God

Life isn't a period of time. It feels more like a moment. I don't really understand how I am this old already and how I will become older. And i will feel the same way from the inside when I will be older. I will just be in the moment. Not in the 'live in the moment' way but in a 'remembering or planning doesn't feel real' way. And other people are the same.

This doesn't feel real. At all.

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad

I am very tired.

I don't feel like I have friends.

I have people I talk to, we hang out. But I don't LIKE them. I don't like them the way I want to. Am I dumb? Am i doing stupid shit? Is this how it's supposed to be? Is this the extent to which other people like their friends?

Is what I want even possible?

I hope good things happen in 2025. I wish I would find a friend. I wish interesting things would happen.

I wish. For that. Which is unrealistic and dumb. Wow. I'm not going to say what it is.

A friend. Please. God, please. It's like I didn't ever try. It's not my fault I don't like them. I shouldn't take up someone's time if I don't like them.

What should I do?

Oh my goodness

hey remember when taika posted this

I just thought again that this "I don't hit women rule" is shit. It only means "I won't hit you until I'm really angry as hell because I think you're weak and I prefer to use my anger to hurt people physically". It just means that you're not that good in controlling yourself. People must be treated with respect no matter if they are or aren't strong enough to hit you back. It says "women are weak" and "I am quick to judge and get physical" at once. Why do you think that being fragile must be what stops you from being aggressive?

This thought is not complete but it is important.

absolutely do not unmute this clip of the brazilian dub for this moment. unrelated but i'm going to drive my car off a cliff

Have you ever just felt that not only don't you have noone to talk with but also nothing to talk about? No. You have things you could talk about but you don't anything to say.

I see myself having a family eventually. Not now though. I can't spend a lot of time with people, it's tiring. I am so peaceful right now during quarantine.

This makes me wonder if I will ever feel sourceful (if you can say it like these) to have someone for a long time in my life. Especially children. Will I ever feel like I won't be completely out of energy after just some time?

Hello there

I created this account to find people who are like me or who find me interesting.

This account doesn't have my name or my usual nickname so I hope not to find people that I already know.

I want to start fresh. I want to talk without any limits. I came here to look for myself.