What Would Happen If I Made Jimmy Ace…

thinking about how if darry hadn’t turned on soda, ponyboy might justve went to his room and cried. bc the thing is he thinks darry is being irrational but he knows how stupid he sounded he sounded saying he forgot (“It sounded dumb, even to me, when I stammered […]”)

up until this point, it’s a one sided argument all most. like in the musical i could argue (not very well) that pony eggs darry on the entire argument but in the book i think i’d say he’s more docile (?) meek (?? neither the right word but alas).

for example

“I ran home, trembling at the thought of facing Darry.”

“He was on his feet in a second. I stood there, chewing on my fingernail.”

““Where the heck have you been? Do you know what time it is?" He was madder than I'd seen him in a long time. I shook my head wordlessly.”

“It sounded dumb, even to me, when I stammered, "I... I went to sleep in the lot...”

“I didn't mean to." I pleaded with Darry.”

and then the most important part to this whole point i’m trying to make

“I felt hot tears of anger and frustration rising. "I said I didn't mean to...”

darry’s been hollering at him the entire time and it took this long for pony to finally get frustrated and angry too and even still. even still pony doesn’t yell back. even still pony bites his tongue and lets his words fizzle out. bc it would’ve been real easy to shout it but he doesn’t.

he’s likely mostly frustrated with himself. because yeah ok darrel maybe he hasn’t been using his head as much lately, but he doesn’t know why. all he knows is that he’s been forgetting things more and more and he does things like fall asleep in the lot with nothing but a sleeveless sweatshirt and here’s darry yelling like pony did it on purpose. but he didn’t do it on purpose he didn’t mean to.

and pony gets it, he has been saying that a lot lately. he gets why darry is starting to get upset at the repetitiveness of it; pony’s probably tired of saying it himself.

despite all this pony wasn’t going to engage in the argument until soda spoke up. until soda spoke up and darry shot him down. bc for all intent and purposes, in pony’s mind that is, soda is one connection to this family. soda is the only hint that the family he knows and love didn’t completely leave him eight months ago. bc he hardly recognizes darry and he’s half convinced himself that if not for soda darry would throw him in a home.

so no “no one should ever holler at my brother” bc in his mind, in his puberty stricken mind that’s still grieving his father and older brother, sodas the only real family he’s got left.

this is emitting an unusual amount of parry energy

this is what the inside of my brain looks like

RIP Steve Randle I know that man would have hated modern cars

IM CRYINF SOBBING /POS WE NEED TO TALK ABT THEM MORE MY BABIES AHHH I LVOE THEM I LCOE U SOOS MUCH THANK H FOR MAKKNG FBIS IKYTLILY MWAHHHH

Stevepop Drag Racing Au OCs!

Jimmy Gray (L) & Ray Baker (R)

Ahem… @broareweabouttoviberightnow …

Jimmy Gray (Made by @dolliemarionette)

basic info

name: James Gray

nickname(s): Jimmy, known as Jimmy by most.

age: 17

bday: September 17

pronouns: He/him

identity: Bisexual (closeted)

class: greaser

personality

descriptives: bitchy, lowk a brat, rude, conceited, “im better than you” syndrome.

appearance

height: 5’10

eye color: green

hair color: light brown

skin tone: white

Backstory:

James’s parents are out of the picture. Yes, they’re there but they aren’t there. His older brother was though. His older brother was his hero, and also a drag racer. He was a reckless driver when James wasn’t in the car though, and that’s how he lost his life. That’s when James lost everything, and gained such a controlling nature. that didn’t stop him from racing every day either, he raced as soon as he could get his hands on a car so he could try to live up to his brother.

Ray Baker:

basic info

name: Ray Baker

nickname(s): None

age: 17

bday: July 24th

pronouns: He/him

identity: Pansexual

class: greaser

personality

descriptives: Follower, golden-retriever, yes-man, hype man, ‘sidekick’, pushover

appearance

height: 6’

eye color: blue

hair color: black, ‘light’ black

skin tone: white

Backstory:

Always one upped by his younger sister, Ray has never lived in a world where he’s good enough. Not for his parents, his friends, his teachers, anyone. You know how they say it’s better to be third place than second? Well, Ray is proof of that. Always runner up, never winning, someone’s always better than him at something. That’s why when he met Jimmy and he started to win, he stayed. Despite how mean Jimmy may be, Ray knows he’s a good person. Why else would he let such dead weight race with him?

I made these ocs for fun bc every good story needs antagonists amiright 😼, they probably won’t show up in the fic im writing, maybe mentioned, but they’re supposed to be rival racers who always are the ones to either beat Soda & Steve or come right behind them in the race. You can see what kinda dynamic I was going for with them.

Drawings I made of them:

I knew House was a bottom

Was listening to the Ultraviolence album when I came up with this edit

If you start playing with Darry’s hair (running your fingers through it, massaging his scalp, etc.) that man will be out like a light in SECONDS. It’s how his Mama used to comfort him so now he associates it with being safe and secure.

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one more night thinking about the fact that Dally gave his ring to Sylvia