“I Don’t Know How To Talk About The Rabbit Hole Without Accidentally Inviting You To Follow Me Down

“I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.”

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Trauma Bonding is when you’re so heavily attached to a toxic person, that you are willing to maintain a relationship, even at the expense of yourself for the few and far between highs.

Your brain gets highly addicted to the habitual ups and downs of oxytocin, dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, that even when the relationship ends, you will seek and crave the person or become obsessive or seek similar people, in order to get your fix. It’s the rewiring of the neurological pathways of love, turning against itself.

The loss of the love, makes you crave them more. You’re dependent in the same way a heroin addict is 🤔🤓😈

“We all have souls of different ages.”

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I’m starting to listen to myself more; it’s pretty cool up there in my head.

-AJ

“People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did. But people will never forget how you made them feel.”

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I don’t like all these feelings. I wish i could kill them with drugs BUT I can’t do that without killing myself in the process.

Except from my journal 6-11-19

““I understand that nobody understands me, but I can’t be someone I’m not.””

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lake sunrise

😂