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ok last thing. but what people fundamentally need to get through their heads is the significance of gaza fundraisers not being the same as like mutual aid when you're helping someone get groceries, because it is a genocide. there is insane deliberate scarcity and prices are unmanageable, because there is nowhere nearly enough for everyone, so only people who can pay can eat. and what positioning individual fundraisers as the only course of action does is quite simply give a tiny percentage of random people whose fundraisers take off the ability to pay those prices while thousands of others can't. and every one of those thousands of people without a fundraiser is suffering through the same inconceivably horrific reality. it is giving a few completely desperate people out of hundreds of thousands a slightly more favorable position in a horrific war economy of imposed scarcity. and what grassroots community kitchens do is try to mitigate in some small way that inconceivable hierarchy of who can pay and who can't, by stretching ingredients as far as they can last to cook meals at large scale and give them out at no cost. and obviously people are still going to send money to their friends and families because this is hell what else are we supposed to do but please just think about that before promoting endless individual fundraisers as somehow the most ethical way to help
I am in desperate need of money and donations. 🙏🥹
I want to buy jackets and blankets for my children because the weather is cold and harsh and my children are freezing from the cold and cannot bear it, and we do not have any heating tools in this weather.
The safety of my children depends on your donations. Please, I beg of you, help me escape this nightmare.
okay i don't have anything smart to add i just genuinely love that these seemingly trivial jokes are actually an important part of his character. we see it throughout the entire manga, how he pushes aside his own frustration and discomfort to accommodate everyone else's and avoid needless confrontation- another example off the top of my head would be the barometz chapter in which he slowly gets frustrated with izutsumi but still tries his best to talk some sense into her calmly and soundly.
and in contrast, there are very few times he expresses his anger and hurt towards others, and it usually takes a lot for him to finally lose his patience and control.
i mean, even with kabru he tried to be polite despite the circumstances until the guy said the one thing that triggers an immense sense of shame, hurt and rage in laios. and you know, the manga does say it quite clearly early on. when we are introduced to namari and then to shuro, laios acts all friendly and shows his respect and trust in them despite how things ended between them, and everyone else gets frustrated with him for acting so strange- why are you the one who tries so hard to pacify the rest when you should be the angriest?
and they don't understand him. they don't know him well enough to be able to understand, but we as readers get to see during the manga that they aren't wrong to question him- he does, in fact, feel all those ugly emotions. and it's when the winged lion finally confronts him that we see to what extent these feelings he buried so deep go, and suddenly all those funny little moments where he sometimes pretends to be mr nice guy speak volumes about his character. honestly, ryoko kui is a master at using jokes in order to define important character traits and this one doesn't fail to amaze me.
and laios's hatred and rage and deep scars he can't get over aren't shown explicitly during most of these moments i mentioned before, but now you realize there are 26 years of emotional baggage to all of them and they sting. he is angry but he can't say shit, what difference would it make? it won't make his friends choose him instead of themselves when he needed them most, and it won't help his party get any farther. of course, this logic doesn't apply to them- they are absolutely allowed to get angry and it's fine to get mad at him, he can take that.
so after finishing the series it's so clear that he tries his best to avoid clashing with others not just due to the current circumstances and him needing to be a reliable leader but also because he knows that people don't even like him when he tries to show his good sides and hide all the rest, so who the hell would tolerate his rage and despair? who would stay after realizing that he is so deeply flawed he doesn't even like his own being?
but he does get mad. he can't help it, and sometimes it gets out of control and now everyone knows. and it's funny, isn't it? that most of those moments ended up bringing him closer to others. shuro admitting he is envy of him and actually becoming the friend laios thought he was all along, fighting for his sake and waiting for him to come back- believing in him even after he turned into a monster and searching for him the way he couldn't bring himself to do for falin when he learned of what became of her- or kabru being pushed to just let it all out because he couldn't bluff his way out of this one and get to laios any other way, so now they are even. they are both horribly honest with each other and they both choose to stay. a weird way of getting to know each other, but it is what it is.
it's simply... the more laios let himself just be, the deeper his relationships grew. and there's intimacy in being your ugly, weak and furious self around someone and them not leaving you. feeling safe enough to let it be known you are hurt and angry. and he knows that now, too.
One of the biggest gaps between narrative and what the player can see as reality despite the faulty narrative is with Curly and the way Jimmy thinks for Curly. Curly is a morally grey character in general, he sticks up for Jimmy and the tragedy of the Tulpar happens because Curly is bringing a known danger into a new community and hoping for the best. Curly assumes Jimmy is a good person pretending to be bad, and so he supports him as such. But when Curly is punished by the story to become a bystander even in his own life after his injury, he now knows what it’s like to be on the receiving end of his violence instead of apart of his brotherhood. A huge part of Curly’s relationship has to do with rape culture in the first place, and how Curly consistently defends Jimmy as a nice guy because “he knows him”. Then after his injury he’s forced to become someone Jimmy doesn’t consider past his own guilt for the only action he thinks is worthy of guilt: hurting Curly and taking away his capabilities. But by that point, Curly likely doesn’t think of Jimmy as someone totally worthy of forgiveness after any action. A big cornerstone of Curly’s character as morally grey is that he’s too nice. He believed in Jimmy too much to the point that it became a detriment to the others because being kind to someone inherently bad DOES have consequences. People aren’t magically fixable, and especially not with forgiveness of every action and freedom from any consequences. But to that point I don’t think that Curly still thinks that Jimmy is good underneath after everything he did. Yes he’s still friends with him and he believes it’s his responsibility to be tied to him because he was a bystander to his actions for so long. Curly is a pretty even mix of misplaced good leading to unintentional bad.
Curly, in Jimmy’s mind, will still do everything in his power to excuse his actions and forgive him.
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