Stressed Out, Need A Cig And A Heavy Make Out Sesh Asap

this is what they texted me:

“You just are always so worried about so many things pertaining to talking to me & idk why you’re stressing yourself out so much”

for the last week i’ve been rereading it and like trying to understand how they know me more than my friends.

beauty, overwhelming

i will dislocate my jaw to fit it all in

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pussy from a girl with a questionable online presence

i see my future, and it's taking care of my butch. whether that's cooking their favourite food or giving them a massage after a long day at work. i want to shower them with gifts. i'll get them whatever they desire. i'll listen to all their troubles while i hold them and give them kisses.

‘ulla in her room’ (1998) by chloe sherman

tw: sh

everytime i’ve talked to someone and the doctors about my mental health they’ve just assumed im a teenage girl who’s going through it and like that it’s regular degular shit and there’s this underlying comment that ‘at least you’re not harming yourself’ WHEN I AM! like yes i am and the marks are visible and my mom literally mentioned how the scars couldn’t be scratches.. like i don’t know how them knowing would help but maybe acknowledging that im not lying when i say i dont want to live would be a start.

genuinely me right now

Party Girl (1995) dir. Daisy Von Scherler Mayer

thinking about how last year when i was genuinely going through it because of a situationship and how in the midst of it all i was having so much fun and how this year im going THROUGH it and i can’t even blame her.

i think about how it was the first time i really liked someone and that i could see it evolving from simple messages and how i was so forthcoming with what i liked and how much they meant to me. and told them how id appreciate it back but never got that. im so glad its over and i don’t harp on it anymore but its like will someone communicate like how i do.

i want someone to tell me they hate me or that they need me or that they don’t want me. i genuinely don’t care if it’s a negative thing i just would rather it be communicated.