Look At Pickled Spam Back There ♡

If you're only living because you're afraid of death, then you're just like me.

It's 3:02 AM where I live. I haven't showered in around 2 months. I'm afraid of showering because it's horribly uncomfortable and It gives me gender dysphoria. I'm stuck in a constant cycle of loving things/ideas/people with my whole soul to hating them with my whole soul. I don't have a source of income. I don't know how to drive. I live with people that feel like strangers to me. There is only 2 people in this world I would say that I love. I have no friends. I don't talk to my biological father. Whenever I vent I feel like I'm burdening the ones I love with my problems. I can't be myself around anyone but my sibling. I feel tired all the time. I feel angry all the time. I can never get enough sleep. Even though I hate wearing a mask around other people I feel like I have to to convince them not to abandon me. I don't and have never understood who I am at any given moment. I've done terrible things. I have horrible intrusive thoughts that I block out with music. I'm hardly good at anything. I can barely recall anything from my childhood that wasn't painful or traumatic in some way.

I deeply crave death.

It's 3:30 now. Might add more.

《 Here's another re-color for the people 》

♥︎ Feel free to use them for whatever you want

♥︎ Questions are always welcome

I love trans/nonbinary people

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People with Cluster B Disorders. I am sorry about the world. People with Psychotic Disorders. I am sorry about the world. People with OCD. I am sorry about the world.

So many people say they're allies, sometimes even specifically to you, but oftentimes they're lying. They refuse to accommodate on even the most basic level and then treat you like a monster. It's fucked up. It's not your fault. You are not uniquely evil or fucked up. They're just Ableist, and you're just naturally struggling in a world that makes itself completely hostile to you.

*DRAMATIC INHALE*

WE'VE GOT NEVER BETTERED BARGAINS

WE'VE GOT DEALS YOU WON'T BELIEVE

WE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT BEFORE YOU REALISE WHAT YOU NEED

IF YOU'LL PARDON US THE JARGON

HERE'S OUR DARKNER GUARANTEE

WE TAKE CASH OR CARD OR CREDIT, BUT WE'LL TAKE YOUR HEART FOR FREE-

reblog w the song lyrics in your head NOW. either stuck in yr head or what yr listening to

CW: This is a vent post.

Someone fucking blocked me because I was trying to have a civil conversation with them.

I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING.

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Why the fuck would you do this. I did NOTHING to you. ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING. I guess that's what I get for trying to ask a simple question. Wouldn't be the first time someone referred to me being gracious as "odd", and I have a feeling that both times they didn't mean it as a compliment. I'm absolutely powerless to do anything about this. That's what bothers me most. I HATE feeling powerless, because I am. I ALWAYS WILL BE. THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO BUT CRY ANYMORE. ALL OF THIS BECAUSE I SAID THAT THE IDEA OF "HUMAN EMPATHY" IS ABLEIST TO PEOPLE WITH LOW/NO EMPATHY. GUESS WHAT, FUCKER, I'M ODD AND PROUD OF IT. USE WHATEVER LABEL YOU WANT, "WEIRD", "ECCENTRIC", "STRANGE", "ABNORMAL", "R3TARD3D", IT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE. I AM HERE. I AM LOUD. I AM ALIVE. AND I WON'T ALLOW MYSELF TO BE WALKED ON LIKE I AM NOTHING. This is what I get for being hopeful, for being kind, and for being passive.

Nothing.

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

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