Maybe Forcing Myself To Read Books Every Day For 66 Days And Do Nothing Else Will Fix My Shitty Concentration

the "I'm just some guy" neutrality movement helped me so much more than "everyone is hot and beautiful" positivity movement ever did tbh

Why does it seem like nowadays readers need everything to be morally correct, and for the moral lessons to be spelled for them, or else they miss the point of the story by a mile? Like, if a fiction depicts something dark they'll be like "oh this fiction is justifying fucked up actions" maybe think deeper Susan? "I don't see redemption for this character at all??" maybe they aren't meant to be redeemed?? Maybe the story is just here to show how fucked up everything is and that's it?? Maybe not every story is supposed to teach you morals and healthy coping mechanism?? Go to therapy for that?

People read ADULT DARK fiction and then act like kids with no critical thinking skills. Maybe those stories are not for you if you constantly seek heroic values in fiction.

So my pills went missing and I was lowkey panicking I had searched everywhere on my table bcs I knew I did not move the thing anywhere else.

I was tired of searching for it so I asked tarot. 4 of Pentacles, 8 of Cups, Knight of Cups. Since 4 of Pentacles gave off withdrawn and protective energy, I got the impression that the thing was still in my private space (a.k.a my room), but was stuck somewhere in between other things because the dude was holding the coin so tightly. I also probably had checked the 'place' but I 'walked away' before I realized it.

Well. It was stuck in between the pages of my social psychology book... I love social psychology... and I had checked my books several times before that but I didn't see the pills 🤦🏻‍♀️

Me, these past few days, dealing with things suddenly appearing and disappearing:

I just ate the fried chicken I bought 12 hours ago and kept at room temperature (health hazard some people say) and now I'm feeling weird I just hope my south east asian stomach is strong enough to handle whatever potential food poisoning this is. Amen.

Coriolanus Snow is enneagram 3 sp/so, I said it.

I might have forgotten some details in TBOSAS but I found out some people typed him as Enneagram 8?

He didn't step into a situation and immediately take charge or intimidate people like Enneagram 8 usually do, he didn't command the room either. He cared a lot about his image and the Snow name, concerned about showing the right image of the Snow family and doing his part as a Snow. He was also quite detached from his human traits like empathy in his pursuit of success and security, always thinking about what he could gain from a particular decision he made — that currency or 'quid pro quo' mindset is very Enneagram 3. He was focused on climbing the ranks. He got closer to people with power, authority and influences; like the insane doctor despite knowing the woman was dangerous, and Sejanus' parents, and his 'friends'. This is why he liked Lucy Gray at first, because she attracted the attention of the audience, i.e. influence. He smiled and pretended while working his way to the top. He's so enneagram 3, the worst kind, of course.

I haven't thought about his MBTI but I found out people also typed him as INTJ. I mean.... if that's true, INTJ enneagram 8 would not budge like he did, they would not play the game. INTJs are stubborn about doing things their way, INTJs are not always aware of social dynamic like Coryo did, plus they lack loyalty to traditions or the established rules of the social game. INTJ enneagram 3 however? They would adapt and play the game, while disagreeing with it at the same time and changing it slowly to fit their needs as they go. Which Coryo did. Well, he might not disagree with the Hunger Games but he didn't exactly agree with everything that was going on (at first) either, he just didn't fight against it like Sejanus did. He insulted people in his monologue but he still played the game, he made changes in the Hunger Games too.

265th stupid thing humans do; looking down on people for using canva and priding themselves on using mOre ProFEssiOnaL tool like adobe software

pioneering something called "gritted teeth optimism" where everything is gonna turn out okay even if i have to bite and claw and gnash my way through it

If your big three were defined by the degrees in which they are placed in, what would they be?

I would be a Leo Sun, Scorpio Moon and Virgo ASC. (Sun 17°-Moon 20°-ASC 18°)