Fiona has wings
Rolling Stone Magazine - January 22, 1998
Twin Peaks: Fire Walk With Me (dir. David Lynch)
Mysterious Skin (dir. Gregg Araki)
The Witch (dir. Robert Eggers)
The End of Evangelion (dir. Hideaki Anno)
The following post might be triggering, altough not intended. This list is a collection of my own tips, tips I found on tumblr and tips my doctors and therapists told me:
Always carry something with actual sugar in it with you. No, not a zero sugar candy but something with glucose. Take it if you feel dizzy/ feel like you are about to pass out.
Eat if you want to drive/ride! Doesn’t matter if you wanna go somewhere by car or by bicycle. You are putting yourself and others at risk! Don’t. Do. It. If you don’t wanna break your fast ask someone else to get you there or take the bus. If you really need to get there by your own you should eat s o m e t h i n g. Maybe your safe food or some fruit.
Don’t trust people that claim to be a coach! Someone who suffers from an eating disorder would never share tips to destroy yourself! Most of them are old man that try to get your nudes. Never ever send them pictures or give them personal information. If you need to vent or you need something just text me and I will listen.
You don’t need to restrict like crazy in order to lose weight. Check out your basal metabolic rate. This is the amount of calories your body burns by simply existing, like laying in bed all day and not moving an inch. You should not eat less than your basal metabolic rate.
If you are a minor, don’t tell anyone. Don’t put your age in your description. There are creepy people out here that are looking out for young girls that way.
I know going to the toilet can be a tough situation when you suffer from an eating disorder. Instead of using laxatives try out natural apple-juice or plum-juice, maybe even some dry fruits. You can also try out flaxseeds (drink water with it!) or maybe you want to take some magnesium.
You should take vitamins/ go to the doctor to check your vitamin levels.
That one is well known, but I want to mention that you shouldn’t brush your teeth after purging. Drink water or milk and wait 30-60 minutes before you brush your teeth. If you struggle with bulimia you should also invest into a good toothpaste and go to the dentist on a regular basis.
Don’t count calories when you binge. You will only make yourself feel bad by doing that. It is not helping you at all. Drink water or tea and lay down. If your tummy hurts you should put a pillow or something like that underneath your legs. This position will help your belly to relax.
Don’t go ‘all or nothing’. If you binged take some time to rest until you get better. Don’t go in even harder, because you think your day is already ruined. Don’t eat another bag of potato chips because “it doesn’t matter anymore and you already fucked up”. The brain is like a field. Everytime you binge you are leaving a trail. The more often you use this trail, the more wide beaten it will become. If you stop using the trail, grass will overgrow this path and it will be easier to make new, healthy habits. One day you will not even be able to tell where the path was. With that said, every single time you refuse to binge, you refuse to give in because “you already messed up” it will get easier to resist the next time you feel the cravings kick in.
Fiona Apple: Tidal (1996)
wtf is a "male manipulator"
that's just a regular man
ur twenties is just reciting "life is tough but i am tougher" 500 times a day. sometimes thru tears
Tread here.
i knew from a young age i was weird and off putting and unlovable
0. The Fool
I don’t know my future
After this weekend
And I don’t want to
I. The Magician
I’m going hunting
I’m the hunter
II. The High Priestess
Fuck logic
Fuck logic
Bravo to instinct
III. The Empress
The pleasure is all mine
Women like us
We strengthen most
Host-like
IV. The Emperor
Stand up
You’ve got to manage
I won’t sympathize
Anymore
V. The Hierophant
Coincidence
Makes sense
Only with you
VI. The Lovers
I never thought I would compromise
Let’s unite, tonight
VII. The Chariot
I have guided my bones
Through some voltage
VIII. Justice
Your sense of justice
Murmurs underneath
How am I going to make it right?
IX. The Hermit
I live by the ocean
And during the night
I dive into it
Down to the bottom
X. Wheel of Fortune
Unthinkable surprises
About to happen
XI. Lust
This is sex without touching
I’m going to explore
I’m only into this to
Enjoy
XII. The Hanged Man
Then the body memory kicks in
I trust the unknown
Unfathomable imagination
Surrender to future
XIII. Death
I just have to
Explode
Explode this body
Off me
XIV. Art
The perfect match, you and me
I adapt, contagious
You open up, say welcome
XV. The Devil
Sue me, sue me, sue me
All you want
XVI. The Tower
My shield is gone
My protection is taken
I am one wound
XVII. The Star
I am fine tuning my soul
To the universal wavelength
No one is a lover alone
XVIII. The Moon
Isn’t it odd?
Isn’t it peculiar?
These statistics of my mind
XIX. The Sun
You can’t say no to hope
Can’t say no to happiness
XX. The Aeon
Loss of faith just ignites survivors
They stare doubt
Straight into the eye
I forgive, the past is bondage
XI. The Universe
Twist your head around
It’s all around you
All is full of love
All around you