All of this.
We knew we had ADHDbrain *long* before diagnosis.
We knew we had BPD *long* before even all the symptoms were showing.
We knew we even were Multiple v. early on (but were gaslit by psychiatry).
You know you better than anyone else.
Gatekeeping culture is like: “don’t get your information online it’s too easy😡!!!” Then offer “find research papers online it’s really easy🙄”
Then block you.
Self diagnosing isn’t TikTok videos and random blogs. It’s literally months to years of research. There’s a lot of reasons why someone can’t get professionally diagnosed.
Misdiagnoses happen a lot
People aren’t taken seriously
It’s expensive asf
Its inaccessible
People want to adopt
People want the right to their bodily autonomy
I’m disappointed when I go online and see my bullies are now nurses. That’s kinda the same thing when I go on here and see professionally diagnosed people who shit on undiagnosed for posting coping mechanisms.
Stop calling people “the problem” for coping. The real issue is people who post any “if you have these… you might have” THATS DANGEROUS. what isn’t dangerous is:
Finding coping mechanisms
Find organization tools to function
Therapy
Talking about experiences
Researching extensively on traits
Documenting
Unmasking
Printing off quizzes or research articles from well established resources (Embracing Autism, ASAN, AIM, awn network, A4A)
Stimming (if it isn’t harming)
Advocating for diagnosis is one thing. Being a bully online is another. It’s a disability not a quirk, a lot of self diagnosed people know it’s a disability. We can identify the actual problems in the self diagnosing community but a lot of us aren’t those.
We’re valid
if you are distressed about not receiving a response from someone you'd like to be actively talking to, you have to take a moment. step back from the conversation, put yourself in their shoes. perhaps they're busy with something right now. you have to consider the possibility that maybe they hanging upside down by their ankle. everybody has their own schedule, and sometimes people spend time away from their phone or computer because they are currently suspended from a tree branch by a rope tied around their ankle that they unnoticingly stepped in because it was concealed by a pile of leafs. it's not that they don't want to respond; imagine that they can see their phone screen on the ground below but it's a good few inches out of reach and even if they bounce and flail on the branch their fingertips just can't touch it. sometimes life gets in the way
Hi love 🥰, hope you’re ready to start the new week off strong. I wanted to share something and maybe you could give your insight?
Here’s my weird opinion on upcoming Pluto in Aquarius
Since 2008 we’ve seen technology rise to the top and we’ve seen how corporations take advantage of that power (Pluto in Cap)
When Pluto changes sign Pluto is here to fix and purge. To transform. Pluto does not Give a Fuck if you change for the better or worse. Just as long as you change.. Technology has run amuck. AI putting small artists out of business. Amazon being the sole source of shipping. Facial recognition identifying protesters and law enforcement locking them up. The excessive screen time, we’ve kinda become slaves to our screens. We literally live and breathe our tech gadgets. Pluto is going to fix that. Especially with it being in Aquarius… I mean yes I know Aquarius rules technology. But Aquarius also rules innovation, originality, authenticity. I think when Pluto goes into certain signs. The traits of those signs are what gets transformed/fixed/highlighted. So instead of seeing a rise in tech I think we’re going to see a fall in tech. Especially with Saturn being in Pisces. We’re seeing our technology is actually making us as a collective more anxious, obsessive. I say this because honestly the people have been hinting at it for some time. Everyone knows the phase “Go touch some grass” it’s literally an insult if ever said to you (sorry) but that’s a Go To insult for someone who has CLEARLY been on their phone too fucking long.
I think we’re going to see a rise in authentic tech. Tech that actually makes us happy. Homes built with high grade ventilation systems. Tech that’s actually useful like plastic clean up bots or completely accessible water filtration systems open 24/7 free for the public. Someone making an AI that detects racial bias. Tech that benefits the collective instead of the individual. But maybe I’m just disgustingly optimistic and don’t understand or know enough about astrology so this just sounds unfeasible. What do you think?
Thanks for reading ☺️
Thank you for writing to me! I enjoyed reading it :)
I honestly think that there will be a stronger focus on humanity as a whole rather than more and more individuality due to transits that you mention.
Though, I still not sure about authentic tech. I think here similarily to sustainability and green approach, this could be only discuss a lot, but not as much put into action. So I think it could still flop a little due to tech companies wanting profits and quick, creative, simple solutions.
