pretty accurate if I do say so myself.
synopsis : Steve carries out his decision to return to Peggy, aiming to live out the rest of his days with her. But this means he's leaving everything behind - he's leaving you. Did he make the right choice? Will there be anything left with you to come back to?
themes/warnings : smut (18+), language, angst!!!, slow burn!!!, pining, unrequited love, Steve is kind of an asshole for leaving (but we love him anyway), unresolved trauma, heartbreak, friends to lovers
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â© a bodyguard!din x princess!reader fic â©
series summary :
Married off to a prince on a planet that you hate? New husband doesn't know you, and doesn't want to know you? New husband gifts you a personal Mandalorian body guard as a wedding present? Mandalorian is a wiseass who won't leave you alone? Lucky you.
18+ mdni
do you like kitschy, campy romance novels? if you're reading this, I hope so.
behind the scenes & chapter notes + other extras (spoilers) :
chapters 1-5
chapter 6-15
spotify playlists
Lysa & Elaine information
the bks screen adaption
bks q&a
bks what if's
reader is generally not described past being picked up a few times, and having hair long enough to be put up
â© chapters containing smut!
chapter one : honeymoon (6.7k words)
[ Absurd.
That is the only word that comes to mind as you stare at yourself in the mirror. âHis favorite color is blue.â ]
chapter two : silent treatment (7.4k words)
[ Something is wrong. You bolt up from the pile of blankets that you call a bed and your eyes dart around the closet as you furrow your brow trying to discern why you feel so much different. ]
â© chapter three : the smitten paladin (4.6k words)
[ Youâre starting to think the planet isnât the reason youâre so hot all the time.
You had woken up this morning feeling a bit better than you thought youâd be, your stomach is full of butterflies but you're still standing and considering the night you had youâre gonna take that as a win. ]
chapter four : sarad'ika (6.8k words)
[ Sarad'ika.Â
You wonât forget it this time, you canât. So you write it in your book, just under Mandoâs favorite color you write the two little words that have been keeping you up at night. ]
â© chapter five : lunar interlude : just a man (5.0k words)
[ Absurd.
Itâs absurd how much the job pays. Dinâs not even sure he should take it at this point because itâs too good to be true. ]
â© chapter six : torment (5.1k words)
[ Okay, maybe you didnât think this through.Â
You didnât think heâd actually come in and now suddenly the door is shut and youâre alone with him. ]
â© chapter seven : just friends (3.1k words)
[ Maker it feels like itâs been an hour and youâre both just laying here. He was just inside of you; it shouldn't be so hard to find something to talk about at this point. ]
chapter eight : solar markets (5.3k words)
[ Itâs nice to wake up excited again.Â
You wish you could say that it happened more often but hopefully it will from now on. Itâs going to be your first time leaving the castle grounds since you got here. ]
â© chapter nine : shuk'la rules (5.6k words)
[ You need sex.
Normally you would be satisfied for quite some time after getting off but for some reason with Mando it was different. But itâs only been two days and you need more. ]
â© chapter ten : lunar interlude : briikase gote'tuur (4.1k words)
[ Heâs grateful for the break from you, even if brief.Â
Thatâs not to say that he doesnât enjoy every moment he gets to be in your presence but the more time he spends with you the harder it gets to remember that this isnât real. ]
chapter eleven : he loves me not (4.6k words)
[ Something is wrong.Â
All day itâs been wrong.Â
Heâs different. Distant. ]
chapter twelve : pretend (4.4k words )
[ Two days.
Thatâs what youâre willing to give yourself. Two days to get over it. One to get it all out of your system and one to pull yourself together. ]
chapter thirteen : lunar interlude : vercopa (3.5k words)
[ He did it.
He did exactly what he knew he needed to do.
