Digiidigiie - Digi ⚚

Suddenly rotting in my bed is the only thing I do .

Do you know i am going to leave you?

I hate the feeling of wanting to throw up…

Typing this bcuz I want to eat something not bcuz I’m hungry. I’m just bored and I got nothing else to do.

I shouldn’t eat bcuz I weigh 125lbs and I need to lose weight. This is embarrassing and I used to weigh about 105-110lbs at the beginning of January. I want to be back at 110lbs. My gw is 100lbs and my Ugw is 93-95lbs

I thr0w up food every one in a while, but if I eat something that’s really sweet. Sometimes when when I’m not hungry, I eat something

So therefore I have to thr0w it up

I also realized that when used to throw up every day and ever time ate, it would get extremely hard for food to come out. It became so exhausting to the point I would see stars and on the verge of blacking out

I just want to be able to wear cute clothes without worrying about if you can see my stomach

I just a flat stomach and a thigh gap

I REALLY want to lose weight around my face. I just want my face to look sick, skinny, and hollow

That’s why I shouldn’t eat at all

Eating snacks is useless

I guess if it’s low calorie it’s ok? Then again just bcuz it’s low calorie doesn’t mean it’s no calories it doesn’t mean shit bcuz calories are still calories .

Then again it’s a bit harder for me to lose weight bcuz I have type 1 diabetes. Which stupid as hell bcuz I was even overweight as a child.

At the end of the day I shouldn’t eat. I should only eat if it’s having breakfast with my family and having dinner. That’s it

Brad Renfro on the set of Bully (dir. Larry Clark, 2001), 2000.

🫧As a kid I’ve never wanted to do anything with my life. When I got asked what I wanted to do I responded with:

“I want to be a veterinarian “

(I never wanted to be that )

As a child I was just living life

I’m 19 and I still don’t know what to with my life

I seriously don’t want to to do anything, but that’s not a choice

I have to be someone,

Even tho I don’t want to be anyone🐇