@astroismypassion
Normalize not wanting a professional diagnosis, especially for stigmatized disorders.
before we get carried away with this new unironic love for tumblr maybe we should question why staff never seems to enforce their 'community guidelines' when it comes to terfs/transphobes
Twitter is a congregation of the world’s most brilliant minds
someone asked me about 12th house placements recently and it stuck around...'will it always feel like this? like you're walking in space without a spacesuit?'
I've let this question stay in my mind for some time and I feel like an answer is being shaped in my mind.
12th housers' main issue is knowing on some level what is going on. but when i say on some level, i mean on a very deep and hidden level. the neptunian connection to the human subconscious that we all talk about is real.
so people with 12th house placements often feel naked in front of these currents. like, there is an amount of healthy delusion people have to sustain in order to not feel constantly threatened by reality. you just need to remain centered in your own self and body, in your own abilities, because this is what protects you from disintegration. and when you're so sensitive towards other people's thoughts and motivation and intentions, to the dynamics in the world, you are forced to be the witness to a lot of cruelty. it takes you out of your own skin and you may find yourself drifting, feeling lost in life.
I've actually noticed feelings of paranoia are quite a common occurrence with 12th house people. you have to deal with this sensitivity in some way. when you listen to it too much, you get paranoid because you feel like you have no agency, nothing firm to protect you. you're out there for everyone. might sound a bit too dramatic to someone but 12th housers frequently feel like they can't shut themselves off from people's "hidden" side. and that feeling of dread somehow mixes with your intuition and makes you create haunting dark scenarios in your head. this brings you to the common dilemma: is it paranoia or intuition??
another way for 12th house people to deal with their intuition is by denying it. this is even worse because you become shut out from your most valuable source of insight and you can't make choices that are fully aligned with you. this often happens to me - i shrug off a feeling i get about something and try to use my mind instead cuz I'm like "screw this mumbo jumbo, I'm simply delusional". and then it turns out trusting this feeling would've saved me a lot of trouble.
I'm not saying you shouldn't think things through as well. it's just that suppressing your intuition cuz you're afraid of this insight has never led anywhere good and you're signing up for a half life like this.
the keys to using the potential of 12th house placements instead of denying it or being consumed by it are two:
first, you need to stop shrugging off your insights. more often than not, you're going to be in situations where you sense that people say things they don't mean or that they feel something they won't admit or sometimes aren't even aware of. and you're going to question yourself:
how can i possibly know what this person feels better than they do? how is my authority on them bigger than their own?
i think these are proper concerns and it's good to not jump to conclusions or force others into conversations they're not ready to be a part of.
but trusting your senses over what others want you to believe is the right course of action. i feel somehow audacious even writing this down. because this approach takes a lot of adjusting in order to not turn into a self serving monster or into someone who just can't listen to anyone else's point of view.
but still, faith in yourself is the way to go. it's the ultimate piscean gift. when you're armed with patience and trust in the process and your place in it, it gets easier to trust your intuition. you stop being triggered by it. you stop trying to draw a "confession" out of people. you stop feeling sad and rejected without being able to explain why. you stop trying to convince yourself in things that seem reasonable but don't quite make sense to you. you stop living by the rules people expect you to follow but never made you feel whole.
second, embodiment is the next step. your body is what stands between you and getting lost in the collective, in everyone else. you need to be able to withdraw back into your own autonomy.
work out. try to sharpen your senses and to stay in touch with them. make a ritual out of listening to the needs of your body just like you listen to everyone else.
don't stay working just a tad bit more or listening to a friend's problems when your body wants food or to pee rn. don't put your body second. make it a priority. by showing it you hear it and value it you're going to be more aware of it and it's going to serve you better as a protection between you and the world. you need to be able to trust your feet and feel grounded to cross the waters of the collection subconscious. the 12th house rules feet for a reason.
I know fake claimers aren't good for anyone but here's to the large systems that people claim are faking.
Here's to those with over 100 alters, and those with thousands.
Those with a detailed headspace and those without knowledge of theirs.
Here's to those systems with extreme trauma, and those who can't remember theirs.
Those whose alters don't believe they have trauma.
Those with subpar inner communication, and those with excellent communication.
Those that are polyfragmented, those that have just split a lot.
Shout out to those that don't know the full extent of their system.
Those with inner system relationships.
I know people like to say that large systems are fake, but just remember that they are wrong. Just because they can't imagine the extent of our experiences doesn't mean that we aren't real.
You are real. Your experiences are real.
Don't let people who don't understand your life dictate it.
Izuru (he/him)
Morgue System
TERFS, don't interact. Transfeminine system.
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