"happy Birthday To Me."

What if: what if after white taking out Stevens gem, Rose really reformed?

Rose is really ready to shatter White and I can't blame her for it.

Like mother like son 🗣️🔥

I love poeple

"Twin!Delusion AU" by me and @ridokichan (from our previous post)

(their dynamic in nutshell, basically.)

This is partially based on bereavement hallucinations disorder (it is not nessesary for a person to be "passed" to fall under such diagnosis. but considering how on other side of the portal Stan didn't even knew if his brother is alive in there - name still works.)

Realistically speaking - those kind of hallucinations are a response to an overwhelming emotions, a coping mechanism & form of isolation formed desperation.

Stan is so desperate to fix the portal, to get his brother back/fix this mistake that mind will willingly make it seem like everything is alright.

You supress your emotions because you got more important things to focus on? Oh trust me they will find the way out.

Now a question: then why are they in a form of children?

Childhood represents innocence, unconditional love, and a time when they were truly happy together. Subconscious will always choose this form because it literally offers protection, allowing to mentally escape into the past rather than face the unbearable present. After all, Stans character is about partially clinging to the past while Ford was one that wanted to move forward. (i am not talking about Ford holding grudges from the past like a dead dog he is, no)

Seeking comfort in purest and safest version of your brother, one that never looked at you wrong, one that never pulled the curtains on you when you asked for help....... Sounds right to me.

I really lacked the ability to analyse or process what I was shown because of newly getting a phone at age of 9. at that point I didn't even knew person could HAVE a twin sibling (no matter the fact that I myself have a deseased twin brother. no one told me. NO ONE. THEY THOUGHT IT WASN'T NESSESARY TO KNOW???)

I just thought Ford was Stans double. Just his copy.

"Who is this. Stan is clearly better. why do we need him?! why did he show up out of nowhere go away🙄"

Stan was my icon, (at that point I was scamming ppl for amino coins in amino communities, That man was NOTTTTT a good influence.)

when I saw him being upset over Ford I got so frustrated I refused to watch the rest of the episodes, like WDYM this fake aah is now in the shack alongside pines family who is this stranger????

I defenetly DID NOT dig into their backstory.

I never understood Ford either. He always seemed to look so out of place and it bothered and threw me off. (All that just because this was exactly the way I felt as a child, and seeing it on the screen was so uncomfortable? I refused to accept that fact, I tried so hard to act normal and fit in that I never really tried to just accept it? I don't know how to describe it. I despised ford and never accepted him as a real character because the behaviour, feelings and his actions were too familiar. Life is shit and Man it's turning angsty, Stan twins ep killed something in me and I just decided to IGNORE it's existence.....

I just called him "that man" or "second Stan", And whole wierdmaggedon felt like a fever dream too.

Seeing ford with bill just made me go "wait is he evil too or what" I did NOTTTTT clock into the plot. No matter that I was actively in fandom till age of 11 (I still have few arts dated from that time good lord, I never understood what SHIPS meant either I just thought it was "good friends" so when I saw billdip making out it opened up a thought in me. Never have I ever touched that shit again. Ewh. I got so many Mabel and bill art tho, I thought they would get along both loving creative stuff and everything)

I understood how serious everything was after rewatching at age of 12 I think?

I will perish while protecting Stanford pines. His hate is NOT allowed on my page. No. Nope.

happy ten years of stanford pines!!!

i seriously can't believe it's been ten years. i'd love to hear fellow veterans' memories! do you remember where you were when it was confirmed stan had a twin brother? were you a believer in the theory, or were you a skeptic? did you call him stanley? did you think he was dipper and mabel's grandfather? reminisce!!

🗿 I need someone to explain to me why I opened up tiktok only to be flashed by Stan’s mystery sack.

Someone PLEASE get ahold of eye bleach bc what the fuck

MY OC!!!!!

Aiki Kiyozumi.

age 4 -- age 1X -- age XXX

trying to comfort yourself through trauma and grief

VS

Finnaly finding peace

Reading tags or comments is literally the best part of the day!

I may not draw that much, or post that much, but I refresh my notifications few times an hour in hope that someone awknowledged my existance by throwing in few nice words, which I feel like I don't really deserve, concidering how many actually talented and inspiring artists are out there.

Sorry for the sudden negative, and to the op of this post!

It's Just a total thank you to everyone who ever interacted on my page, I really value and read EVERY word. every one of them. it kinda keeps me going

I love everyone.

Oh god I will DEFENETLY private this in few days out of emberassment. What has gotten into me ew too many feelings

No one owes artists anything.

But existence is lonely and sometime you throw hours and hours of effort into a void, on the slim chance it will say something back.

Day 3: old stuff.

It's Russian fandom "My student spirit" if anyone's interested!

"you can't continue to love those silly skeletons forever!"

me asf:

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUUU🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

will definitely try all of em when I get the timeeee

This is actually the advice I am subconciousely following since 2020, and ykw? It works.

Well. Somewhat...?

BUT!!!! I make them get good happy pleasant experiences instead of therapy since i got bad experiences with therapists myself (I've been to 4 different therapists. They would either say that it's all my fault and I deserve it, or just suck it up, or that "I don't try hard enough", they ruined my understanding of therapy. Mother only dragged me there with the intention to "fix whatever is wrong with me", not help.)

Basically, running the character through similar horrible experiences to yours and making them heal. Feeling like you're part of it. and if they healed - so can you.

I know I began talking about a bit of a different topic but I still wanted to express my opinion, so I hope that it's fine(I hope so?)

I've been doing this similiar thing for.... 4-5 years now? I'm definitely better than I used to be.

Put a bullet in my head but I'm not going back to whatever 2015-2020 was. I don't even remember most of it but I'm not going back. No.

If you can't get any help, or don't want any help - working on yourself BY yourself WITH yourself is the best thing that can be done. It's hard but don't lose hope!

Whatever I get horribly flashbacked to everything traumatic that ever happened in my life - my mind just refuses to accept it, like no, that's not me, that must have been someone else, I POSSIBLY couldn't be fine after [REDACTED] but, I'm fine, right? so it means that [REDACTED] never happened and I'm just lying to myself and making shit up, I just gotta suck it up and be tougher.

and if you ask me that's very fucking Stanley Pines core.