So why does he feel worse than ever? ]
chapter fourteen : condemned (4.9k words)
[ Youâre having trouble sleeping.Â
You have no problem falling asleep, itâs mostly staying asleep. Thereâs a million different things that consume your thoughts and everytime you drift into unconsciousness you find yourself jolting awake, barely able to stay asleep for more than an hour at a time. ]
chapter fifteen : two tea parties (5.4k words)
[ âWhat did you do to her?â
Her voice breaks through his sleepy haze as he sits up properly.Â
âExcuse me?â ]
chapter sixteen : absolution (4.6k words)
[ Thereâs a visceral sense of dread when you wake up, for several reasons.Â
The glaring obvious culprit of your discomfort would be the fact that todayâs your husband's birthday. ]
chapter seventeen : the apostateâs cabin (3.5k words)
[ Just Din.Â
Itâs sinking in as you walk in silence, holding his hand tightly as he pulls you towards his home. ]
chapter eighteen : portrait of a man (5.4k words)
[ Itâs deliciously warm when you wake. You can feel his heartbeat and you can feel the soft traces of sunlight dancing along your back. You stretch in his arms slightly but freeze up as you feel him nuzzle his chin into your hair, planting a kiss against your hairline. ]
â© chapter nineteen : reverence (7.3k words)
[ You really want to.Â
You couldnât possibly want to more than you currently do.Â
Itâs actually a bit mean. That heâs left you here in this state. ]
â© chapter twenty : like real people do (8.4k words)
[ Mando and Din.Â
All you can think about right now is how there must be two of them.Â
Youâre playing with his curls. ]
â© chapter twenty one : te mirci't (9.0k words)
[ âIt means I love you.âÂ
You arenât entirely sure how long you stare at him, looking rather silly with your jaw practically on the floor. ]
â© chapter twenty two : itâs you that i lie with (11.3k words)
[ Naboo has several trading ports.Â
You could get him on a cargo ship. That would be the most inconspicuous form of transport. It would help if he was willing to ditch his armor. ]
â© chapter twenty three : lunar markets (15.0k words)
[ Sneaking out of the castle gets easier every time you do it.Â
It only takes a few minutes and youâre walking outside towards the forest trail, Dinâs hand in yours, still giddy. ]
â© chapter twenty four : lunar interlude : riduur (7.8k words)
[ He doesnât deserve this.
How could he possibly be deserving of you? Yet somehow you make him feel as if he is. With your soft touch and the way your eyes get just a little bigger when you see him. ]
â© chapter twenty five : wedding bells (11.7k words)
[ Four days of Leo.Â
You were upset that Din was leaving you but you got over it rather quickly with the promise of his hasty return. ]
chapter twenty six : crucifixion (12.7k words)
[ âMy room is too big.âÂ
He bursts into genuine peals of laughter and you gently smack his arm.
âDonât laugh, itâs a serious issue! My room is enormous.â ]
chapter twenty seven : the apostate (6.0k words)
[ Silence.
Thatâs all there is in his brain.Â
Itâs hard enough as is for him to hear. It doesnât help when heâs been beaten half to death. ]
â© chapter twenty eight : a place for us (8.4k words)
[ Youâd spent the better half of the day trying to get on top of him.Â
Every time you managed to get close heâd simply set you down on the nearest surface with a kiss on the cheek and go back to doing whatever he was working on. ]
chapter twenty nine : the best kept secret (epilogue) (6.1k words)
[ The morning sun is warm against your face, you bask in it, unmoving and only half awake until you feel a tiny hand slapping your cheek. The illusion of tranquility is immediately shattered as you softly laugh. ]
synopsis : Steve carries out his decision to return to Peggy, aiming to live out the rest of his days with her. But this means he's leaving everything behind - he's leaving you. Did he make the right choice? Will there be anything left with you to come back to?
themes/warnings : smut (18+), language, angst!!!, slow burn!!!, pining, unrequited love, Steve is kind of an asshole for leaving (but we love him anyway), unresolved trauma, heartbreak, friends to lovers
Comment on the latest chapter to be added to the taglist!
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masterpoll : declare your side
part one - part two - part three - part four - part five - part six (18+) - part seven - part eight (18+) - part nine (18+) - part ten - part eleven - part twelve -
Youâre Ghostâs little student, he trained you from pistols, hand in hand combat, knife fights to managing snipers⊠but what happens, when heâs in danger, when he has never experienced such predicament, and somehow there he wasâŠ
Suddenly the men around him dropped dead, blood seeping out of their heads, as he stared wondering what just happened.
He wasnât shocked, or showed any emotion.
Then he heard a static on his comms, only for him to hear the cocky tone from the one and only.
âGot your back, teach⊠Maybe your classes werenât that boring after all,â you said, a smile crept across your lips, surely looking like a mischievous Cheshire Cat from a certain film he had to watch once.
He let out a low and soft chuckle, of course Price called you, it was only if necessary and the call was made, there you were.
