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That Darn Chick

Wandering lost.

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9 years ago

The thing about depression...

... Is that it doesn't just go away.


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9 years ago

Broken

I've been broken for a few years now, until I met him. He's kept me from shattering. I'll never be mended, but he is my glue.


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9 years ago
Sunday Comic: On The Right Track

Sunday Comic: On the Right Track

I can motivate myself to keep going.

By Isabel.

9 years ago

Truth!

When Binge Watching OINTB Hasn’t Let You Sleep For Days. Source: Nerdgasm

When binge watching OINTB hasn’t let you sleep for days. Source: Nerdgasm

9 years ago

The surface

I seem ok, but I'm not ok at all.

9 years ago

I'm sorry...

Dear Mom and Dad,

I'm sorry I never appreciated you while I was growing up.  I'm sorry that I didn't see the sacrifices that you made for me, as Asian immigrants.  I hated you when you would embarrass me in front of my friends or in public when you'd speak to me in Chinese. 

I hated that I was Chinese at one point in my life, and I'm so sorry for that, I'm deeply shamed by that now.  I was embarrassed by my heritage, and all I wanted was a normal life as a white American.  I wanted that so much that I prayed for it.  I hated my eyes, my skin color, and my general look of not looking Anglo Saxon American. 

I'm sorry that for that one year, I acted white, like I didn't understand Chinese, or refused to eat anything Asian.  I'm sorry I made you worry.  I'm sorry for myself, because for that one year, I could've learned so much. 

Growing up, I deeply resented you two to my bone.  You two worked so hard, accomplished so much, but it fell on blind eyes, and deaf ears.  You two were never home, and it was up to my brother to take care of me, which he used to resent me for as well.  I loved him so much, and he never really returned that love.  It must've felt like that for you too. 

I'm sorry that I don't trust you two, enough to share this with you.  That you won't really understand what I'm saying, or out right deny everything I'm sharing.  I'm sorry that you'll never know.

I'm sorry for everything that I've said that made you feel anything other than happiness, and I'm sorry for what I'll say to you in the future that make you feel anything other than happiness.  Such is the way of life, and not everybody is meant to die happy.

Seasons change, and friends move away, and life goes on from day to day, but I do know for a fact, that I love the both of you so much, so much that I'd rather die than see you both in a grave.  I want to thank you, and apologize for being so difficult at times, but I know, also for a fact, that your love is boundless, and beyond the farthest star.

Love

Wei Shing


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9 years ago
I Get Depresso If I Don't Have My Espresso. #Coffee

I get depresso if I don't have my espresso. #Coffee

9 years ago

Asian smart and a lie

I'm not as smart as I think I am. And I'm okay with that.

9 years ago

Hoping my wedding pictures look as cool as her.

How To Wear Flowers In Your Hair

How to Wear Flowers in Your Hair

You’ll look as fresh as a daisy.

By Rian.

9 years ago

I totally agree!!

10 years ago

Beautiful

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10 years ago
Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night; Old Age Should Burn And Rave At Close Of Day. Rage, Rage Against

Do not go gentle into that good night; Old age should burn and rave at close of day. Rage, rage against the dying of the light. ~ #DylanThomas #DownIsUp #UpIsDown #HilliardOhio #WhileWalking #Home


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10 years ago

My inability to feel...

There are times in my day that I stop what I'm doing and I feel my heart just to feel some semblance of life. I've been so accustomed to acting normal all these years that I don't know if my smiles are real, or if my laughter really sounds what I used to sound like. It's been almost 4 years, and this depression has not subsided. I thought falling in love with the man of my dreams would help this, and in some cases it has. But it just lays dormant until I have a moment to think, to reflect, to feel my heart beating and remind myself that this happiness, this depression, also shall pass.

10 years ago
Happy Face!!

Happy face!!

10 years ago
Bringing My Halo To The Party.

Bringing my halo to the party.

10 years ago
A Lovely Butterfly.

A lovely butterfly.

10 years ago

Wait for it.....

10 years ago
This Black Cat.

This black cat.

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