Okay Baaaaaai

So , I just stopped trying my best

It's as simple as it sounds

I always try my best but it seems like it's never enough for you.

when Rumi wrote, “You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens,” he was referring to breaking our heart by giving and receiving love from other people, to fully trust them, which means, if they break the trust, our heart would break. If this repeats, either with the same or different partner, we will eventually wise up by opening our heart to ourselves: by loving ourselves, by being accountable. To ourselves.

Only when we open our heart to ourselves first, we can have a healthy relationship with ourselves. Anyone who has a healthy relationship with themselves will have a healthy outlook on life and relationship with others. It’s similar to the saying, “you can’t pour from an empty cup”. Fill your cup first. Take care of yourself first. Love yourself first.

Once we love ourselves, we don’t feel the need to completely depend on others for our happiness. Sure our happiness gets affected somehow, but if they decide to betray us or leave us, instead of kicking and screaming, throwing tantrums (or shoes, or plates), we’ll peacefully let them go. I’m not saying that we won’t feel sad or angry. The uncomfortable feelings are inevitable, but when we love ourselves, we will not avoid the responsibility to take care of ourselves.

In the long run, we’ll naturally repel anyone who is not right for us

Don't be restless, First understand the situation, Then Comment.

"Think before you act"

(applies for everyone)

Study me as much as you like, you will never know me, for I differ a hundred ways from what you see me to be. Put yourself behind my eyes, and see me as I see myself, For I have chose to dwell in a place you cannot see. ✻.ღ.*.Rumi.*.ღ.✻ ƬĤΛИҠ Y♡Ʊ F♡Ŕ ßƐĪИƓ Rumi in his eloquent words suggests us that our ‘true self’ can never be seen. Our true nature is not meant for our physical eyes, it can only be felt / seen through the eyes of the inner heart. Each human being is such an unique mystery! Because of that uniqueness Rumi says that only to see and understand someone truly we have to put ourselves behind the eyes of ‘the one’. Entering into the highly esoteric human field of 'the one’ is what enables us to mysteriously become 'you’, to become 'the friend’, to become a true lover. Its a timeless secret.

There are a few moments where I spend time with myself.. when my thoughts take over there is some heavy feeling in my chest, I become an unknown person, I feel like staying in isolation and breaking things and scream out loud...since I'm unable to do all those.. I scream without a voice and hands began to crawl over my face , I act like a mentally ill person , I feel like scratching my face, hitting myself, I just feel like destroying everything, my hands and legs crumbles and most of the time I scratch my face , I cry quietly. What is happening with me

Every time I consume caffeine

Anxiety kicks in

Now,

Coffee makes me scared of the impending attack

“Just being there for someone can sometimes bring hope when all seems hopeless.”

— Dave G. Llewellyn

“Some people hate the thought of being alone. I’m not like that. I love my solitude. I’m kind to myself. My feelings don’t get hurt. My energy’s not leeched. And it’s very peaceful.”

— Unknown

“Some hearts understand each other even in silence.”

— Yasmine Mogahed

I’m both clingy and a bully when I’m comfortable with you.