âGood to see you too, kid,â he said, almost prideful in his tone, he did train you after all.
like everything with john, it ends with a quiet admission.
"i'm tired."
the words fall from your lips like needles dragging along the curvature of your throat. they puncture, aching with their vengeance, until they slip into the open space, never to be taken back. never to be unsaid.
you do not look at him when you say this, incapable of facing your limits. your shortcomings.
you are a fraud dressed in fluffed up costumes, preaching about true love and never-ending devotion but look where you are right nowâstraining behind the stained walls of this relationship, splintering at the fleeting weight of his affections.
and you thought it was poetic how flowers could grow in between cracked asphalt.
the reality of the situation is like thisâjohn loves you.
but it's not enough to silence the doubts and the jealousy, because you are jealous. you're not a jealous person, god knows many tried you, but this thing with johnâthis relationship that ever so fluctuatesâit is troubling. insufficient, truly.
your friends told you to be better; that people who are jealous are just insecure about their relationship and yes, you are. that is the crux of it; that is what drags the voices from the pits of your stomachs to spit to each otherâs face, spewing with vitriol because john has made you this beastly being, always pawing for his attention, always begging for the scraps.
he's left you rotten and all hollowed-out.
an empty opera house.
âis it because oâmary?â he asks, quick to find the rot in your core only to prod at it. gawk at it. to marvel at its festering like he had not been the cause of such unravelling.
is it because of mary he asked like you had not spent sleepless nights crying to him, telling him that you do not feel good when it was just the two of them. that you do not want whatever it is they haveâhell, his friends had called her his work wife; crooning to each other like you were just a pinned butterfly stuck behind glass, watching as they coloured the details of johnâs life beyond your grasp. of his love outside of your arms.
is it because of mary he asked like he hadnât just told you of maryâs love for him, the confession sheâd whispered as he held her in his arms after she had lost her pet to an illness. like he didnât tell you, in awed whispers, how mary told him that he was the best thing that ever happened to her; the loveliest thing in her life like john was hers to begin with. like john wasnât wearing a gold band on his ringâthe promise heâs made in that courthouse, when the two of you were still too young and obsessively in love.
is it because of mary he asked like he hadnât just told you, in angered puffs, that he couldnât have rejected her then. she was in pain, heâd said. i couldnât do that to her, heâd added like it was mary whom he married. like it was mary who he needed to protect and reassure and cherish.
so yes, it is because of her. but also, it is because you are tired.
tired of asking for his love. for his devotion. for him to choose you, come what may.
âjust,â you begin, too weak for anything more. âsign the papers, please john.â
even when you are leaving him, you are still unable to stop yourself from pleading to him for his kindness. for his grace.
he stares at you, pinched lips and flared nose, and you stare back because this manâthis john that stands before youâthis isnât the man youâve loved. not the one who loved you back.
your john wouldnât have hurt you this way; he would have listened to your whispered confessions, see the ache in your admission, and move himself away from mary because why did it matter if she had loved him? your john wouldnât have cared for her affections; your john would have only cared for your own.
your john wouldnât haveâ
your john wouldnât. and now he is gone.
so you walk away from⊠this man amidst the suffocating silence, feeling nothing wash over you.
they said divorce feels like liberation; that it feels like the start of something kinder and better and brighter. but this just feels like a bruise on your tender skinâsomething blooming, pain so muted that it hurts only when you poke it.
and like how you were with all your previous bruises, you cannot stop poking at this one too.
simon knows that heâs just a cheap replacement for the one that you truly wish you could be with, but johnâs a married man already and youâve always been too nice to put yourself first.
itâs how john slipped from your grasp, in the first place. you kept quiet about the turbulence in your heart and further refused to speak up about the truth of your cross when one of your friends began seeing him.
simon had been there as you stuttered past the tears, choking on your own words.
