No no you don't understand! I want to watch this show/movie, read this book, listen to this podcast, etc.! But I must be in the right mindset and the exact head space to begin, or I just can't!
there are two sides of neurodivergency: socially awkward and awkwardly social.
SEBASTIAN STAN
For Men's Health magazine (2019)
“Tony Stark officially dies toda-“
SHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Shh!
He’s fine and thriving actually, he’s running a little farm with Steve Rogers he told me himself ❤️💛
I volunteer!
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“Hey, Bucky?” you turn on your side to face him.
“Yes, doll?”
“Are missions scary?” you wonder.
He tilts his head and shrugs, “Not really.”
“But what about all the scary guys with guns and those aliens?” your brows furrow.
“I’m used to it,” the corners of his lips curve upwards, “You’re dating an old, wise one-hundred-year-old man, Y/N.” He leans up to kiss your forehead, “I’ve seen the world.”
You huff, “Well then what are you afraid of?”
Bucky reaches his hand out to you. He caresses your cheek and moves your stray hairs behind your ear, “Losing you.”
ADHD at night: I could write a book. I could get my Master’s Degree. I could go to the club and come home with 12 new friends. I could get a job at that club and meet the mother of my children. I could cure every disease and use my wealth to bring world peace.
ADHD during the day: Fold laundry too hard :( Come back next week
some days i'm okay, and then i remember that not only are steve and bucky so in love it hurts, not only are they best-friends-since-childhood, inseparable by definition, they are first and foremost family. and not by blood either - they found each other. they chose each other.
and that's literally all they've been telling each other throughout the entire fucking trilogy
“I choose you”
“I choose you”
“I choose you”
“I choose you”
“I choose you”
“I choose you”
“I choose you”
“I choose you”
AND BY THIS POINT I'M NOT OKAY ANYMORE
I remember a while ago there were several metas talking about Bucky being right-handed (which he then confirms in TFATWS) while the Winter Soldier is left-handed, usually using this scene as proof:
And maybe even this:
But recently I saw several gif sets of Bucky on the train right before the fall (one of which I’ll reblog after this) and look:
He’s moving the gun between his left hand and right hand interchangeably, even when the right arm is not injured. In a later scene, he takes down the trooper with a single shot with left-handed aim — so he’s no slouch on that side. He then goes back to using his right hand when he picks up the shield.
On the converse, the Winter Soldier also uses his right hand and left hand interchangeably, notably in that scene:
In fact I think if you do an overall tally of how both Bucky and the Winter Soldier reach for their weapons — whether that’s a rocket launcher or a gun or knives — you’ll find that the majority of the time it’s in their right hand (just a quick GIF search would prove this). But the times they do use it in their left hand, they are still dangerously competent with it.
So I think Bucky (and the Winter Soldier) is right-hand dominant as he says, but he’s learned to use his left hand competently as a shooter before became the Winter Soldier. He’s then turned it into a useful skill to throw off his opponents.
Up until this point he’s been trying to stab Steve with his right hand, but Steve keeps blocking it with his shield. When Bucky drops the knife into his left hand, Steve’s attention follows the knife and Bucky instead uses his right hand to punch Steve in the head.
I think another part of the “Winter Soldier is left-handed” thought comes from the fact he often uses the left arm for brute force tasks - like ripping off doors from cars and helicopters, and punching into cement.
For most of us, our dominant hand is both the stronger and more dextrous hand, but for Bucky his right hand is more dextrous while his left arm is stronger (we’ll just accept the science of that for now…). So I feel like this is something that Bucky has learned to adapt — he uses that left arm for tasks that require the mechanical strength or as a metal shield, while the right is still his instinctive go-to for fine coordination tasks.
How, why, and when Bucky learned to be ambidextrous not just for firearms but also for hand to hand combat is a delicious source of angst worth exploring.