I’m So Tired Of Having A Lucid Dream Every Time I Sleep. I Miss Having Normal Dreams. Why Do I Have

tw - mention of mh, od, ed

i’ve wasted my years wishing i was somewhere else.

i wanted to shift so badly that i stop caring about my life here. i’m not living, i’m just existing.

shifting is a big reason why i’m still alive today but i don’t have a healthy relationship with it. i remember when i gave up on shifting back in 2021 and i attempted to take my own life. i was so hopeless.

five years of shifting and i mini-shifted(?) once. i’ve wasted 5 years of my life to the desire to escape. i could’ve studied and went to college but i didn’t. why would i, when i can just shift? but i couldn’t shift and i wasted my time. shifting never solved my problems, only helped me escape. it didn’t heal my depression, anxiety and ed. it just gave me hope. it was just a distraction from my sad life.

i want to be happy here, i wanna stop wanting to escape. i want to get a life. i’m almost 21 and i’m a mess. my life is a mess.

i’m going to change that. i’m going to appreciate this life and manifest making it better. i’m giving life another chance. i’m going to change myself and my life.

is this giving up on shifting? i don’t know, maybe. i’m forever grateful to know about shifting but i just really need to change the way i view shifting. i need to change my life first but i can’t give up on shifting. i have to shift.

“i have to! because if i don’t, that means all the damage i got isn’t good damage, it’s just damage.“

i’m going to start appreciating my life. i’m gonna start living. for most my whole life i was just existing but im gonna change that now.

this shouldn’t be just my “current reality” or “original reality”. this should be a reality that i enjoy.

i’m not gonna wait for shifting just to live, i’m going to live now.

UPDATE: i hate this reality nvm

intention

i feel like if i work on my intention i can shift easily. as a person w depression i always intent to do something but i dont actually do it. example: i say im gonna clean my room, do that, do this but i often end up not having motivation or energy to do it. so i decided before i do anything even small things im gonna intent to do it. so that my subconscious believes me ig lol. i thouht about making my intention stronger before but ive never eally done it. lets go home

tw vent

i gave up on shifting a while ago but i hate it here i can’t do this i’m so tired it’s been so long i found about shifting back in 2019 september why am i still here i tried everything i even gave up and focused on my cr only i tried psychk i tried subliminals i tried every method i tried reprogramming my subconscious mind i tried everything i can’t do this anymore i don’t wanna live here my mental health got worse again i don’t know what to do i don’t know if i should completely give up on my dreams and my life or try again

Manifested my desired tablet With SATS. So grateful but I'd rather shift . its gonna be useful for scripting though. I gotta Work on My beliefs and mindset

There is no ‘original reality’ you are not stuck here. You found shifting for a reason and YOU WILL MAKE IT. Failure does not exist.

Shifting to escape this reality

Shifting to be with someone

Shifting to relive ur childhood or ur teenage yrs

Shifting to heal

All these reasons are valid. Don't let anyone tell u that ur reasons are not valid.

Found out who's been sabotaging my shifting journey

I'm shifting realities for the girl

Who didn't get her hogwarts letter at age 11

Who didn't go to high school or fell in love with vampires

Who wished she had real friends and a lover

Who wished her favorite fictional characters were real

Who wanted to be seen and loved for once

Who cried to herself to sleep because she didn't wanna be here

𖤐✮⋆˙♱ HOW TO ASSUME INSTANTLY ♱˙⋆✮ ✮𖤐

You assume it on knowing that it has already happened. There is no “how” because it is not an effort, it is a natural state. You simply know that you already have it. In the same way that you know your name without having to constantly reaffirm it, you know that you already have everything you want.

If you feel yourself questioning or doubting, go back to the feeling of already being the person who has it. Ask yourself: If I already had it all right now, how would I feel? How would I think? What would I do? And just embody that version of you.

Just affirm it, feel it and don't contradict it. And if you have to do something contrary or think something contrary, >know< in the exactly same way that it doesn't change anything. Accept that It's simple and easy.