its sooooo ugly how confident so many dudes are in producing the most average music and art … … . .…… .. where is their shame … why did i get taught so much more shame than is useful to me
“Does anything in nature despair except man? An animal with a foot caught in a trap does not seem to despair. It is too busy trying to survive. It is all closed in, to a kind of still, intense waiting. Is this a key? Keep busy with survival. Imitate the trees. Learn to lose in order to recover, and remember that nothing stays the same for long, not even pain, psychic pain. Sit it out. Let it all pass. Let it go.”
— May Sarton. “Journal of a Solitude: The Journals of Mary Sarton”.
the annoying thing about adhd is that like, most of the symptoms you can’t even argue are “evolutionary flaws” or “chemical imbalances.” literally it’s just that it’s not good for lining somebody else’s pockets. being “distractible” helps people notice predators or juicy berries out of the corners of their eyes. hyperfocusing on a task until it’s done is literally exactly in line with what an alleged persistence predator would need to do to actually follow through on hunting other animals. there’s so many little things that are obviously beneficial to have outside of a fucking factory assembly line
oh nooooo i found a trunk full of old journals in the attic, hope i don’t accidentally uncover some forbidden knowledge not meant for mortal understanding haha ;)