âi thoughtââ you hiccupped. âi thought that iâ that heââ
you looked up at him, anguish so bright on your face. âwhat do i do now, si?â
simon shrugged because he didnât know what to say.
whatever was between you and john had been an ongoing push-and-pull; it was this shared thing that the squad knew about â teases flung around the mess hall when you and john were caught spending long nights in his office again.
itâs not like that, yâpricks, john finally barked out with such finality that it became too awkward to even tease the two of you again. and even then, john never really stopped coming to find you for more late night chats, but it was so blatantly platonic â hell, it could have even passed off as a mentor-mentee thing, which was even worse because everyone could see how you wanted more from him.
and their captain was a complicated man. sometimes, they all caught the way he seemed to reciprocate the same desires etched so obviously in your very being, but his was always just more muted. more controlled â john had a tight leash on himself, and he wasnât allowing anything to slip past the cracks like whatever it was that he was feeling was something he decided you mustnât have. that youâre too good for it. too nice for it.
itâs probably why john didnât end up marrying you. why he settled so fast for this new woman that walked into his life like the two of you didnât have something, anything, at all. simon wonders if john saw his own marriage as an atonement for liking you.
for needing you, actually.
because simon knows their captain, and he knows that there was only so much john could handle but youâ
oh, how you balanced john. you made him sane. made him nice.
you made him human.
and what a scary thing it must have been for their captain.
simon knows he isnât truly who you are looking for when you come to him, bourbon heavy in your breath, and begging for a kiss. he gives it to you, anyway, and tells himself that itâs a kiss made out of pity. that thereâs nothing more to it. nothing more to this.
(but simon will take you with such gentle cadence, spreading you out with his wide palm and thick fingers, rubbing the calluses on the soft pudge of your skin, and he will not stop wondering if even then, with him deep in you, you are still mistaking him for john.)
Roommate!Simon Riley who is literally your personal weather man.
Like, why need the app when you have him to do it all for you??
âSimon!!â
Itâs usually in the mornings, when heâs busy packing your lunch for work. âYeah, love!â He awaits your response, a little smile tugging at the corners of his lips when he hears something clatter, quickly followed by a loud curse.
âWhat-ow-whatâs the temperature today?!â Another clatter, another curse, and heâs sticking your sandwhich in a plastic bag, placing it intricately inside your lunchbox. He does this every morning that heâs able. Thereâs a very specific way he goes about putting it all in there, and a very specific snack for each meal category. Some might call him a chump, but he calls it being a good friend. Cause heâs NOT your boyfriend
âWarm and sunny sweetâart! But bring a jacket, yea?!â
âOkay!â The next slam is loud, and if it wasnât for your typical clumsiness, heâd have assumed youâd died just a little bit.
His large shoulders shake with a rumble of laughter as he zips your lunchbox, now moving to fill up your water bottle. âAlright in there?!â
âYeah! Just-ow-canât get my shoe on!â
Heâd do the same thing tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that, and when he was deployed, heâd wake up every morning to a message- drum roll please -asking about the weather. When he couldnât get to you in time, heâd always come back to find about a thousand texts from you.
okay since youâre not answering me iâm gonna go with sunny
no rainy
wait, it looks shiny outside, sunny
the next message would be a picture of you standing on the sidewalk in the rain, a thin pair of shoes on and no jacket.
nevermind, it was rainy
and cold
and wet
Heâd laugh so loud the whole crew would think heâd gone mad.
told you to bring a jacket, love
Bubbles would pop up and then disappear, up and then disappear. Instead of the sassy attitude he expected in return, he found you simply just needing him.
when are you coming home :(
i need my weather man back
He could just tell you to download the app, but there was something about you wanting him to tell you that made him feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Heâs whipped.
I like to think that when Simon eventually settles down, he marries a slightly strange, mildly autistic super genius who's known for just sort of knowing everything. They're the one person forced to sit out in pub quizzes and asked how to word or spell things correctly when the guys are writing work emails. Their whole thing is knowing something about everything.
Or, most things, at least.
Simon soon learns, that whilst his spouse is killer at trivia and knowing stuff, that's about as good as it gets.
"How do I write a cheque?" Leaves him literally baffled, perhaps even more than the one time they'd revealed to him that they didn't know how online banking worked.
"It tells you - on the paper."
"Yeah but - I don't know my bank details." They respond to his incredulity like an adult not knowing their own bank details is the most natural thing in the world.
"What do - how do you get paid without knowing that?"
"My dad set it up for me - I just figured the money goes in every month."
The sudden realisation that his partner is deadly serious hits Simon like a truck. If they don't even know how to access their bank, how have they done taxes and paid off their credit cards?
"And when the money goes out - like, say, when you pay your taxes?" He questions with anxious patience, sitting opposite them at the kitchen table.
"I thought you paid our taxes."
"But I thought you paid them. That's been like your one job since we got married."
He signs them up for one of those old people online banking courses like a week later.