I'm Just Like. Always On The Verge Of Tears. If I Sit Still For Too Long And Don't Have Something To

Life in an Autism World

I have two little boys.. can’t wait

Oh I’m so gonna do this with my brother

You've heard of adhd/autism supremacy, now get ready for the ot3 equivalent:

Adhd/autism/anxiety

When you tell them you have ADHD and autism and they say that's fine but then they find out it's not cutesy collecting hello Kitty and bouncy stimming autism and oopsie I can't pay attention ADHD,

its I can't go in the grocery store I can't vacuum I can't do dishes because of the sensory overload

it's we can go eat at a restaurant but as soon as I start getting overwhelmed I'm going to shut down completely and dissociate but tell you I'm fine

It's please snuggle me but I have to keep my headphones on because hearing is too much right now

It's thank you this new shirtjacketbraceletnecklace you bought me is amazing and I love it but I can't wear it because it feels weird

It's I love you but sometimes your voice is too much noise and I can't look into your eyes

It's I need you near me but please don't touch me or talk or breathe too loud or cough because my brain feels like it's about to explode

It's I'm sorry I forgot you asked me to do the dishes but I know when your entire family's birthdays are and will never forget them

It's I meant to cook dinner four hours ago but I got lost in my brain and I just found my way back out and realized it's already 10pm

I remember a while ago there were several metas talking about Bucky being right-handed (which he then confirms in TFATWS) while the Winter Soldier is left-handed, usually using this scene as proof:

And maybe even this:

But recently I saw several gif sets of Bucky on the train right before the fall (one of which I’ll reblog after this) and look:

He’s moving the gun between his left hand and right hand interchangeably, even when the right arm is not injured. In a later scene, he takes down the trooper with a single shot with left-handed aim — so he’s no slouch on that side. He then goes back to using his right hand when he picks up the shield.

On the converse, the Winter Soldier also uses his right hand and left hand interchangeably, notably in that scene:

In fact I think if you do an overall tally of how both Bucky and the Winter Soldier reach for their weapons — whether that’s a rocket launcher or a gun or knives — you’ll find that the majority of the time it’s in their right hand (just a quick GIF search would prove this). But the times they do use it in their left hand, they are still dangerously competent with it.

So I think Bucky (and the Winter Soldier) is right-hand dominant as he says, but he’s learned to use his left hand competently as a shooter before became the Winter Soldier. He’s then turned it into a useful skill to throw off his opponents.

Up until this point he’s been trying to stab Steve with his right hand, but Steve keeps blocking it with his shield. When Bucky drops the knife into his left hand, Steve’s attention follows the knife and Bucky instead uses his right hand to punch Steve in the head.

I think another part of the “Winter Soldier is left-handed” thought comes from the fact he often uses the left arm for brute force tasks - like ripping off doors from cars and helicopters, and punching into cement.

For most of us, our dominant hand is both the stronger and more dextrous hand, but for Bucky his right hand is more dextrous while his left arm is stronger (we’ll just accept the science of that for now…). So I feel like this is something that Bucky has learned to adapt — he uses that left arm for tasks that require the mechanical strength or as a metal shield, while the right is still his instinctive go-to for fine coordination tasks.

How, why, and when Bucky learned to be ambidextrous not just for firearms but also for hand to hand combat is a delicious source of angst worth exploring.

I did that, twice. They’re both living other lives now.

Someone did that for me, once. We got married

Am I the only one who stims by singing? Please tell me I’m not the only one

How is that so hot omfg

Did you know they could do that?

No.

SEBASTIAN STAN as Bucky Barnes in THE FALCON AND THE WINTER SOLDIER (2021). Dir. by Kari Skogland.

Episode 4: The Whole World is Watching.