I Die Trying To Be Special For Someone

"It made me so happy to hear you laugh again" Yet you are the only reason I even did. You make me so happy yet you make me so angry, so sad and so hurt. I don't want to lose yourself, but I can't lose myself more in the process of trying to keep you close.

I try and try and try, yet you seem to move further away from me after every try.

Why won't you let me love you?

Please don't tell me that this is all just a sick and twisted game that you are playing, because the game you would be playing is called "My feelings" and I would lose every time.

MITSKI REFERENCE????

YES I LOVE MITSKI

they will never want me as much as i need them

I guess there’s comfort in the fact that no one will ever hate me as much as I hate myself

realizing you’re built to understand but not to be understood

typing out "I love you" and then immediately deleting it because you're scared it's too much

AHHHHHHHHHHH

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