Its Okay. Its Okay I Know You Hate Me. Im So Sorry. I Only Make Things Worse And Im So Sorry, I Really

its okay. Its okay i know you hate me. Im so sorry. I only make things worse and im so sorry, i really did try my best to make everything so nice and perfect for you, but i know im cursed to only make things worse and for you to hate me and to never be loved. Theres nothing that could fix me and i deserve the loneliness i feel. Im so sorry i got so attached. Im so fucking stupid for thinking things can be okay when im involve with it. Im such a dumbass. I deserve to be killed. It would be the greatest mercy anyone could grant me. If i were to kill myself and succeed it would be the one thing in my life i ever did right. You deserve better. Im not good enough for you and im so sorry i made you like me for the idiot that i am. I want nothing more than to bash my brains in with a hammer and wish that the sight could make you smile one last time, because at least then i would still make you happy instead of being angry and disappointed with me.

i can see it in the way you text and write to me. You havent told me things were okay. I didnt mean to make things worse.

Please. Just kill me