Today I Got 200 Words Written Down.

I just got my first tattoo

It's a simple one, but Goshhhhh did I worry about the pain.

And it was like, super comfy pain level. Honestly. Maybe I had too many bad experiences in life (and I did), many of them involving horrible pain levels, but really...

Like, every time I have to do a lab exam, the nurses can't take my blood easily. They fumble, they insert the needle like 7 times, and with the needle inside my skin they move it like it's a Carnaval of sorts.

That's waaaay more painful than tattoos.

The last time I cut my hair? The guy cleaned my hair with so much force I ended up crying my balls out. The pain level that time was like, 20 times worse than getting a tattoo.

What I did? I saw someone get inked first, saw how it was handled, got some music going in my phone, and sat for it. It was really peaceful! (I say this to all autistics out there fearing the processs like I once feared it...)

Sooooo... yeah. I'm already planning my next tattoo. :)

C&D Original Book Update #1

Things are going great! I had this big problem with how I was going to introduce the letter exchange system between my protagonists because it was messy, with all these section breaks that I hear don't work well in kindle, too much repetition (like their addresses), it just didn't read right. Now it does...

Here's how I did it:

Transcript of the letters between:

—(Character's Name). (Address)

—(Character's Name). (Address)

(I put this at the beginning of the chapter)

Then before each letter, in bold:

(Character's Name)—

Voilá!

And at the first few letters I make clear who the character's writing.

This is the best system I've found... I researched all over the internet and no other system worked for my story.

Now, reading the chapters months after writing them, I've also cringed hard over some stuff, but oh well, I have enough time until September to fix them up. <3

Ok just figured it out: I'm hearing Tchaikovsky from now on

Omg I'm here wanting to cry. Why? Because I'm hearing lo-fi & eating nutella. Somehow that's cry-inducing to me now.

And you can't even say that it must be 'that time of the month' cuz I'm not a woman, technically. What's wrong with me. WHY does lo-fi makes me want to cry. What do I even hear if not lo-fi to relax?? I tried 3daysgrace, for hours, then Bullet for my Valentine, then back to 3daysgrace, now I got no idea what to listen to. Also, I have to work, so I can't just go home and bury myself in a tower of blankets like I'm rebuilding Babel.

Never gonna hear lo-fi again.

(Make a bet on how long it takes for me to listen to it again.)

C&D Book Update #7

So, I arrived at chapter 51/70 (second draft).

The plan is: 1) finish second draft (it's only about fixing things in red), 2) redo three specific things that aren't working, two of them entire chapters, 3) finish third draft (actually and seriously re-reading everything again), 4) finish the fourth draft (after at least a month of not reading anything).

But what I wanted to write here is this: I know, everyone must know this, but I feel like I'm feeling this in my bones now. How every character, even the minor and evil ones, are really a part of me. How I bled into every single one. And I realize now that THAT is what made writing C&D so painful. It made me raw, as if I picked up a sword and slammed it into my heart again and again, until I had enough blood to form a being. It damn hurts. But maybe that's why this book ended up so precious to me. Later chapters (I think 55+?) are my best writing ever, by far. And it's entirely because I dropped pretense and wrote with the worst of the shadows I've ever faced.

Maybe that's why writing the final chapters was so difficult. I procrastinated for like, 2 months?

But 2 needed months. If I had rushed, the ending would be shitty. "I have to trust the process..." a friend (who passed away) used to tell me this all the time. I guess he was right in ways I couldn't even fathom. I hope that smug bastard is smiling at me from whatever plot smug bastards go.

A must-see for all writers

IT'S LIKE A HUNDRED NINETY NINE DEGREES, WHEN YOU'RE DOING IT WITH ME, DOING IT WITH ME

*Fortunately

My mind is like the Joker's on Love Triangle fic by randomplotbunny

"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

TCIK Original Book Update #1

Finally, I have the structure of the story complete! Like, the main ideas in each arc.

I'm still drowning in my notes. I have at least 200 pages of it, and the worst laziness to sort them out. Some of the ideas are already outdated, but some are gold. I'm organizing them all in this new document, and it's going well, even though it's a very slow process.

I'm still not satisfied with the ending. It has already morphed into something brand new in the time I've been thinking about this fic (like, one month?), but I find something is still missing… I'll keep thinking about it and trying to figure it out.

Another challenge is making the romance feel earned. I wrote a bit of it already, and I'm not satisfied. The protagonist feels like a dunderhead, and the main love interest a creep. I feel this is something I'll end up figuring out at the last moment…

Anyway, despite hating crosswords and puzzles, I find book-puzzles like those fascinating. Hurray!! Another day of slaving over my book <3

Can't believe there's actually a finished version of the game! I'm so happy. Thank you so much.

playing hetaoni in 2024

@cookies-hetaoni thanks for your hard work on this, we had a blast