My Interior Decorating Goals Are That Upon Entry, Any And All Minimalists Immediately Take Heavy Psychic

(grabbing your face) do you remember simon fairchild's statement about how he became an avatar. how he fell and the sky embraced him. i think about it all the time. how it would feel to be embraced by the vast. the entity that is about how you are insignificant before the endless void, holding you. the fact that being an avatar of the vast means loving a contradiction: you are insignificant and the entity of the vastness of everything else holds you in its embrace and takes away your mortality.

i wonder if when simon told that one guy enjoy sky blue if the reason he laughed while saying it was because he was sharing his own joy. if in his own way he wasn't being generous, sharing the experience that changed him forever. i wonder if as much as he spreads terror, maybe what he really wanted was to share that experience, and that's why he picked someone who loves sky-diving, someone who was also in love with the sky.

i wonder if that guy who was eaten by the sky isn't out there now, saying the sky held him gently in the huge jaws of endless blue, and he cried with joy as he understood. if what for his mother was a horrible experience that killed her son, for him wasn't the liberation from his mortal life and worries before the realization that we are nothing.

i wonder if simon was afraid, too, before he was in love or while he was in love with it, if he can even distinguish his love for the vast from his fear from it or it's just another facet of his adoration, something he can offer to it, if when he said he loved the sky he meant it like that, like we often love a god, with fear as strong as our adoration.

dramatic

y’know that maslow pyramid shit? yeah this is on all those levels man. uh huh, every single one of em.

*gives you this*

the casual ace/aro phobia is astounding. in my english class this year most of the texts were centred around AI technology and the idea of ‘humanity’ — our novel study was Machines Like Me by Ian McEwan, and while it is a well-written novel I was quite uncomfortable with reading & then having class discussions detailing how integral sex is to the human nature.

like there’s so many other elements I can think of instead that also make up the human experience :

aesthetic appreciation, a sense of wonder & awe, the need for connection, altruism — and not all of these are exclusive to humankind !! which is even better !!

so tell me why the first google search result lists “sex” as the fifth example of human nature, especially by an article with a url of ‘newscientist’

and don’t even get me started on how harmful anthropocentric beliefs have been to our world (specifically vertebrae supremacists but that’s a whole other tangent)

I’m so fucking done with discourse around ace and aro identities, so I’m just stating my opinion as many times as I can at this point.

They

Are

Spectrums

You feel little to no sexual/romantic attraction as an ace or aro person! You can still feel a small/rare amount of attraction!

Libido ≠ attraction, so get out of here with the whole ‘aces don’t want sex!’ Because there are sex favourable aces!! Sex repulsed aces are just as valid and we need to appreciate the ace community in all of it’s glory!

Aromanticism is the same! Aros can want romantic relationships/enjoy romance without feeling romantic attraction because they’re not the same thing!! Romance repulsed aros are also very valid (I’m romance repulsed irl but invested in fictional romance lmao)

And loveless aros!! People always try to claim that love is what makes us human, so let’s stop with that because it’s not true and pretty aphobic.

Every acespec and arospec identity is different, and we should be appreciating each identity and how every experience is going to be unique in its own way.

If you’re not aro/ace you have no right to talk over us about our own communities as well so please just stfu.

BRUH a dude I know from work came in for the first time in months and I thought he looked different but couldn't figure out why?? So I asked if he'd changed his hair and he was like "BITCH I GOT TOP SURGERY"

new blunt rotation, i mean outfit rotation just rolled in:

we got the knee-length jorts, ratty braided leather belt, oversized white t shirt that reads “wicked fish” with vintage looking trout art, and a sleeveless denim vest. oh and my docs bc they make me seem taller.

(my therapist said she liked my outfit)

yes i’m in my western hyperfixation era, and no i cannot see an end in sight.

this whole “never repeat outfits” shit is not working for me. i get attached to one oversized sweater and that’s all you’ll see me in for a week

@bad-time-piss-depression 🦜

thinking about that kakapo egg that got crushed but the conservation team patched it up and it survived

@bad-time-piss-depression

Guy about to invent sparkling water: water is so good but I wish that it tasted terrible and hated me

angel wings -::- @earthtowildrose