miyazaki hayao is my role model
seeing people from your childhood that knew you before you knew yourself is nostalgic but it kills you when you realize they dont know you now
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do you ever sit there in your bed with your head in your hands and it's like you can just imagine 9 swords behind you
finding old accounts is like finding proof u really did exist two years ago which is like yeah i know i did but that me from two years ago was me and i was her and that makes it so disgustingly weird yet endearing yet everything wrong with the world because i hate to be perceived and who else to judge u harder than ur future self who is wiser (slightly) and knows more (not really)? so i feel a little sick but also, she was such a silly girl. just a silly lost sad angry girl
nadia waheed, "after rego," 2022, oil on canvas
Gregorio Fernández - Cristo yacente (1636).
thinking about that quote by anne carson, "I am someone who did not die when I should have died." and yeah. im wandering the earth with an empty heart and a filled mind like a sick little ghost. it hurts even more when i dont fit into the atmosphere around me and everything feels drowsy and unsettled. im not meant to be here i was meant to disperse and dissolve and disappear years ago and u can tell because i dont fit into this world. im not part of this world like everyone else. im too empty to care and live and love
How i feel about the recent season quest