Bpd jealousy needs to be talked about more. I have a pretty severe case of it. I get jealous any time my fp gets joy from anything especially anyone who isn’t me.
I know this is “toxic” but it really is something I’m trying to work on. I guess when they get joy from other things, it kinda makes me feel replaceable?
Like the joy I bring them can just be switched out with those other things. If I was out of their life it wouldn’t impact them and they would still be able to be happy.
But if they were out of my life I wouldn’t be able to feel any sort of joy. I feel like I’m always going to be jealous unless my fp hates everyone except me. Or talks to only me.
I really wouldn’t like this though. I want my fp to have a healthy social life. It’s just something I have to learn to deal with. At the same time my whole life revolves around my fp.
I don’t talk to anyone but them, and I really don’t like talking to anyone but them. I don’t think I’ll ever be satisfied until I know they love me the way I love them. I just wish I felt content. I hate being jealous so much.
I really am trying to work on it though. I’ve been working on it for a long time, I just don’t think it’s getting easier though :(
I really just want my fp to be happy
Does anyone have any tips to help jealousy pain?
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THIS IS BEST HEADCANNON EVER
listen I love the avian grian fanon, but c'mon. how did we miss this
in season 6, when he first joins, he starts collecting parrots and maybe sort of killing them. to collect their feathers!! and he's quick to try and get an elytra in all seasons, it feels like second nature as mentioned in 3rd life
using an elytra often as a sort of "fix" for the species dysphoria regarding a lack of wings, one of the fundamentals of parrot grian!! elytra!!! using and stretching his wings is really enjoyable for him :D
this headcanon is inspired by a post (if I find it I'll link it!!) he decorates his elytra with feathers like a scarlet macaws every time, and probably customized it to bend and move like a bird's wings too so he can wrap them around himself and puff them up like a bird would if it gets cold. He has a little mechanism connected to the inside of his wrists to move the wings around. Mumbo probably made the prototype, and helps him put it together every season and if his elytra breaks (or gets lost to the boatem hole). Grian is getting the hang of recreating it every season though!
also he wears clicky slightly heeled boots to me to mimick bird talons clicking and raise his heels off of the ground. and with the remaining feathers he doesn't use (the hermits will donate feathers to him) he makes some tail feathers, worn on a belt. Jellie chases his feathers around and on multiple occasions has torn up a few bits of it
doc also probably gave grian all of the feathers post perimeter poultry man incident as a final "screw you" because nobody needs that many feathers, especially since the season was ending so soon
this post was made courtesy of me projecting
I got kicked out unexpectedly. I thankfully have a place to stay, but I don’t get my first paycheck until the 15th and I have less than $25 in my bank account. I need to buy cat food for my kitty, gas to get to work and school, my medication that allows me to work and keeps me stable, and groceries. Not to mention most of my paycheck is going to go to my car payment and I won’t have much left over. I know a lot of people are struggling, and please don’t do anything if you can’t afford it, but I would really appreciate if you wanted to donate to get my kitty and I food. Or maybe just reblog this for reach?
If you can, please help a disabled queer system and their unhinged orange cat (kitty pictures below)
vmo: smarievt
cshapp: smarievt
ppal: strawrings
kofi: strawrings
i actually cannot stop thinking about scar winning help ahsjjddh
take this beautiful fanart of the man the myth the legend himself
today's mini fella is melloz's tanuki joel! 🌸✨
i need more peskyblaze i need more peskyblaze i need more peskyblaze i need more peskyblaze i need more peskyblaze pesky blaze
hi scarlet macaw therian here ^-^ hehe
hate it when people pull the "therians only identify as canines and felines" card
i have seen every kind of nonhuman identity, from apes to insects to cetaceans to civets to prehistoric animals to animals that never existed on earth
literally just look somewhere that isn't tiktok and you'll find us. just because most of the ones you find follow a certain pattern doesn't mean we're faking.
we are everywhere. we always have been. we are not leaving.
Boatem knights au gem and etho designs
(go read elle's bkau fic about them)
Something about the cc-ifitcation of fanartists in the mcyt fandom is bothering me. you are a fanartist, you make fanart, you are not a content creator. stop trying to be one
these things aren't mutually exclusive
it/itself, i talk about mental illness and the sort, also multifandomminor
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