I Had A Dream The Other Night About Correcting People About My Name. They Kept Calling My My Cr Name,

This is straight up just going to be a rant about things and my own insecurities. I'm not expecting anybody to actually read or respond to this, it's just for me to write my emotions down somewhere where I feel like it matters

First thing. I'm terrified of posting anything anywhere. I don't take criticism very well, and I'm scared of getting hate for things I talk about. When it comes to reality shifting things and my art.

I never post my art anywhere. Not because I think it's bad. I actually think my artwork is good. I beleove I'm good ag character design, and shading and all that. What I am insecure about is that I can't draw poses or anatomy whatsoever. I've tried and tried and I can never get it right, and I've been drawing for about 7 years or so. I always use a pose ref I find in pintrest to draw. I'm scared people will hate me for doing that, so I never post my art anywhere. I hardly even show my close friends my drawings.

Another thing, I think I act far to childish for my age. I'm gonna be 20 in a couple months, but I daydream and qander around my room and act like scenarios like a child would.

If I get interested in a topic or Fandom I make a self insert oc or character cause I wanna imagine I'm in whatever I'm focused on. I give these characters names I'd like being called, or multiple characters from diffrent shows/games/fandoms the same name cause I veiw these characters more as myself than a fictional character. I think this is pretty childish as well.

There are so many things I do that I absolutely hate about myself. Maybe voicing these things will make me feel better. Maybe I'll find some people who feel the same. Whatever. I just wanted to voice some things. I'm really not expecting anybody to interact with this shit show of a post.

Omg I'd love to hear!!!

I genuinely need to talk more about shifting on here because I need more shifting friends and I'm lowkey depressed and want to feel better by getting to my Dr so I can be around my 6'4 military boyfriend who I want to use as a weighted blanket

I wanna see my husband soo bad

My husband being a goopy skeleton mam who feeds off of negativity. Specifically the version of him from the "Reeftale: Call of the Abyss" fanfiction cause why not

they're here. fucking fuck they're here and there's already misinformation being spread. we need to hide.

𝒊'𝒎 𝒌𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈.

welcome, shifttokers! we're glad you could join us, and we're happy to teach you anything you want to know! however, the community over here is a bit (vastly) different than it is on tiktok. so a few rules: 1: if you don't like it, scroll past it. if you notice this person on your dash a few times and you still don't like them, block them. there won't be hard feelings. you just don't like them. it's that simple; we're mature enough to handle it. 2: no one's d/r is 'wrong'. you can script anything at all into any universe at all. if you believe that someone can imagine a whole reality, build a d/r or w/r from scratch, but you don't believe they can script 'unnatural' stuff, like a loved one being alive or a pet living forever, then you need to reevaluate your opinions. 3: we listen and we don't judge. sometimes, you'll see people 'judging' each other, but that tends to be between friends (i.e. me and @shiftingwithmars about anything with ethan or me and @zipper-is-ranting anytime i mention the person i like in this reality). yes, some of us have hooker or sugar baby d/rs. some of us have severely traumatic d/rs. and it's not your place to tell another shifter what they can or can't do in their d/r. it's their d/r. you don't have to go. 4: learn about loa. please, please dedicate a little time to learning about the law of assumption, it's so so helpful when you're shifting.

having said all that, i really do hope that you can enjoy your time on shiftblr! it's a lovely community, and i really do think you'll enjoy yourselves here.

𝒃𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅, 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒂𝒇𝒆, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒇𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈!

That's exactly what it feels like! I've tried to get excited about it but I just can't

I have no idea why but recently I've had no intrest in shifting. Like none at all. I don't think about any of my drs like at all anymore and I can't put my finger on why. It's frustrating and I can't tell if it's a good think I'm not obsessing or if It's a bad thing.

I'm not sure what else to say I usualy just rant on here

I haven't fully gotten my excitement back for shifting. My love and care for it seems to just have disappeared. Though I love the idea of shifting to undertale. Mostly because I think it's a nice place where I can be chill and not have to worry about anything eith some of my comfort characters

I'm trying to think about more details for my call of duty dr which is my main Dr.

Things in trying to figure out is which part of England woild I live in? In my Dr I'm from Ireland thoigh my families moved to England when I was around idk between 6-14

I imagine my parents have g a farm in the countryside, and I'm loving in an apartment in a bigger town/city thoigh I know very little about England and would love some help lol

Neurotypical writers giving advice: Be realistic with your goals. Try to outline or write a little every day. Refill the well. Get yourself a cup of tea and write for 30 minutes until the tea is empty. Check in daily with your accountability buddies for the next three to six months.

ADHD writers giving advice: Put on a movie that matches the tone of your novel to kickstart your dopamine and get into hyperfocus, then put a song on loop on noise-cancelling headphones, livestream your writing session so you feel watched and owe someone accountability, and write as much as you can for as long as you can. Don't forget to eat, sleep or drink. Now go write that novel in 5 days.

Yall, I'm still not 100% back into shifting, but I've gotten hyper fixated on Avatar and Pandora, and I want to be in the beautiful world, a lot more than I have any other place before. It just seems like it'll be such a peaceful place to be, minus all the war that happens in the movies. I'm not sure who I'll be or how I'll start my script for it, but I want to make one. I love the idea of shifting there

hi everyone! so for my first tip for shifting, i’m going to start off with something simple. pls remember that these may not work for everyone, i’m just sharing with what works for me. and also, remember you shouldn’t shift as an escape, but rather to learn and expand your knowledge.

so you might be anxious to shift, let’s say, harry potter, and your attempts haven’t been successful. well, the same thing happened to me. no matter how many times i tried, it just wouldn’t happen.

but then i thought “hm, why don’t i try something easier?” which at first, i really didn’t want to do. i just wanted to get to my dr. but this genuinely helped me after i tried it. i shifted to a field of flowers (with some visual help from pinterest, which i highly recommended). it was easy, calming, and gave me the confidence to shift to harry potter the next week. and guess what? it worked!

tldr: shift to somewhere simple first, like a lake, or a field of flowers. that doesn’t require too much planning (though you should always have a script ready) and doesn’t have a lot of components. instead of jumping into the deep end, wade your way through the shallower parts first :)

- love, a.p.