You Have To Notice The Good Things. You Must. Or You Will Be Consumed By The Bad Things.

The Forest

This time of year, my room smells of the forest

The basil and mint that grows there

Crammed into the bark of the trees 

Further down there's dirt and other things.

The purple plants that the bees love

Whenever I slept I smelt the forest 

Even when I hardly slept 

Or maybe thats what sleep smells like

Basil and mint.

Maybe, too that's what it looks like -- 

Serene like the closely packed trees

Webbed with sweet smelling flowers 

Glittering with morning dew

It was nice, to go down there, 

Waiting for the sun to set

Cast its pale glow before bathing us 

In shining darkness

As we looked up

Our eyes went as far as they could 

Then the rest we imagined 

If we missed a day, there was always the next

And if we missed a year it didn't matter,

The forest stayed firmly put 

Waiting 

The basil and mint grew and died and grew again

The sun kept setting 

The bees kept coming back 

The purple plants kept flowering 

The street lamp flicks off at dawn

Turns on, that's twilight.

No one looks up.

Pushing ahead.

The smell of the past is everywhere

Basil and mint lingers on clothes

The smell of too long waiting 

Between them, the trees and the sky

Filled the view, but still, we imagined.

Whatever was left was ours for a while

But soon the moon will send the seas 

And where we live will flood

Coiling around the forest floor

Paying the sky the compliment of reflection 

I went back but didn't stay

Everything I remembered was gone

Dissapeared

Into a place that doesn't exist

The one we dreamed about 

Beyond the forest. 

I had to see if the sun still shone 

Rose tinted hues

If the leaves still glistened 

With the mirage of dew

The forest is achingly terrible

After years of waiting

It tells the truth

Green in spring

And white in winter.

Aut viam inveniam aut faciam

I will either find a way, or I will make one

im a walking talking stereotype im afraid

oh look. another trans boy named alex on tumblr. join the club dude.

alright buddy

how does it feel to also show up on those basic trans guy name lists?

Notes game because I need it

5 - I properly tidy my room and light some incense ✅

10 - I go out on a walk for 20 mins ✅

15 - I plan something with a friend ✅

20 - I submit my poetry to a creative writing competition ✅

25 - I finish my plan for a long marauders fic ✅

30 - I cut down my screen time by 30 mins each day ☑️ (trying 😭)

35 - I ask my parents to change my name on the school register ✅

40 - I work out for an extra hour each week

45 - I ask my parents for a binder for my birthday

50 - I call a hotline next time I feel like hurting myself

I wish people would understand that not everything is for everyone to get. you will be left out of some conversations, a lot of art will not apply to you, you will not like things that people you like enjoy, and just because you cannot add to the topic of discussion or relate does not mean that it is not valued or worthwhile. the internet has coddled people to such a concerning extent that everyone feels like they need to vocally disagree with something just because they don’t get it. Knowing something, and genuinely getting it are not the same. NOT EVERYTHING IS FOR YOUUUUU

hi

I really like you blog:)

You can probably tell from my spam in your notifs (sorry!)

Thank you!! I appreciate the spam actually, i do that to other people loads

@iloverocks51 at bros house to do work!! (no work is getting done)

sometimes its just (seeing the moon in the daytime) (long car rides) (waking up slowly and naturally) (the smell of charity shops) (tea at just the right temperature) (lava lamps in the dark) (the smell of incense that lingers for days) (finishing a good book) (muffled voices when your head is underwater) (hearing your favourite song on the radio) (warm baked goods just out the oven) (looking at someone you know doing something mundane and being overwhelmed by how much you love them) (a cat laying on your chest) (the sound of wood burning) yknow

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