I JUST TOLD HER I USED TO HAVE A CRUSH ON HER . AHAISIDKDJEJWKSKSKSJSNDND E

28/01/22

i was the first person in her class today and she asked me how i was which is. not something she does to anyone else so i’m really happy

bc i was the first person she sent me on a bunch of messages which is rlly sweet bc i literally had to go deliver chocolate to another teacher lmao

when i came back she kept saying thank you. literally like 20 times🥰

she caught me staring at her tho (didn’t mention it thankfully)

translating cicero

how are ppl just. normally attached to ppl on a healthy level

Everything I do, I wonder what you’d think about it.

she doesn’t even have kids but j is such a MILF

Fuck it I love you // Lana Del Rey

went to leave books back in to school today and she wasn’t there .

my sister just agreed w me that j is hot idk how to feel

i think our story just ended. made a reason to go into school today and she had left by the time i got there. tomorrow is the last day of term and there’s so little chance of seeing her and i have no reason to be there . but i wanted to apologise for the email and leave a way to get in touch but our last interaction is now just a normal conversation and that stupid email. i know it’s stupid to think that her leaving early today had anything to do with me but i can’t stop thinking that she wants to avoid me.

she’s not going to be here all summer as she’s going travelling so i can’t even dream about running into her some random day, and the next time i could see her is next year now if even .

i don’t want to email her again because i feel like she hates me but i feel so…. crushed

how does 7 years and all those chats and silly memories just end on a random week day and i didn’t even know it was the last one ?

j told me how she loves x files and gillian anderson so naturally i had to start watching it (also may or may not have looked at her facebook many times and one of her old profile photos is gillian anderson. i’m so sad she doesn’t use social media anymore though she said she doesn’t like it )