Lil Gender (ig?) Dysphoria Vent ^__^
lil gender (ig?) dysphoria vent ^__^
worst part about being unlabeled (mainly because labels are uncomfortable to you) for me is that my feelings towards gender identity are fluid—so much so that i used to be genderfluid and pronounfluid but all the labels were confusing.
I felt like I was constantly boxing my identity instead of living it to the fullest. (if that makes sense?)
The thing is—when you say you’re “unlabeled” (in which i sometimes feel dysphoric for labeling the term and other times not)
people usually opt for all gender neutral terminology, and I have nothing against gender neutral terms, like I said my feelings are fluid which in itself is so annoying.
because like?? one moment i’m like “this is it, I’m actually just [label] i’ve finally figured myself out” and then my feelings change.
i genuinely have NO CLUE why i’m like this, and it’s frustrating, i do stay with genderfluid crowds when i’m having these issues but even then I don’t want to label myself—especially when my feelings change and it makes me feel dysphoric.
but back to what i was saying, i have nothing against gender neutral terms, and also like i said I sometimes prefer them. but sometimes when it’s ONLY and STRICTLY gender neutral terms i feel dysphoric because sometimes i don’t feel gender neutral.
but i feel uncomfortable hounding anyone about my gender identity (and it’s shifts (and because i mainly have a white cishet christian conservative community and i’d rather not be publicly outed and shamed)) so i just sit through the dysphoria.
i just hate not knowing, i hate it fluctuating and i hate not having a solid feeling about my gender. i look at other lgbtq people in the community who seem like they have it all figured out—hell i look at other genderfluid people who also look like they have it all figured out too—but i don’t.
there’s not much i can do, and i know people will say (as they always have) that it’s a phase—which is like
1) life is all a bunch of phases
2) what do i do when my phases constantly change and have been changing most of my life?
i don’t expect to be accommodated 24/7 about this—trust me it’d be nice but i understand there are people in need who’s priorities are higher in which i want them to be accommodated first before anyone else.
i just dream of the day i have a small close knit group of other people who not only relate but are able to help validate me through my identity.
this might also be a relevant time to wonder if i may have autism or adhd. not saying that i have either
(although i’ve been getting close to self diagnosed and i’ve been wanting a screening for awhile)
or that having either is in any way inherent connected to my feelings in general—but i have a hunch,, suspicion,, dare i say hope? to maybe explain it all to me?
sorry if i don’t make sense this is just me rambling :>
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been going through alot today, people are cruel monsters. queer people i love you. please stop this division in our community, either stand with your community or kneel under your oppressors.
You will always mean something to me, deleted Kyman heart doodle, from the stick of truth.
Does this mean something more….? Probably not, will I think it does mean something more? Most definitely. Was this just going to be a tease at the Kyman fans?? Most definitely yes.
i miss my old school sometimes, like yeah the people were toxic and i wasn’t happy but like, i had so many queer, atheist, feminist, ect friends that gave me a community. esp since most people there were POC. now im stuck at a mainly white school with cishet misogynistic Christians. i feel so isolated 💔
"Sky is boring"
"They didn't give me a reason to care for her"
"She is such a self insert"
YALL ARE BORING!!!!! NONE OF YOU WOULD'VE SURVIVED FANDOM EARLY 2010S!!! NONE OF YOU THINK CRITICALLY OR CAN MAKE SHIT UP! "We know nothing about her, so fuck her." OKAY?! MAKE IT UP. READ BETWEEN THE LINES A BIT INSTEAD.
I'm sorry, but for real, you people are delusional. This is easily the most interesting dynamic right now in Arcane. Viktor NEEDS her. WHY? STOP ARROACHING THE QUESTION WITH ANNOYANCE AND INSTEAD THINK. What is SHE?! Is she the Arcane? Is she the guilt? Is she him? Is she a manifestation of the person he wishes she was? Is she herself just projected into the Arcane?
Today I had 3 conversations about Sky and what she is. All of them were fucking crazy good points of views.
OPEN YOUR MINDS A BIT. Stop expecting to be spoon fed. Some things CAN be up to interpretation and they don't have to be explicitly explained. To me, it's beyond romance. It's worship. He needs her because he needs something to believe in and she believed in him unconditionally. But that's what I think! CREATE STORIES, THINK.
Don't be fucking empty, passive watcher.
Edit (06/12/24): you guys act like Sky and Jayce can't share a cookie. Brother...they BEEN sharing it. Omg, leave Skyce alone, they're platonical besties 🙂↔️
mood everyday
i am about to create an au SO self indulgent. the target audience is 1 person and that person is me
quick 2am snack
hi look it's two stupid skeletons and their once stolen car collab with @suschaxx
firm believer that cartman had caseoh’s hs build when he was in hs - college
also fat stan canon
how do you headcanon the boys and girls body types in their 20s-30s ?
Ooh, interesting question. Let's dig in!
Stan Marsh
💙 That boy is thiiiiick. 💙 A lot more fit in his 20s from high school football and as soon as he's done, he starts getting a tummy. It only gets bigger as he gets older. 💙 I'm gonna be so real, I absolutely love fat Stan. I wanna sit on his lap. I wanna rest my head on his tummy. I want him to squish me in a bear hug and never let go.
Kyle Broflovski
💚 This guy was an ATHLETE. Takes pretty good care of himself. 💚 Still does basketball well into his twenties. Does pick up games with teachers at the school he works at well into his thirties. 💚 Tall, lithe; Kyle is all all corded muscle and sinew.
Kenny McCormick
🧡 Coming in tohis 20s, Kenny is in great shape! Mostly because he kept up with the Mysterion persona and was parkouring around every night. 🧡 Finally drops it and gains some weight. He's softer but just as sweet. Starts growing out his beard, too. 🧡 Honestly, really comes into himself in his 30s, and his body is a big part of that.
Eric Cartman
💔 Cartman stays fat. He loses a lil weight in high school, and maintains coming into college. 💔 He gains it back (the freshman 15 hit him hard, fell back into bad habits) in college pretty quickly. 💔 Has mostly accepted that it's how his body has been an how it's gonna be, but it's still a sore spot for him.
debating drawing this
This genuinely looks like a scene where Kyle’s about to confess to his mother he’s dating a boy and not just any boy,— ERIC CARTMAN— who looks to be well groomed (getting all fancy in order to sway Ms. Brovfloski to give her son over to him perhaps?)
I wouldn’t be surpised if there was a whoooole ep somewhat related to a plot or scheme cartman has Kyle in on.
my special talent is every time i join a fandom i always like the characters nobody fucks with like AT ALL.
i don’t mean to do it, trust me i hate not seeing any fanworks of my favs.
but i join a fandom and the characters i always take a liking to are always the characters the fandom dgaf about.
same thing goes with ships
i’ll be like three episodes in or just getting into the main storyline and i’ll think “omg these characters are so cute tg” or “i like their dynamic what would their ship look like”
and then i go to the fandom online and find out that the fandom either
a) doesn’t care for the ship at all
or b) ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY HATES IT WANTS ALL OF ITS FANS TO ROT AND BURN IN HELL!! IN HELL!!!!
sometimes c) some people like it but the popular version of their dynamic and i don’t like/agree with.
i DONT KNOW how this happens or why it’s so common for it to happen to me.
RELEASE ME!!!!
had a bad day and opened up tumblr to this
💚❤️
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