Trying To Sleep But I Just Imagined What It’ll Be Like To Hug My Dr S/o For The First Time And Started

and if I revise my hogwarts band dr so I’m in a throuple? what about it? two pretty best friends and I want them both okay? I want to be a rockstar with two boyfriends, is that such a bad thing? I deserve good things.

I am the most jealous bitch you will ever meet this has disaster written all over it but I don’t care

there is enough alcohol in my system that one edit of my man has brought me to tears because I #need that I’m losing my goddamn mind please please please please please please please please I want him so bad please I’m shifting tonight I have to it is a necessity I cannot breathe without him

and if I say I just shifted?

I got up out of my bed just to go piss girl and I swear to god— I was in there just thinking “damn I get to shift tonight— wait, no. I get to shift whenever the hell I want. I could shift right now.” and went about my business like normal.

WHEN I TELL YOU I returned to my room and my drink, which I had sitting on top of a book ON MY BED is now sitting on my end table. I DID NOT PUT IT THERE. It’s been sitting on that book ever since I went and got it— WHY IS IT NOW SUDDENLY ON THE TABLE ????

I shifted idc.

Now it’s time to skedaddle to a dr methinks.

crying over a shitty day here but trying to remind myself I am already in my dr is actually diabolical

i read somewhere today along the lines of “instead of thinking of the words affirming and persisting, think of it as deciding and continuing to decide” and that just made so much more sense to me

Desire is a memory.

You're never desperate for anything, desperation is fulfillment in disguise. You know how good it'd feel to have it because you do. You're mistaking having for wanting. You have it in the 4D.

You want your desired life or reality because you've been there. You want to be beautiful because deep down thats what you know you are.

Desire is a memory. You want it because you have it. Trust the 4D.

just found out my dr s/o is and/or was an hour away from where I live… what do you mean the love of my life who doesn’t know I exist in this reality is an hOUR AWAY what is he dOING HERE I actually can’t take it I’m shifting right the fuck now I NEED HIM

(edit: I was in shambles writing this okay I mean the actor who plays him is supposedly an hour away and my body did not know how to process that)

hi shifters. let me explain to you why you don’t need to read through your script every time you feel like you’ve forgotten certain things ˘³˘

imagine you want to watch a movie you haven’t seen in a while. do you remember every single detail of it? most likely no. do you look up the entire plot, scene by scene and the smallest details before watching it? again, no. you just press play and enjoy your movie. do you see where i’m going with this?

another example: imagine you’re going on a vacation to a place you’ve never been to before. you might check out a few pictures, but you’re not stressing about every detail because you already know that’s not something you need to worry about.

your script works the same way.

just because you, what it feels like, have ‘forgotten’ your script does not mean your reality will be out of place. you once got your ideas about your reality and that’s enough. they’re stored in your mind. you literally already know what you want, whether you remember them consciously or not. yay!

so, next time you feel like you need to read your script, ask yourself if you genuinely want to read it, or if you’re just doing it as a chore. sometimes i catch myself getting bored reading my script and that’s honestly just because i’m already so extremely familiar with it. it’s basically as if i were to read things about this reality over and over again. that would be boring right!?

i should also mention that whenever i come across something i thought i had ‘forgotten’, i instantly recognize it when i read it again. i’m not reacting to it as if it’s a brand new thing, it was simply just stored in my subconscious. i knew about it this whole time, and so do you with your script!

anyway, hopefully this knocked some sense into you ✨✨✨

i shifted

it’s so weird to be writing a blog about the fact that i’ve shifted, i’m so happy and honestly still in shock. it’s so real and so strange to see myself through a new body, a new room, a new lifestyle, and to have all the memories as if it’s always been my reality (I know this reality has always existed and it’s just a shift in consciousness, but you see what I mean?)

i shifted during the night of april 5 to 6, 2025. i was just so tired of this reality—just the thought of spending another day here was making me "angry". personally, i don’t use any method, no subliminals (except sometimes), i don’t visualize super well, i can’t focus 100% on anything. all i have is the deep desire to shift and fully dive into that reality.

i looked at my pinterest boards, quickly went over my script, watched a few videos related to my dr, then closed my eyes. i put on songs that brought me closer to my dr, i thought about what i was going to do once i got there, what I’ve already done, i imagined the next day—what my day would be like (i didn’t script where or when i’d arrive in my dr), there are some dishes i can’t wait to try — i was already imagining myself ordering them and eating so much of them.

i was just there, daydreaming about this reality

i repeating affirmations to myself a few time: i am aware of my desired reality and i am in my desired reality.

then suddenly, i felt like i wasn’t in my room anymore, and when i opened my eyes, i discovered my new room. I didn’t feel anything, see white flashes, hear voices, or anything like what I’ve read here. I was just there.

i touched my hair, looked all around me—guys, it’s so real. it’s not a lucid dream, i even did the five fingers test + pinches.

how real is it? you see the way you’re lying on your bed and you feel the sheets all along your body, sitting on your chair, you feel the texture of the seat, and you’re looking at the room you’re in — you see that 3d, that vividness, the details — it’s like that. there’s absolutely nothing dreamlike about it, and it’s incredible how real it is.

i’m not planning to stay long here (I plan to shift now tbh.), and most importantly, i’m a permashifter now. but please, guys, don’t give up! you deserve to live your dream life, i shifted so you can.

My best friend bought me a candle which I said smells like my new hogwarts academia dr

my best friend is better than yours