Sitting In Silence At 2am Feels Me With An Emptiness That I Always Forget About Until I Do It Again

this one took me twice as long as the others and im nowhere near as satisfied with it, but i just had to get it over with so i could move on to the next

part one | part two | part three | part four | part five

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I googled if deer shed their antlers after making this… They do. Let's just say this happens because of the season, lol.

This was supposed to be a funny/dumb idea.

I just like Luffy putting his hat on sad family members.

The divorce was this the divorce was that

Fools!

The divorce happened because crocodile witnessed dragon putting ketchup on his spaghetti and immediately had to flee lest his Italian ancestors rose from the grave to haunt him

Not a good morning for me, hope yall doing better😭

So I found something……… I don’t know who the artist is and I wish I did so I could kiss them

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i’ll never be a f1 driver, never be an actress from the 2000s, never be on the set of tvd, gossip girl and pll, never be a victoria secret angel in the 2000s, never be a teenager in the 2000s, never be a singer in the 2010, i’ll never be able to learn the whole history of the world, i’ll never be able to know all the secrets about space, i’ll never be a celebrity, i’ll never be an influencer in LA, i’ll never be a kpop idol, i’ll never be famous, i’ll never be able to know everything about the world, i’ll never know the impact i have in this world, i’ll never be able to experience teenage love, i’ll never be able to know what it’s like to sneak out with a friend group, i’ll never be able to experience life as i’ve fantasied.

i’ll never know anything outside of my corner of the earth, i’ll never be able to escape the never ending cycle that is life in this corner.

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I have to live with fomo from things i’ll never experience

fomo from seeing friends being friends

fomo from seeing people able to be themselves without shame

fomo from people not knowing what it’s like to overthink every movement

fomo from girls who don’t know what it’s like seeing ur skinnier friends being hit on while ur in the background

fomo from seeing just how much girls can do when they’re pretty and skinny

fomo from not being famous

fomo from having to experience life through others since i have none of my own

fear consumes me that i might end up being a mother who lives through her child. who ensures they experience everything I couldn’t while trying to experience it for her.

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i hate this chronic fomo i’m never able to shake off

what if what if what if what if

what if i chose my friends differently

what if i didn’t like this but instead that

what if i lost the weight earlier

what if i changed myself to fit in earlier

what if i just paid more attention

what if i just kept going

what if i end it all

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end the fomo, end the what ifs?

would they care?

would they cry?

would they say i was a kind soul?

would they say i could’ve achieved great things?

would they remember me in a year?

or would i end up like another trend that’s only relevant for a few months and everyone goes back to normal?

would people see my ghost in things that remind them of me?

would people wish they could hear one last joke? see one more smile?

would i relieve the burden of my family or add more?

would i finally be at peace?

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My rankings of one piece arcs + reasons (canon and not including egghead as it’s still ongoing):

1. Marineford (Luffy trying to save ace? ACE IN GENERAL. WHITEBEARD AND HIS CREW <3333 the asl story. Garps internal fight as to betray the marines to save his grandson or leave him as is because he chose to become a pirate knowing the consequences. Conquerors haki from luffy yes please)

2. Wano (Gear 5 + the whole plot of wano. Hiyori and Yamato<3 KidLawLu alliance. Joyboy mentions. Yamato and ace?!! Ace and O-Tama then luffy practically adopting otama and momo. Zoro and Toko i’m gna cry this is literally my second fav arc i cant. even more lore drops the story of oden and the roger pirates and the whitebeard pirates)

3. Water 7 + Enies Lobby (Franky and the story behind the sea train and Tom. The fight for robin and the story of Ohara)

4. Sabaody Archipelago (First appearances with the supernovas and the celestial dragons getting their shit rocked)

5. Alabasta (I just connected with the whole middle eastern vibe of it all and crocodile and GREASY ACE?! Bon clay the goat)

6. Skypeia (The lore drops in this omg and the bell? i love)

7. Return to Sabaody Archipelago (Funniest arc i loved the fake straw hats and luffy flexing his haki against the pacifistas and everyone’s new appearances <3)

8. Dressrosa + Zou (Voice of all things with Luffy and Momonosuke and RAIZO IS SAFE oh my lord and then dressrosa as a whole, laws backstory and corasan and doffy and the appearance of sabo and then the whole straw hat grand fleet apart from the fighting bc it dragged and trebol turned me off my life i think this arc could rank higher but idk rn)

9. Punk hazard (Smokers new appearance MEOWWWW and saving the kids and ceaser clown)

10. East Blue saga (Cute and we get to see the dynamics of the crew for the first time)

11. Little Garden + Drum (Little garden was meh for me but dorry and broggy and ussopp bond yes please and choppers story made me ugly cry)

12. Impel Down (Funny but dragged)

13. Amazon Lily (Kind of dragged but i love the scene where luffy covers Sandersonias (?) back bc he knew they didn’t want anyone to see)

14. Jaya (Kind of hate but the appearance of blackbeard scared me straight out)

15. Fishman Island (Poseidon and joyboys apology and again the voice of all things + luffys haki knocking out almost half of his opps i loved. but sanji genuinely pissed me off in this arc like i love him but omg?)

16. Reverie (didn’t know it was a mixed filler arc so it kind of dragged but i loved all of the people luffy saved interacting)

17. Whole cake island (DRAGGRD DRAGGRD THE FIGHT WITH LUFFY AND KATAKURI SURE WAS GOOD BUT IT DOESNT EXCUSE 15 EPISODES OF FIGHTING. Plus big mom pissed me off but sanji backstory made me cry again)

18. Thriller bark (Worst arc i’ve ever watched literally had it as background noise as i went on my phone the only good thing was that NOTHING happened and brook and laboon)

Luffy has a lot of nice toys to cuddle with.

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I got a prompt from @shinobisandals asking about baby Luffy's toys! So I made a comic about it! ♥ As you suggested, the meat plushie might be his favourite~

Drawing Garp was fun. That guy is way too involved in Dragon and Crocodile's business though.

“Forever young… I want to be forever young”

And it’s a Bakugo edit

STOPPPPPPPP

BEFORE I VOMIT AND CRY AND DIE

I HATE TIKTOK EDITORS

FIRST THE DAMN GIVEN X STSG EDITS

NOW FOREVER YOUNG X BAKUGO

I CANT HANDLE THIS