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i used to collect constelic terms and i just now saw that the original carrd was gone :( but this archive is really rad tho tysm :]]

some time ago the Constelic Carrd was deleted and i have not the slightest idea to what reasons but i still had the screenshots so i will share for those that have been lookin for it

🎉| edgy mlp board to celebrate 666 followers!

sources: 1 , 2 , 3 | 4 , 5 , 6 | 7 , 8 , 9

⚠️| 2010s (+ some 2000s) horror from my childhood

this board has no jumpscares, however some of the sources do.

sources: 1 , 2 , 3 | 4 , 5 , 6 | 7 , 8 , 9

AGHHAHAAA THESE ARE SO COOL YAYYYY

i made these things in picmix

THANK YOU SO MUCH OMG (/GEN /VPOS) IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THESE FOR FOREVER I SERIOUSLY CANT THANK YOU ENOUGH😭

all the old tptm girl journal entries w the new (if anyone wants to see them again and compare them)

please proceed with caution as many of these could be upsetting to read

disposable girl (jordyn)

(old)

i cant fucking stand this. i try so goddamn hard to make friends, to be attractive to people, to be even somewhat appealing to them etc etc. it never works. i thought it would get better the older i get. thats what i was told. guess what! i was fucking lied to!!! im alwasy left out of EVERYTHING i never get invited to shit and my own friends ignore me all the time. everyone looks at me weird. i cant go in public anymore im so fucking terrified of everyone. nobody fuckinf wants me, man. im so close to doing something stupid i feel so gross and ugly and dumb i should actually just die id be doing everyone a favor LOL

(new)

man, i havent been on here in forever. the internet is kind of dumb. what is there to say? my friend group celebrated our outpatient graduation anniversary the other day, that was pretty nice. we’re all trying to figure out housing stuff, nora’s been helping with that. freyja + mayra + kairi found a place already (how are they so responsible??) and the rest of us are trying to find places near them so we can visit more often. i never expected to have such a big group of friends. if you told me 2 years ago that i’d be living like this, i wouldn’t believe you. it’s still surreal to me. i’m not sure what i did to deserve them. same goes for my girlfriends. i don’t wanna say who just yet, we’re still figuring things out, but i’m just so thankful for them. i feel so lucky to have a second chance at life. i really didn’t believe people when they said it would get better, and then it did. how funny…..

irreverent girl (kairi)

(old)

I do not want God to see me anymore. I do not want anymore eyes on me. This is near unbearable. I have no one to turn to. My mother is in the church. Many of my friends are in the church. They would tell me to find hope through Christ. They would tell me to pray to Him. They would tell me that He will save me. He must not remember He made me, and if He does, He simply does not care. I know this is unbecoming of me, and I don't mean to be dramatic. I am simply depressed, nervous, and I cannot tell what's real and what isn't anymore. I know I'm supposed to hear God speaking to me, but I do not, and I am tired of straining my ears. I just want to see a doctor. I want some kind of tangible solution. I do not want to pray anymore. Praying hurts. I only do it when I am afraid, but I am afraid much of the time. I don't want to be unheard anymore. I do not want to hold out hope for someone who does not act like they're there. I am hurting. I am hurting. I am hurting. Belief is hurting me. The idea of God is hurting me. I need an out. I am hurting.

(new)

When I have a job and money and I can move away from my shitty Mormon parents

splitter girl (tahira)

(old)

theres something so broken in me thats beyond saving. so i dont know why i keep trying to be saved. i meant to kill myself when i was 18. i didnt. all ive wanted to do lately is kill someone or something. i havent. im too much of a pussy to plan anything concrete, no matter how much i hate everyone around me. no matter how much i get off to videos of people dying or how much i love cutting myself i cant actually take action against other people. i am fucking purposeless. i was born from evil and i will always be evil and i cant even live up to that. i hate myself i hate myself i HATE myself and the universe hates me too. i dont know what to fucking do at this point. i talked to one of my friends about wantingto die and they said smthn about hospitalizing myself. maybe. i dunno. i dont know what else there is for me/. my eyes are fucking burning from lookign at my computer for so long adn not getting any goddamn sleep. i am not a good person. i dont think i can be helped but i just dont wanna fucking keep goign to school and being around people and pretending like everything is norma;l. i cant keep doing it. what the fuck is wrong with me whagt happened. why cant i be loved or feel love for other people when did something change in me that switched the aggression and affection parts of my brain. im hyperventilating ill be back. maybe

