Butterfly Touches | Sakusa Kiyoomi

Touches from a loved one are precious.

And with Sakusa Kiyoomi, it’s particularly rare.

Not one for physical affections, the curly haired male often struggle to express his feelings without coming off as harsh or rude, thus limiting the circle of those he consider as safe to interact with at a closer distance. His mysophobia separated him from many, yet you’d been so determined to befriend him that you eventually managed to weasel your way past his bubble, where you’d then grew to become an important piece in his life.

Being with him is a challenge of its own, as for the most part, he’d come off as distant, yet you’d gotten used to reading him that it never bothered you too much. Even then, there are still days where you’d worry that he’d grown disinterested in you, which would explain the passiveness, yet you still continued to place your trust in him.

Kiyoomi is as straightforward as one can get. And if he wanted to end your relationship, he would just say it - right?

The relationship that the both of you share always seem to fall into the category of a grey area, as there never really is a solid black or white when it comes to expressing his feelings. You know he loves you, that much is clear, but is that love strong enough to keep you from leaving? Are you satisfied with what you currently have?

He didn’t know. And he’s scared to find out the answer when he sat you down that evening, long fingers fidgeting nervously and picking at the drying patch on his left hand that came about from over-washing, unsure of how he’s supposed to initiate the conversation. The could almost hear the pounding of his heart with how loudly it’s beating, but he still refused to look at you.

It was hard. How could he look you in the eye and reassure you that the love he has for you is still as strong as ever when he couldn’t even bring himself to hold your hand in public for a few minutes? He blamed his inability to physically express his care on the disorder, but he shouldn’t - he knows he shouldn’t - and he should do something about it before you slip away.

Were you about to yell at him? Break up with him? Look at him with disgust? He couldn’t tell.

“Kiyoomi,” you started, turning to face him completely, but respectively kept your distance. “I- this has to end.”

There it is. The four words he’d been dreading to hear.

You’d finally had enough. The curly haired volleyball player just knew that there was no way he could salvage what little hope that’s left once the words left your lips. He couldn’t breathe.

His could feel his lungs contract and his heart being squeezed so tightly that he was certain he’d drop dead any moment now, wishing that he’s anywhere but there so he could curl up into a ball and become one with the walls that’s surrounding him. With thoughts racing faster than germs can spread, the only one that stood out was regret.

Regrets that are probably too late to atone.

He recalled all the times you’d attempted to bring up a topic regarding your relationship and all the times he’d evaded from them, the silence that follows and the disappointment that glazed your eyes now serving as a haunting nightmare playing repetitively like a broken record, taunting him. He should’ve listened, let you speak your mind, but he hadn’t done so. And he’s now reaping what he sowed.

“I can’t help you if you don’t let me know what’s bothering you.”

What?

With all the built-up and unnecessary worries, you were only attempting to help him. He felt like an idiot - an overthinking, empty headed idiot.

And before he could stop himself, he’d teared up. You’d been so unbelievably patient with him that it almost felt unreal, that maybe you were playing a joke on him this entire time. But you weren’t.

Your week had been clouded with worry for the ace spiker when he’d been quieter than usual, but was unsure of whether or not you should bring it up in fear that you’d overstepped your boundaries. Seeing him break down right now only served as a punch to your gut as this was the first time he allowed himself to be weak in front of you, and you felt helpless, knowing that you couldn’t even reach out to give him a reassuring hug.

So he did it instead. With trembling arms reaching out to clutch at the fabric of your uniform, he allowed himself to bask your hesitant embrace. He wasn’t sure if what he’s currently feeling is fear or excitement, but when you’d finally wrapped your arms around him, there was no denying that it was neither.

He’d never been more relieved to know that you still cared enough about him to raise the same worries you’d been carrying because of his selfish attitude, and it felt good. Registering that this was the first time the both of you have truly touched, he let himself remember such an unfamiliar yet welcoming feeling.

Warm. It felt warm.

Since then, he’d opened up to your more, through both his words and action. Albeit not much, the ace did his best to convey his thoughts with small gestures on days where he could manage, and you respected it when he couldn’t. He’s trying, and that’s what matters the most.

Like the touch of a butterfly, Kiyoomi’s is much alike - gentle, soft, and uniquely his.

random sakusa headcannons

he loves wearing jewelry; necklaces and rings are a must. he prefers chunky (thick) silver over dainty pieces

enjoys photography- he even has his own camera

loves surprising you on dates. on your 6th month anniversary, he got you a charm bracelet. there were already a few there, but there was plenty of room for more to be added. everytime you’d go a special date, he would add a charm for to remember it

furthermore, he takes a picture before each outing and saves them to a folder in his phone. once he’s reached a couple year’s worth of photos, he prints them out and puts them into a journal, writing down small details of what happened on each date 🥲 i am love starved

likes scary movies and especially enjoys teasing others when they get scared. definitely finds them silly (especially 80s and 90s slasher films)

SAKUSA LISTENS TO INDIE, ROCK AND CHILL POP MUSIC !!! BILLIE MARTEN, FRAN VISILIĆ (religiously, okay probably even seen him live), JUNODREAM, ST. VINCENT, SUMMER SALT, ALT-J

his handwriting is so nice ? extremely neat and not too small ( it looks like he’s typed it but it's just that good)

the type to say he has nothing to wear but his closet is FULL OF CLOTHES

posts on social media like 5 times a year

a dog person but if you got a cat he would bend over backwards for them

this man will put his pets before you. if he’s at an away game, expect him to facetime and demand to see his children. will straight up ignore your text for hours at a time and respond only asking if you fed his babies- i hate men

his phone is so unorganized ??? istg it’s like he ignored the ios 14 update. even if you try and fix it, he somehow always messes it back up again

watched true crime shows religiously in high school (there was no motive for this one)

