Jales - Jales

so, i came back to tumblr, after all! weird to be here, i've disappeared almost everywhere, the queen of ghosting. it was for a good reason. i've been dealing with a long period of crisis, gave up 2 semesters at uni, been stuck in my bed 23h/day (not a hyperbole). finally, i feel like coming back here.

in this whole period, i haven't done too much. couldn't read, watched not so many movies/tv shows, but i did listen to a bunch of music. that kept me a bit less depressed.

i feel like i have something inside of me that is trying too hard to get out, but i don't know how to do it; it's a feeling of creation. only a few people actually feel this, like they need to create something, to put it out, but haven't found a way yet. it's stuck, and it's a whole interwork.

AND altho i know that not many people follow me, neither know who i am or whatever, but to anybody reading this and going through something bad, i hope you get better. focus on your health. it'll pass, doesn't matter when, just be strong and keep fighting. this isn't a coaching shit or self-help bad book, but for experience of someone who's dealing with way too much. everyday is a new day to begin again, until you get it.

have a really muthafuckin great day, guys. much love to you. (that's for the 2 people maybe reading this lmfao thank you for being here) 🌧🤍

Albert Camus

finished 'infocracia' and byung-chul han is really amazing. since i was at my first graduation, he's been a great deal in my way of seeing things. i'm really glad my adviser told me start reading han.

have you all a great week. 🌧🤍

these are some books that i've bought recently. expecting lispector and camus of me should be common sense by now. and of course, literary theory. 🤍

i've stopped writing again, which is not a good thing for my mind tbh. my readings are slow and i'm a bit unfocused. hope i get better soon because vacations are almost there and i need to read as much as i can. but i feel like olivia (my dead rose).

i restarted lolita, i had abandoned it and postponed to get back to it, but now i feel like i can do it. maybe. i'll try.

if you who's reading this are ok and having the time of your life.

the sky was so beautiful today and i got my two partners to watch it with me!

be good, fellas! 🌧🤍

i love how none of you are normal

social media has really warped our perception of creativity and hobbies. Stop doing things to post them. Just write. Just journal. Just sketch. Just read. Just annotate. Just sing. Just crochet. Just do the thing you’re going to do with the assumption no one will ever see or know you did it. Stop performing. Just enjoy it.

continuing this one today! i'm still on 10% but really enjoying it. it's funny and brings some good questions to think about.

other than that, i apply for next semester's classes. hope i'll be accepted at all of them.

i'm trying to think more about the projects i'd like to work on.

i hope it rains today. 🌧

clarice has been a great company these days. she speaks about god thru lóri's point of view, her believes, and it sounds a lot camus' absurdism! she says 'if i wanna pray, it would be to the cosmic or to Nothing'.

rainy days and depression, love to see it. 🌧🤍