"Trees, rivers, plants, and anything that reminds me of her is now a vague image languishing in obscurity; an obscurity plunked from her departure. Since then shadows have also been cut off from the reality, wandering around like a ghost. These images were once objects of my passion of seeing. But now they look like memories rooted in the depth of my soul, or scars of an old wound that don’t heal. It feels like a “presence” that torments me, stresses me out, and screams inside my inner silent world."
Viewer and the object of view [2021] - Nazli Abbaspour
that Brian Eno quote about how whatever you find most repulsive about a medium (film grain, record scratches/fuzz, CDs skipping) will be the first thing you try and emulate once that medium is obsolete because it's "the sign of a moment too powerful for the medium assigned to contain it".... man.......
very freeing to tell your friend you have nothing going on. what is up with me? isolation. in my room. 24x7.
Sue Ford, Lynne and Carol, 1962
Ingmar Bergman, Liv Ullman in Persona, 1966 (Twilight Scene)
i always get this feeling when middle aged women stand next to me that they will slap the fuck out of me. it's not really terror neither sexual. i just imagine it happening everytime.
yall this country is a joke. they are bursting fire crackers, beating drums, fucking party music everywhere. you wanna know why? cause indian military is successfully intercepting pakistan's missiles. which i am very happy they are. cause this is them actually doing their job. but how unserious are people. imagine being in the cities where the missiles are directed. they are fearing for their lives. people have been killed in other areas.
nothing about this is fun. but this demented media sensationalizing a war and turning it into a marvel movie for their trp. this is indian tv brainrot. plus how jobless are they that they can party whenever they want literally close to midnight? limitless lawlessness.
a movie can be like a friend and an antidepressant