(new)

getting myself onigiri from this one good boba place 2nite bc im 8 months clean…… its the little things~ ^^

fainéant girl (freyja)

(old)

i know i dont hate being disabled... i just hate being disabled in a society that makes existing difficult... but sometimes i really just dont want to be disabled anymore. i dont want my family to lecture me about how i could be helping out more, or how i should get a job. i dont want teachers to keep asking me whats wrong or the fuckin uni counselor to try to get me hospitalized. i dont want to be in so much pain anymore, to feel so exhausted that i cant even do so much as prepare food for myself, let alone do anything meaningful or fulfilling. its not fair. i shouldnt have to stay inside and sit in the dark all day,. i should be able to have friends. to talk to people and to go out with them and to feel like i am alive. its lonely and traumatic to suffer through this and on top of that no one around me understands, and they never fully will. i am tired of trying to justify my existence to everyone, to explain the pain that i am in and why i shouldnt have to experience it. i know the problem isnt me. i know i live in a world that isnt built for me. but if the world cant change then sometimes i truly feel that i should just stop living in it. my lifespan is already shorter than everyone else's anyways. what difference does it make

(new)

my qpps didnt seem to appreciate me playing Alien Kids Alien Rap for them. Do they even love me

caliber girl (nora)

(old)

唉～It is 3 AM and I should go to sleep but I can’t. I have a work zoom meeting early in the morning and I gotta hit the gym also because I haven’t done leg day in like… weeks. Oh well, it doesn’t even matter. My value is depleting but I don’t think I care anymore. The turnaround date for my code is also in a couple of days and I haven’t made any progress. I keep getting the same error and I’m too tired to figure out what’s wrong. I might get fired at this rate LOL(笑). If that happens, I think I’ll just consider ending it all. Not that anybody will miss me. God I sound so weak and pathetic right now. When did it get like this. How did it get like this. I’m sure I’ll be fine. I’ve been through worse before and this is nothing. Ugh, why is it so hard to breathe? My chest hurts and I feel like something is wrong but I don’t know how to make it go away. Should I call someone about this? No. No one is awake or around to help. I’ll be fine. I’ll just sleep it off. Shake it off… shake it off…

(new)

My Tamagotchi beeped during a meeting fml

chocolate box girl (morgan)

(old)

i thought i was doing better but i cant stop thinking about them. their touch, their interests, their smile, everything. the worst part is that i miss them, after all of what they've done to me. i was 13. i dont even feel justified calling it rape since our relationship was so muddy... they never yelled at me or was angry at me, they just got so sad when i tried to speak my mind, and got all my friends to hate me when we finally broke up. i never said no so i feel like im insulting actual survivors by feeling violated. i wasnt even trying to get into a relationship with them, it just happened... i feel like everyone around me wants me in the same way they did, even though im an adult now and i dont even try to make myself appealing. i wish i could trust people not to take advantage of me, and i feel disgusting and selfish for feeling like everyone has ulterior motives of getting me to fall in love with them, or worse. that's so self centered of me. i dont know how long i can keep doing this

(new)

girl help i cant stop looking at anime figures on japan yahoo auctions !!!!!

taxidermy girl (mayra)

(old)

I don't remember ever not having a sex drive, is that normal ? I was born and then it was all downhill from there, something happened to me sexually i think, I don't know what happened, because I don't remember much, but something happened and I was beaten for it and yelled at and my mother hated me, and now I am an adult and I try to have sex, and I'm not there mentally, even if my body is participating, I feel like I am in the past again, being beaten and yelled at . I want to keep trying, I want to have fun, to feel safe in someone else's arms, to reach the heights of pleasure, but my mind scares me so much, I haven't been able to eat anything today because I feel so horrified by my body . If I was good I would have been born as a nonsexual being, no parts, no desires, no instincts, a blank slate, too empty to be enjoyed . Do you know what it feels like, to have your mother tell you people want to sexually abuse you when you are a child, and then to be made fun of by your peers for being so ugly, to have your middle school and high school classmates joke about how much they don't want to have sex with you ? I am illicit and undesirable at the same time, I am everyone's last option, I am nothing and still too much, rotting deer meat on the side of the road . I wish I had been born as something beautiful and pure, I wish I could start over, that whatever that initial sin was had never been committed .. I want to start over

(new)

Went to a kink event the other night and everyone was so nice … The low lights were fucking with my vision so one of the hosts helped me navigate the place . I ❤️ you random disabled ally with a pup mask on

chemical girl (joy)

(old)

