Im-made-of-crushed-little-stars - I'm Made Of Crushed Little Stars

switching between needing physical touch and wanting to rip my skin off at the thought of another human being touching me

I never realized how calming sh really is until I'm almost ripping my hair out and hitting my head trying to not cut and distract myself, now I've relapsed and I feel so calm w the blood running down my arm

I love multi swiping sm it feels like im genuinely destroying myself!

Like the grotesque jagged lines that come from my swiping are so nice

I just don't want to exist anymore. I'm just so very lonely. I am so fucking lonely.

i experienced very bad things

It’s cute how people think I’ll get better

I can't cry, I can't eat. Mentally, I'm numb; physically, I feel sick. I’m slowly deteriorating.

life is so exhausting. happiness never lasts.

me: im gonna go deep tonight

me: im gonna hit beans

me: im gonna multiswipe

me: i will go deeper than ever before

me: i will need stitches

me: i will rip my flesh from my bones

me: i will get so bad that people will stare

me: i will be valid

me: i will bleed out and die

me: i will stain this ground forever with my blood

me that night: does 2 cat scratches 🤡