[A/N]

i love that this progressively gets more chaotic as it goes on

anyways ! hope you enjoyed :) likes and reblogs are much appreciated ♡

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kenma-sweets

3 years ago

new post coming today ! it’ll be out inna few <3

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sugar rush

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kenma-sweets

2 years ago

🤔🌝

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him TASTY ART the colors r my will 2 live <3

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kenma-sweets

3 years ago

this used to be ME

Bro she can read a whole 400 page novel in a day. If she is not reading your one text, let her go, she's already taken by a fictional character

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i miss that actually how do i get back into reading :/

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kenma-sweets

3 years ago

gonna post in a little bit !

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some hcs bc i CAN

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kenma-sweets

2 years ago

wake-up call

A/N : i’m back :D i really missed writing so i thought i’d start posting on my favorite shitpost site

summary : who’d wake you up in the morning and how they’d do it

inches slowly out of bed so they don’t wake you up. if you show any sign of being disturbed, they will STOP BREATHING and become a living statue

yamaguchi

shakes you like a magic 8 ball

atsumu, tendou

yanks the covers away from you, if they’re awake so are you !!!

suna, mattsun, osamu, sugawara (he is secretly a menace), kuroo

tries their absolute hardest not to wake you but does it anyway. trips over a cord or smth

bokuto, nishinoya, hinata, ushijima

you wake them up

kenma, asahi, tanaka, sakusa, oikawa

gently taps your shoulder and waits for you to wake up

daichi, aran

opens the blinds, turns on all the lights, probably has an alarm set

iwaizumi, akaashi, kita

hope you enjoyed ! likes and reblogs are always appreciated <3

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kenma-sweets

1 year ago

having online friends is just “i made food does anyone want some” “i’m gonna fight ur dad” “remember that time you made a typo a year ago that we Still remind you of daily” “i know your deepest trauma but not your last name” “here are the random plants i associate you with” “good morning at 9pm” “goodnight at 7am” “my dog says hi” “LMAO NERD. keep talking about obscure anime tho i’m interested” “hey i know you’re asleep right now but this meme made me think of you” “if we were irls we’d Totally be dating by now” “one day when we live together....” “dude i bet i can jump higher than you let’s have a contest Right Now” “i don’t know what this weird school rivalry you have is but i support you!!!!!!” “getting in the car Right Now to give you a hug” “if i eat lunch while you eat dinner it’s basically like we’re eating together” “i am holding your hand as we speak” “i am kissing you on the forehead right now” “here let me braid your hair for you” “i love you” “i love you” “i love you”

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kenma-sweets

4 years ago

- ˏˋ newborn romance ˊˎ -

masterlist

synopsis —> growing up, l/n y/n always loved to clean, finding comfort in the process and a sense of accomplishment with the results. because of this, she decides to pursue a job as a cleaner. leading her to a man “wary” of germs, sakusa kiyoomi.

pairing: sakusa kiyoomi x fem!reader warnings: slight nsfw jokes, foul language status: completed

disclaimer —> i do not own any of the haikyuu characters or art used in this social media au.

taglist: closed

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y/n’s squad | sakusa’s squad

☆ chapter one

☆ chapter two

☆ chapter three

☆ chapter four

☆ chapter five

☆ chapter six

☆ chapter seven

☆ chapter eight

☆ chapter nine

☆ chapter ten

☆ chapter eleven

☆ chapter twelve

☆ chapter thirteen

☆ chapter fourteen

☆ chapter fifteen

☆ chapter sixteen

☆ chapter seventeen

☆ chapter eighteen

☆ chapter nineteen

☆ chapter twenty

☆ chapter twenty one

☆ chapter twenty two

☆ chapter twenty three

☆ chapter twenty four

☆ chapter twenty five

☆ chapter twenty six

☆ chapter twenty seven

☆ chapter twenty eight

☆ chapter twenty nine

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a/n: the title sucks and that’s because i can’t make up titles for shit, im so sorry :<

art credits: @soojaeng_ on twitter, @kwonrugger on twitter, @aikk00 on tumblr

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kenma-sweets

4 years ago

↬ pairing. sakusa kiyoomi/gn! reader

↬ summary. the rawest part of you fits me like a missing puzzle piece, or i think sakusa always deserves some tlc

↬ genres. fluff

↬ wc.

↬ a/n. this piece features both characters showering together, so there is implied nudity. however, it is still entirely sfw, but i will use a read more ! also deals with anxiety

“let me hold you,” he pleads, watching you sort out the laundry in the closet.

blinking, you agree- but after your shower. you inform him as such.

“we can shower together,” sakusa suggests, “i just want to hold you.”

in his insistence you hear the words he can’t express, the exhaustion and fear and the desperation to hold you, his favourite person, while doing one of his favourite activities, showering.

Keep reading

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kenma-sweets

3 years ago

screaming crying i found some old sakusa hcs i wrote like.... a year ago ???? oh my god they’re so fucking funny i am was freaking out over this man

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as i should tbh i might get back into writing i MISS tumblr maybe i'll post those hcs first of mr sakusa yes methinks

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