Aziraphale's Favorite Color Is Yellow

lets talk about the plane scene in bridon arc, where cheng xiaoshi's sleeping head falls on lu guang's shoulders and lu guang, the man, reaches his hand out to touch his hair. I dont even ship them but just his yearning, trying to feel that yes, he is here. trying to feel the 'there-ness' of CXS. I love them your honor.

Btw stop making lu guang suffer omg

I know I started reading it at 2 of noon yesterday. I know its not even 10 of morning today. I know my exams are going on-

But I just finished inhaling vol 1 of TGCF and now I have a new hyperfixation.

And all I want to say is, oh xie lian, xie lian- how I wish for there to be more like you.

I was asked by a super extroverted person yesterday that "how do you write so much"

And like. I can't talk about my feelings. Physically. So i project them onto my characters like a sadist. That's how i write so much. It's not that girl in my book struggling with hyper-independency but me. Its not that boy mourning his loss of hope but me.

Surprise, its all me.

unpopular opinion after finishing 2.5 books: shatter me was entirely ass and hot pile of garbage. The only good thing being aaron warner.

finished shatter me book 1 in half a day and my brother stared at me like i am a lunatic. My mother taunted me about studies. Fantastic.

finished shatter me book 1 in half a day and my brother stared at me like i am a lunatic. My mother taunted me about studies. Fantastic.

Hermes having the twinkiest and sexiest designs in all epic fanarts and animatics is my personal holy moly. the mischief in the eyes?? the grin, the smirk??? the pose?? perfection.

"good things come to those who wait around"

and i have been waiting around forever, where are the good things. is there a glitch hello

HELLOOOOOOO

Villainification of Perfectly Reasonable Anger; A Queer Feminist's Rant.

I am so tired of the entire 'man hating' feminist narrative and everything surrounding it, honestly. Yes, I am angry, Kevin. And this anger is here to stay. I am angry because you are quite literally making me debate if I deserve human rights or not? If my gender deserves healthcare or not?

I was watching a video (Essayist: Contrapoints) today where the woman perfectly articulates the immense emotional disdain and burden felt by the person of minority when they are asked to sit and 'debate'/explain why they deserve the bare freaking minimum, why their existence is valid, to their 'oppressor'-- and it almost made me tear up, because I have been put into that position to explain/debate so so many times. Topics like abortion, equal pay, LGBTQ rights-- that I have had to discuss 'rationally' with people in my life, because they simply have differing 'opinions'. I could never put that terrible feeling into words.

My dear, you are putting people in the position where their entire existence is put to question and placed up for debate like a simple small political issue-- and then you ask them to not be angry? When they argue back, why is it an 'overly emotional' and 'irrational' response? Is their pain, sadness and fury not warranted? Is it really an overreaction, or simply the most natural fucking response?

Is feeling hurt and angry because people who I am surrounded with, live with, frequent places with, talk daily with, cannot-- forget accepting my identity--even wrap their head around it sometimes, that unreasonable? I would say.. it isn't. So my rage is here to stay. And whilst it won't be directed at you, it will stay until we have fixed this accursed state of society.

Or nevermind that.

Which brings me to my second point.

The Romanticisation of Cold Logic and Neutral Stance

Why have we started romanticizing 'neutral cold hard logic' or 'detached stance' so much? A person who remains emotionless in the argument is not the winner. They simply do not have enough leverage in the topics being discussed (especially in cases of gender issues).

You say 'let's discuss why women shouldn't be allowed body autonomy' and you expect me to be like 'oh dear Jared, of course, let's have a calm and collected "debate" about our body rights. Do you want a tea while we discuss this little measly political issue?'

Jared, the only reason you aren't loosing your shit right now is because this thing won't ever affect you the way it does the person opposite to you. So don't ask me to 'chill out'.

We are angry and it's fucking valid.

Peace.

I just finished watching a video on focus/reading and was wondering about the attention economy and how people are genuinely struggling- then I opened tumblr and then I frowned at how legit I see no one discuss that here for the most part.

And then I realized because this hellsite is a text-driven, minimally algorithmised, filled with a userbase of creatives and holding strongly onto the 'romantic era' culture.

All other platforms being plagued with ai art and posts, but be shunned to death if you try that shit on tumblr. Credit the artist or begone from this place, fool.

Its like the entire place agrees unanimously on some basic ideals and will die before letting go of them.

I love it.