Friendly Reminder That According To The Ec, Aaron Was Already In Wymack's Radar Before He Found Out About

Nathaniel is Jean's broken promise.

Jean is Neil's "what if..."

What if Mary didn't give a fuck about her son, just like Jean's parents didn't? What if she didn't love him enough to try to save him? What if they didn't run away?

Sold to Moriyama and Riko specifically, given a number on his cheek, broken, scared, tortured and raped.

Jean-yves Moreau is Nathaniel Wesninski Neil Josten barely managed to avoid becoming

real footage of me rn

Y’all we just got a RELEASE DATE how the fuck are we not trending???? how the fUCK ARE WE NOT LOSING OUR MINDS??? TEN DAYS YALL!!! TEN!!!!

render practice with joseph "homotron 5000" kavinsky

We talk about Neil throwing the glass at Aaron a lot but I’ve never seen anything about him also throwing the alarm clock. Dudes been awake for five minutes, four of which he’s throwing up, and the second he hears Aaron’s voice he’s hurling an alarm clock across the room at him. Poor Aaron.

post-win andreil bone crushing hug at the olympics. injected into. my veins

Watching Harry Potter's as marauders fan be like:

Am I just too obsessed with marauders, especially slytherin skittles. Like for example

- Harry walked to the platform 9¾ and all I think is that marauders and skittles walked many years ago on the same platform, going to hogwarts

- Harry asking the truth about his scar, Hagrid saying that there is bad wizards too. All I think about is Regulus, Barty and Evan. (don't get me wrong I love them but that doesn't change the fact they we're deatheaters.

- Ron introducing Scabbers to Harry, all I think is wormtail.

- Seeing great hall for the first time and I'm thinking all the convos that marauders, valkyries and skittles had there. All the drama.

- Seeing McGonagall, thinking about all the drama she had to solve when the marauders we're at Hogwarts

- Ron whispering to Harry that all bad wizards come from Slytherin and I'm thinking about skittles (again don't get me wrong)

These were just about the first book but you get the idea 😭

actually can’t wait to see the graphic novel design for K

i have a problem BECAUSE HEARTBREAK HIGH X THE RAVEN CYCLE CROSSOVERS ARE MAKING ME GO FUCKING CRAZY AND I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT THIS (this shit is full of shit and long, but hmo)

I am talking about Cash & Chook = Ronan & Kavinsky parallels, you see

Chook & Kavinsky are pretty obvious, i think. Both are from fucked up families, we can assume both are from families with drug problems and overall substance abuse. They both were kids whose fate was pretty much laid infront of them to follow.

Ronan and Ca$h, also pretty fucked up families, parents gone, not many people from family to lean on, choosing found families, choosing to get better. (word of the day) Also both, are connected to self harming in a way or another.

We also have the scene in HBH where Woodsy calls Chook by his real name (Michael Cooper) and Chook shouts

"That's not my name!"

I am aware this is very subtle and on the border of overanalyzing (and might just be the characters whose pov Kavinsky was told from) but not a single character in trc has called Kavinsky only by his first name (hear me out now)

Later on when Chook and Cash are stuck in the middle of the lake we get to know how Ca$h got his name, Chook saying that he gave Ca$h his name. So I can only assume Chook also gave himself a name. Maybe to be separated as a person from the person he was before.

How we get to Kavinsky is that maybe Kavinsky is all the same, separating his own persona from him by only using his family name.

Getting to other parallels, (now remember Ronan = Cash)

We don't know shit about details (whats that? never heard?) but we can assume.

Chook was the one who helped Ca$h before Nan was in the picture, gave Ca$h a name, a place, a family (more or less), a place to belong

Kavinsky offered all the same, obviously we know that there was some sexual attraction and tension and just Kavinsky pining. But Kavinsky asked Ronan to be one of his, offered Ronan a place to belong, where Ronan could shamelessly be himself. Kavinsky saw all of Ronan what Gansey didn't want to know and acknowledge, that Ronan could be the same as Kavinsky and is the same as Kavinsky, dangerous, destructive, the list goes on.

Ca$h, young Ca$h didn't have anyone else than Chook, but then he did. Then he did have Darren, Harper, Quinni, Amerie, all of them. There isnt such a difference. Kavinsky doesn't have anything else (worth staying for, it seems) but Ronan has Gansey, has Gangsey.

Chook had chosen his lifestyle, Cash even offered Chook that he could change too, Chook declined and said that its his shit. He chose his future.

Kavinsky, too, had chosen his lifestyle, or maybe either of them couldn't think that they could get away from it. He chose his fate, by not getting down and getting killed by his own demon. It was his shit.

So back to the lake scene, now paralleling the last dreaming day and 4th of July.

Let me put these two scenes here, first from TRC

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The difference between us and Kavinsky, Gansey whispered in Ronan’s head, is we matter.

“You don’t fucking need him,” Kavinsky said.

Ronan released the parking brake.

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Chook: Look can we stop fucking about please. You're one of us. So why don't we just cut the shit and get back to how things were?

Cash: You don't get it, I can't.

Both, at the end refused to get back to whatever it was they had, they chose to get better.

While Chook & Kavinsky didn't. (yes im repeating this because theres so so so so so many times Ronan offered a possibility to Kavinsky and Kavinsky didn't take it because he couldn't have Ronan anyway (Cash wasn't that hopeful and asked only once))

Now, there's (still the lake) scene where Chook talks about how it was "me, who took care of you, me who.. , me me me." and theres Kavinsky, who taught Ronan how to dream.

More lines !

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Cash: I haven't been taken in by some other world. I just saw ours for what it was. And it made me sick.

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Going to how Cash and Ronan both, realised that the world they lived/could've chosen is not good. Is the wrong way and leads to more harm than good.

To the last part.

Cash telling Chook that he'd rather be dead than come back to Chook, go back to the world he now despises, (or always has.)

There's the way that Chook breaks when he hears that. The blinks his tears away, nods, gulps, sniffs, turns away and grunts, spits, acting fine. Tries the boat again and says, "Guess I just needed to show it a bit of love."

Now I haven't been able to actually get full sense of that line yet, but theres a deeper meaning to that (which rlly fucking annoys me that i dont know) But theres also Kavinsky when Ronan leaves the new dreamt up Camaro, hitting air, turning around, threatening, his voice shifting, expressing his feelings with rage but still hiding them. Like Chook did.

I'm aware there's probably many stories like this with character's like these, but their actions too, their personalities (not Ronan and Cash so much but I can see a (canon) Kavinsky variant in Chook, both running around with their pack of dogs.)

Anyway if you're as fucked as me and read this through, lmk what you think, (i repeated the same things over and over again but spare me)

my markers were in order like this and my only thought is is Neil Josten.