It Always Sends Chills Down My Spine To Rewatch The Subbed Version Of Yamiyu's Reaction To Losing Yugi

it always sends chills down my spine to rewatch the subbed version of yamiyu's reaction to losing yugi in the orichalcos arc. i know that, in the dub version, he keeps begging for yugi to come back to him and it is actually very touching, but in the sub version? it's unforgettable.

his screams are so raw, so sorrowful, so full of despair. it's a scream you hear from someone who just lost a part of their own body. the pain is so overwhelming you can hear it in his voice. as if someone is sawing his flesh without anesthesia. i know this comparation sounds funny, but its the one that suits the best for me. so much pain in his soul it becomes physical. and, as he himself said, he "lost something more important than" his own soul.

so imagine being this hurt. imagine wanting to give your mf soul away in exchange for someones freedom, even if you know your soul is the only thing left of you. so, to get yugi back, he was not only ready to give everything he had, but everything he was - everything he WAS, which, to me, is much more intense than giving what you have, because, if you lose all your possessions, it's gonna be hard, but maybe you can still find a way to regain what was lost. but you're still alive in the end. fuck, even if you lose a part of your body, which is something you have, you can live a normal life. but without your soul? you're dead, that's it. there's nothing else keeping you alive.

and that's why this is one of my favorite puzzle moments. you would never see yami reacting that way to losing any-fucking-one. even when he is sad, he keeps his shit together, he doesn't cry or show his vulnerabilities in front of other people. he is a king, he was taught how to conceal his emotions and keep the poker face to almost everything.

even when jonouchi -who is clearly one of the most important people to him- died, he kept a somber look on his face. you can tell he is mourning his friend, but you can't see his eyes, you don't know what he is thinking. he is clearly angry and sad, but he's still keeping his deepest emotions buried under the thickest layer of composure. he wouldn't show his weaknesses, he wouldn't let other people know he was suffering. so he was sad, but he managed to look as chill as possible.

when he really allowed himself to let his feelings out, he first got in a private place, out of everyone's eyesight.

when yugi's soul got sealed, though, he got so openly vulnerable in front of everyone, as if the pain was unbearable, uncontrollable. he, a king, so imponent and powerful, wasn't able to control his feelings, because they were overwhelming, intense, consuming. he didn't give a single fuck if he was being emotional, he was kneeling on the dirt, crying every drop of salt water out of his eyes and screaming the fuck out of his lungs.

this is why the sub version is more impactful to me. BITCH WAS SO SAD HE COULDNT EVEN FORMULATE A SINGLE PHRASE ! he could only scream and cry like an australopithecus . fuck etiquette, fuck composure, fuck communication, fuck everything. his tiny little brain wasn't working, it was plain like a chicken breast