LMAOOOOO im too angry and miserable to be around. i think i just need to give up at this point because theres clearly like. something broken inside me that cant be fixed. that has 2 be it because i try to talk and i just sound cold, i try to make a joke and it comes out overly edgy and unfunny, i try to be like everyone else but its too much. i cant even be a collection of the positive traits i see in others, i try to replicate it and it comes out warped and wrong. im either fucking enraged or in abject misery or way too happy and nobody can keep up with me. the thing is i dont even blame them. i wouldnt want to be around me either. do u know what thats like? being someone you wouldnt want to know? i keep hoping that one day ill wake up and suddenly be normal, the mood swings will be gone and everyone will like me and i wont do stupid shit that pisses them off. but i know that day isnt coming. theres no hope for me and i want to say sorry to everyone who has ever had the misfortune of knowing me but i know it wouldnt do anything. theres nothing i could ever do to make myself right

(new)

i need to convince my gf to take me to Round One again soon

refraction girl (nataana)

(old)

i don't want to do this anymore. i'm going somewhere better

(new)

talked with my psych and i’ll be starting TMS soon, it’s some thing where they put magnets to ur brain and it’s supposed to treat depression.. trying to temper my expectations bc i’ve tried so many treatments that just do nothing for me, but i’d be lying if i said my hopes weren’t riding on this. i want to confidently say i’m glad to be alive. i feel like i’m getting closer to that

nurse parallel/machine girl (xiomara)

(old)

I am so excited... Tomorrow my experimental outpatient treatment plan begins!!! I'm beyond delighted. I have complicated feelings about my DID being in remission, but it's nice to feel stable enough to be in charge of something this big, and to not have terrible gaps in my memory anymore. I still don't remember everything that happened to me, but maybe I don't need to. At this stage of my life, I feel content. I can confidently say everything was worth it. I want to help others feel that way, too. I think I can.

(new)

I’m meeting up with a new friend tomorrow… I feel nervous, but it’s a good nervousness, I think!

I'm a parallel of you, I am, I am, I am!

f2u nurse parallel (xiomara huapaya) from the post-traumatic manifesto themepack! - requested by anon!

credits needed if used, & like or reblog if you save! art by weevildoing & feraljayce / official media!

me when the final tptm song genuinely changed my life

me: man my life sucks i should end it all or something

the hopeful xiomara:

caparina but its splitter girl !!!!!!!

the pear traumatic manifesto

dispearsable girl

pearreverent girl

splitpear girl

pearneant girl

calipear girl

pear box girl

taxipearmy girl

pearmical girl

pearfraction girl

nurse pearallel pmhnp

tried to make little tptm stamps 2 put on my strawpage.....was gonna give them actual stamp borders but I couldnt get them 2 work ;-; n e way use them if u want 2 idc

Content warning: blades, fake blood

🍫🥀🫀 Day 2 of @deadboystims's 300-follower event: a favorite song of mine right now is Chocolate-Box Girl by Weevildoing <3

Considering the meaning of the song, I tried to be as considerate as possible when making this and attempted to represent the song well enough. I hope that this doesn't misrepresent anything and encapsulates the atmosphere and intentions behind this song!

God, this song is so hauntingly beautiful. It sounds melodically AMAZING, and the lyrics seriously pack a punch. It feels so cutesy, like it's trying to hide something from the listener, yet the aura of horror can't be ignored and leaves an impression to the point where I can't stop thinking "wow, I'm listening to a song about this fucked-up topic and the story makes me feel disgusted" even when I'm zoned out and looping it for hours on end. And its theme? It's not one to be taken lightly, and in this song it's shown perfectly, and in a way that brings out a lot of sympathy in people, which is beautiful. Although I may not be able to identify with the specific situation talked about in this song, I can connect to the feelings it brings, the response/aftermath shown, and just its general ideas and topic.

And it's amazing how music can bring people together. Thank you so much, Weevildoing, for making expressive and heartfelt music.

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Content warning: flashing, harsh colors

🧪🎛️⚗️ Song-inspired stimboard: Chemical Girl by Weevildoing :3

I've been really wanting to make a board for this song. It has to be one of my favorites, I swear to god it's literally amazing. When it first came out it absolutely shocked me with how much I liked it because I had no idea what to expect, but I fell in love with it. Plus, the lyrics are honestly me 😭 Anyway, this song's incredible. I have no idea how to put it, but I just love it SO much. I'm going feral.

