My 10 Holy Grail Pieces Of Writing Advice For Beginners

"How do you write such realistic dialogue-" I TALK TO MYSELF. I TALK TO MYSELF AND I PRETEND I AM THE ONE SAYING THE LINE. LIKE SANITY IS SLOWLY SLIPPING FROM BETWEEN MY FINGERS WITH EVERY MEASLY WORD THEY TYPE OUT. THAT IS HOW.

How the gentle wind,

Beckons through the trees,

As autumn colours fall.

Haven't really posted any of my own stuff on this blog in a while lol

So have some of my ocs, Nils [REDACTED], Phillip Blythe, and Leon Locke

They're all dating :3

I'm trying to overcome my same face syndrome, and try to give my characters more distinct features.

Well put. (Source: Writing About Writing Facebook page)

Tw: mentions of suicidal thoughts

Last night I called a suicide hotline for the first time. I haven't been this suicidal in almost 3 years, but everything is starting to get to me. I'm in my 5th semester of college (i'm only in my second official year, because i dual-enrolled two semesters my senior year of high school), and it's supposed to get easier with each semester, but it isn't.

I only have 4 classes instead of 5, but it's still too much, and I'm still getting overwhelmed. The amount of time that I have in-between semesters isn't enough, I'm still too exhausted and worn out.

AND I STILL HAVE 2 MORE YEARS LEFT (4 if i go through with my master's)

When I transfer to a 4-year college to finish my degree, I know it's going to be even harder.

While I haven't been able to get an official diagnosis, I'm pretty sure I have ADHD. And it's destroying me. I can't focus for shit, and procrastination seems to be the only word in my vocabulary.

I need medication, and unfortunately for me, my mom is against it.

I'm an adult, but everything is through my mom's insurance, plus she has full access to my medical records and would be able to see if I was prescribed anything.

Besides, I don't even have a way to get it. I still don't have my driver's license.

I don't know what to do anymore.

God I love old man yaoi

shane x farmer headcanon

TW: Alcoholism, EDs and body dysmorphia, and mentions of being suicidal.

Here's some headcanon stuff before i get to the depressing shit

Leon is 5'5", and Shane is 5'6" (funnily enough, leon was made to be short because i wanted him to be slightly shorter than shane, and i've always headcanoned shane as 5'6")

Neither one can cook. Leon has literally burnt down his kitchen before.

Leon is 27, and Shane is 34

Leon is horrible with kids, but Shane is surprisingly good with them (it's cause he tries to be a good uncle to jas)

Leon doesn't understand a thing about gridball, but it's fine cause shane loves to ramble and explain it.

Shane is transmasc, and uses he/they pronouns.

Leon uses he/him pronouns.

Shane wears exclusively crocs, even at work. It drives leon insane (he despises crocs).

Leon and Shane are both slobs, and it drives Leon's bodyguard Phillip (who also lives with them) fucking nuts. (phil is a part of their relationship, but i want to focus on leon and shane's dynamic here. i'll eventually make a post about a phil x shane dynamic)

Leon is somehow still a certified accountant (even after getting fired from his last job for accused fraud. he was set up tho), and handles the finances for the farm, and deals with tax stuff. He often rambles about accountant stuff to Shane, who doesn't understand a lick of it.

Leon is allergic to cats, but they still keep a cat around the farm.

Leon's full name is Leonard Valentine Locke. DO NOT call him Leonard, he despises his full name.

^ This is leon :3

^ this is his sdv sprite i made :3 (pixel art is a pain in the ass in procreate btw T_T)

ok sad shit below this, read at your own risk.

So shane has always been a big influence on my oc, Leon (it was mostly subconscious, I didn't realize Leon was so similar to Shane until a couple of months ago)

They're both suicidally depressed and alcoholics, and both struggle with their sense of self-worth.

I believe that Shane drinks because he lost two close friends who meant a lot to him (Jas' parents), and didn't know how to deal with the grief. He'd already had a bit of an issue with alcohol before, but nothing like it would become.

Leon drinks because he had a shit childhood and a shit life. He hates himself, and struggles with major depression. He's on antidepressants, and meds for bipolar 2, which react poorly with the alcohol, worsening his symptoms, and making him heavily suicidal. He always had a problem with alcohol, but it became significantly worse when he shot and killed his father. While it was self-defense, his now boss, Zalu Merriweather, used it against him to get Leon to work for them. That sent Leon into a downward spiral, and he ended up nearly dying multiple times.

He ended up in Stardew Valley with his bodyguard, Phillip, because of some lore thing idk. what happens in stardew valley isn't canon to my story, so i haven't put too much though as to why Leon ends up there lmao

But Leon finds shane, and they are two drunk peas in a pod. They get along well, (perhaps too well), and are both worsening the other's alcoholism, since Shane now has a drinking buddy, and leon thinks shane's hot af, but leon prefers to be drunk when he sleeps with someone.

Then shane's six-heart event rolls around, and leon doesn't want to shane to end up like him. Shane decides he's going to get his shit together.

Leon doesn't get sober yet, tho. He's still drinking and struggling, but with Shane now being sober, he doesn't want to be a bad influence.

Eventually, shane and phil are able to help leon give up alcohol.

Leon gives it up entirely, but Shane is able to have a few beers every now and then.

Leon gains weight after quitting alcohol, and it really fucks with him. He had an ED when he was younger, and has bad body dysmorphia. Seeing his body become "ugly" by his standards almost makes Leon relapse, but he works through it.

ALL HAIL THE MIGHTY TOBY

BOW DOWN BEFORE HIS MAJESTY

AND BEHOLD HIS FLOOFY GRANDUER

Behold the mighty Toby!