Haha I Wanna Throw Up

made this gem on Sunday. had to wait all week to post it

All I need is for someone to gently cup my face and tell me I'm not as doomed as I feel.

As I sat in the dark, eating strawberries and nutella on toast, watching the lighting roll outside my window, I thought, "this is what poetry is made of" and I figured someone would know what I meant.

My favorite thing about art is that everyone takes something different out of it! Oh you like this song? This is what it means to you? Well this what it means to me. You see these two characters together? I see these two. We both love this thing so much and took such different things from it! Isn't that cool!? Isn't awesome the we see the same things and we love them differently! Then we take what we see and what we love from it and make new art! And the cycle continues! I love art and I love humanity!

It's fall. Time to reread Temptation on the Warfront by alizarincrims0n by ao3

Recently I've noticed some parallels recently between Stanly Pines and Dean Winchester. The two families in general really.

Two close brothers and one extra brother and a judgemental emotionally abusive father.

Two brothers, one who takes care of the other even though he has his own problems, the other brother who used to appreciate it but begins to take it for granted.

The favorite son who doesn't see that he's the favorite son and only cares about getting out. The brother who leaves for college, who leaves his brother without looking back.

The other brother, who works so hard for the approval of his father, works hard to protect his family, but can never seem to do anything right. The muscle. The heart.

(Sorry if this doesn't make sense. It's Dean-Stan, Sam-Ford, Adam-Shermie, and the fathers.)

I was trying to find some Merwaine fics on AO3 and wouldn’t ya know it almost all the ones that were recommended were also Merthur! God fucking damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Ik this can be easily remedied by excluding Merthur tags but I was lazy & ended up shocked by just how much was Gwaine being Merlin’s gateway to Arthur)

Also as much as I’m a Merthur endgamer just let me have my Merwaine!!! As a treat!!!! Us Merthites have such a tragic pairing as our favorite so why can’t I just have something sweet and simple??? Why not have my little blorbos get up to some nonsense & also smooch??? I am only a man!!

Yeah maybe the curtains are just blue but maybe the author likes that you see that as symbolism for sadness. Have you ever thought of that? Maybe writers like when you find meanings in their works that they didn't think of. Just because it wasn't intended doesn't mean it can't be true.

Over analyze everything. Find meaning where there was nothing before. We found God in the stars, we can find meaning in the curtains.

And there it is again. That longing.

me and the girls waiting for ao3 to return from war