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🪸🌊🦋 Song-inspired stimboard: Refraction Girl by Weevildoing ^^

This song is so beautiful, I swear I'm always so impressed with like every Weevildoing song they're all so good 😭 I have been listening to this song nonstop since it came out (which was like 3 days ago woah I'm so fast guys). Also, please excuse me, I will absolutely be making nothing but TPTM boards for the next week or so.

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🍄‍🟫🦌🌲 Song-inspired stimboard: Taxidermy Girl by Weevildoing :3

This song is literally amazing. I don't know what it is about it, it's just everything. I feel like I'm ascending every time I listen to it, you know...and the lyrics are rather real ...it just makes me go feral. 😁

Also, I got her on the UQuiz (I think) :3

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Content warning: medical themes

⚕️🌈🩺 Song-inspired stimboard: Nurse Parallel, PMHNP by Weevildoing :)

Thank you, Weevildoing, for creating this work of art. I really don't know how to put it into words properly. I'm incredibly grateful that I get to see this project come to a close, and I am grateful to have watched it grow and progress.

If I recall correctly, I think I started listening to TPTM/Weevildoing during the gap between Caliber and Faineant Girl? But that doesn't exactly matter. All I know is that I've been following this album for a while, and it has helped me through my struggles with my own mental health and is one of the reasons I keep going.

I see myself in and resonate with quite a few of the girls (mainly Splitter and Chemical), and their songs and stories put feelings I failed to describe into words. To see these girls get a happy ending is almost like seeing me get a happy ending, in a sense. It feels like a weight taken off my shoulders. It gives me hope for my future. Music is beautiful like that.

Along with that, the lyrics of this song itself already hit really hard for me. I've been struggling to understand myself and grow past my mistakes, but I'm slowly getting better. The lyrics feel like some of the things I've been trying to feel about myself. I want to be able to look at myself and see a future, and I want to feel a genuine sense of hope. I'm already working towards that, but this song is only helping me, because it's kinda telling me what I struggle to tell myself and telling me the same words I pushed away when I was struggling the most.

To see this song come out during a period of my life where I'm trying to improve myself is kinda amazing, because the first 9 songs were there for me when I was at my lowest and this last one is helping me see an extra light at the end of the tunnel. This entire project has been an important part of my life, not only in the past, but as of recent as well. I can't express how grateful I am to have this music in my life and to have it help me bring some hope and understanding into my life.

Once again, thank you for making this music. I can't wait to see what comes next.

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SPLITTER GIRL STIMBOARD YES YES YES YES IM SCREAMING YES YES YES

Content warning: blood, blades/weapons

🖥️🔪💔 Day 5 of @ultimateangelz's 60-follower contest: oh, a free day? I guess I'll do a stimboard based around my favorite song; Splitter Girl by Weevildoing!

I have an infatuation with this song. This song sums up a lot of my life, actually. The music video is awesome (and its original form is up on the Internet Archive!). It's catchy as hell. And the actual OC is very pretty and fun to draw. I love Weevildoing's work so much, it's a shame how Towne is pretty unnoticed in most spaces! The Post Traumatic Manifesto in general is a great series, and it brought some brilliant songwriting and heartfelt concepts with it! My other favorite songs aside from Splitter Girl are Chocolate-Box Girl and Caliber Girl :)

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i'll always love anything x ray related fr

X-ray figures

me when me me me dare i say mecore

[This user relates with Disposable Girl a little too much.]

FR😭

this user is begging you guys to stop putting regular people on your DNIs

free to use anywhere, credit is appreciated but not necessary!!

@nonconformityhub !

why does jhonen vasquez give his characters the most atrocious haircuts known to man

their barbers FUCKED UP

AAHAH I HAVE THE HALLOWEEN ONES I LOVE THESE SMMM

Source

ZOOBLE (tadc) stimboard!!!

w/ brightly colored/multicolor shape + kandi stimz!!

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[OLDER BROTHER IN THE 2000S: STAMPS]

pls credit if you use

best seen on dark mode

GIF CREDIT:

this post form bassgif

i love him sm i accidentally named myself after him he's my favorite😭

30/?

Franky for Anon!

🗜️ 🧰 🔨 🚂 🛠️ 🔧 🚂 ⚙️ 🔨

okay so 18 pounds of cokane, 12 pounds of crake and 7 male stripers. but make sure none of them are white, i cant see the coke on them if they are

🐎 🤨 🍰 / 🌨️ 🐎 🌨️ / 🍰 🤨 🐎

i'm a bit hesitant to post something yet but i will when i get the motivation to ^__^