Something About These Colours. So Calm And Peaceful. And His Expression. I Think I Could Stare At This

Fascinating differences in strategy in the Quiet Games. Gem just whacked Impulse until he did what she wanted. Skizz and Ren came up with a complex system of signals. Grian and Jimmy somehow unlocked??? telepathy??? and killed it????

the thunderclan gossips

loving the quiet games so far

When getting transferred out of the ER and to the mental hospital, I got to ride in an ambulamps with some cool paramedics. Halfway through the ride I said that it was pretty cool to be in an ambulance when it’s not some hectic emergency and he was so excited to show me around and where everything was and their new equipment. Did you know that the ambulances in my city just got new pulse oximeters that can read your pulse through your forehead rather than your finger? It’s especially important for folks who make have weak circulation, so the regular finger pulse oximeter can’t read your pulse, but there’s almost always good circulation to the head and brain so this new device can be used instead!

I’m not entirely sure how new it is overall, but apparently it’s new for the paramedics here :)

I keep getting this urge to text people dumb things. Not dumb things, but apologies and such that I won't have actually thought through. I feel very bad for putting my roommates through so much shit, especially at the end of the semester. I have no idea what they think of me right now. 2/3 of them haven't bothered to send me so much as a message or even a post on insta. I'm very scared that they are upset with me.

My sister said that she thought one of them, the one who came to ask what was happening and to say we'd need to talk at some point, was just extremely worried about me when we saw them, but all I could see was disappointment and anger. Like they are disappointed in how I've turned out as a person and as a friend.

I think I'm a little fucked in the head.

Ok I thought the DBT book was dating itself with how it was talking about the internet, but now it’s introduced a gay guy as its tiny example saying he had a fight with his boyfriend.

So that’s cool!

My roommate doesn’t want to keep our friendship up right now. They said that we each need our own space to work things out.

I am currently at the worst spot I have ever been mentally, to the point where I’ve been hospitalized, and he is just up and leaving.

I’ve texted them fun things, things I’m thinking, just to have some reason to talk to him but he doesn’t respond to more than half of the things I send. And when I told him that I was hurting and feeling ignored because of him not responding, they told me to think about myself right now and to work on getting better myself before pushing me off to go tell my family and get support from them instead.

I don’t want to talk to my family or tell them that I’m here. That seems like the worst thing I could possibly do right now.

Like usually I just get fucking hysterical and stupid and emotional and say dumb shit. I told them I wouldn’t tell my family cause I’m just a fucking failure. He gave me a better option to tell them I have been battling clinical depression to the point that I’ve been hospitalized. I just said no.

He turned on me and told me that he’d need my mom’s and sister’s phone number since he’s my emergency contact. And because I’m an idiot I told him to fuck off.

40 minutes later he sent me a long message saying that I do not get to speak to them like that and that he will be finding a way to contact my sister no matter what. He won’t be contacting my mom. They left of saying that we need some space from each other for both of our sakes.

I hate myself.

GETTING YOU MOTHERFUCKER

@theshortbosmer maybe don’t panic if you see this lmao

So I’m in a mental health hospital. And I think I’m annoying my friend with the random thoughts I read so I’m going to post dumb things into the ether known as the internet now, thanks tumblr.

what is he thinking about