Got Put On Olanzapine...

I recently got noise cancelling headphones because I have a lot of sensory issues and misophonia. I have been hesitant to use them because I don't want them to be a crutch but that's stupid. If you need to wear headphones to do the dishes because the sound of silverware clanking together makes you feel like dying then do it. If you need that aid then use it.

if I gain one more pound on this zyprexa I'm gonna snap

maybe i’m just projecting but i think there’s an inherent loneliness in living with a severe mental illness that makes you feel permanently estranged from others and long for the kind of connection where you feel completely understood and accepted, all while knowing other people have their own stuff to deal with or are just not equipped to ride out the worst of the illness with you. this leads to downplaying and/or hiding your symptoms as best you can, which takes even more of a psychological toll on you. this leads to not feeling loved as a complete person, and maybe not recognizing that love when it is present, or always fearing the day people have had enough and leave. even more so if this has already happened to you. it’s so exhausting and sad

bipolar is truly the everything illness. right now i just have symptoms. idk of what specifically this time but they’re definitely happening

the thing that drives me crazy about fibromyalgia is trying to explain it to people. yes i am in pain all the time. no i didn't do anything to get hurt. no it will almost definitely never go away entirely. no i don't know what caused it.

"so you're just going to be on pills your whole life" if the pills keep working, yeah, probably! i don't like being in pain!

honestly it’d probably be better for everyone involved if literally nobody ever spoke to me again

neurotypical psych majors’ vibes are so rancid 😷

if one more person tells me I'm stable when on abilify I haven't cried or felt excitement in MONTHS I'm gonna snap shut UP

I'm so sad my bones ache....