This Moon Was Difficult For Me.

Yurah Tsukino by amaipetisu

My Values.

What do you hold sacred/value above all else? How do these values translate to actions and our daily lives?

Love To love is in the nature of all things. Everything seeks to be loved and all also give love, whether it be to another being or an object. It is love that creates. Without love, we are solitary; alone. Nothing is meant to exist alone. Communication, time shared together, gift giving, physical touch.

Nature If the natural world suffers, all do. It is by the grace of the Earth, itself, that we are able to live. By neglecting nature and all that exists within it, we are erasing not only our future, but the future of the planet. Maintaining gardens for pollinators, picking up trash, creating less waste.

Kindness We exist in the same plane and each of us has our own struggles. There is no need or reason to make someone's existence more difficult. A little bit of kindness can change someone's existence. Volunteering, saying thank you, helping someone else reach a goal.

Creativity To create is to bring about life. Art, literature, music, food, and theater all represent life and experiences. I believe we all desire to create, to express ourselves in various manners through different mediums, to leave a bit of ourselves with others so that we might exist in diverse ways. Writing, cooking, putting on makeup.

Remember to reevaluate values and actions at the turn of the year!

My husband is ill and there's nothing more I can do for him, so my mania is taking over. I've done the quiet clean ups and retried making banana nut bread with this recipe. The first time I made it I had a dumb and forgot flour... you know, the main ingredient in bread. I need more hobbies that keep my hands busy because when I run out of chores, my manic episode worsens, and I feel as though I want to crawl out of my skin and scream.

Bipolar really is something.

i'm very low mentally, emotionally, and physically. i'm doing my best, but all i can do is coast through the day. i really want to work on things like gposes, but i just can't find the motivation to. so, i simmer today. instead i'll try to see everyone else's creativity.

I use the Finch app because it's cute and helps me get things done, but my Finch just discovered Mondays and geez... imagine not knowing what a Monday was.

My meds have been adjusted, and this is day three on the new dose. I am not doing well. We don't know if my body is metabolizing them, so this is doubling the dose to see if it takes. I am dissociating and I feel stuck in a dream. I don't know what to do with myself. I just want to cry.

I was introduced to more Sanrio characters, and I found one who shares my birthday, and I am SO IN LOVE. Mocha and Chococat are now my two favorites. It would be the chocolate pair.

The banana nut bread was successful, btw! Was very yummy and was my first "bread" recipe. Going to try sourdough, next. What a huge leap.

My husband is ill and there's nothing more I can do for him, so my mania is taking over. I've done the quiet clean ups and retried making banana nut bread with this recipe. The first time I made it I had a dumb and forgot flour... you know, the main ingredient in bread. I need more hobbies that keep my hands busy because when I run out of chores, my manic episode worsens, and I feel as though I want to crawl out of my skin and scream.

Bipolar really is something.

artwork by loi-loi

I've fallen back into drama youtube. Specifically, Gorlworld. I only really seen stuff on Amberlynne Reed, but wow... how do I get out?