bro I love this so much it hurts
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐: ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐๐ง'๐ญ ๐๐จ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ
โฌ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐ : ๐๐๐ซ๐ค ๐๐จ๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ๐ง๐ ๐ฑ ๐ ๐๐ฆ๐๐ฅ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ซ
โฌ ๐ ๐๐ง๐ซ๐: ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ฌ!๐๐, ๐๐๐!๐๐๐ฒ, ๐ฌ๐๐๐ซ๐๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ฒ!๐ซ๐๐๐๐๐ซ
โฌ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐ญ: ๐.๐๐ค
โฌ ๐ฌ๐ฒ๐ง๐จ๐ฉ๐ฌ๐ข๐ฌ: ๐๐ฐ๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐จ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐, ๐ญ๐ฐ๐จ ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ซ๐ข๐๐ฌ, ๐ญ๐ฐ๐จ ๐๐ข๐๐๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ญ ๐ก๐๐๐ซ๐ญ๐ฌ, ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ญ๐๐ฅ ๐๐ข๐ญ๐ฒ. ๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ข๐ง ๐ฐ๐ก๐ข๐๐ก ๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ซ๐๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ฒ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ญ๐จ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฆ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ ๐ง๐๐ฐ ๐๐ซ๐๐๐ญ๐ก ๐จ๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ก ๐๐ข๐ซ ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฅ๐ข๐๐ ๐จ๐ ๐๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ'๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐๐๐ฆ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฎ๐ง๐ญ๐จ๐ฎ๐๐ก๐๐๐ฅ๐ ๐๐๐.
With a soft sigh, you close the chat with your closest friends, the soft jazz music finally making its way to your ears as you meet the gaze of your uber driver through his rear view mirror. A gentle expression grazes his eyes, as if he could sense your current state of struggle and somehow attempted to ease those thoughts and doubts.
But he doesn't actually know that you're on your way to your boss's penthouse apartment to bring him soup in hopes of winning his heart over or at least receive a single word of affirmation and praise from him.
And he actually can't read your mind or tell just how mean your brain's gotten these past few minutes, but all you do is smile back at him, wordlessly letting him know just how much you appreciate his concern.
You don't want to let your friends' words get to you, yet with every second you can't help but lose yourself in the worst case scenarios and actualy fear consume your body. The mere thought of your boss scolding you for doing something so unprofessional and inappropriate has an ice cold shiver find its way down your spine but before you get the chance to actually change your mind, the car comes to a halt.
Maybe it's the fact you grew up in a rather poor part of your hometown or maybe it's because you tend to forget just how rich Park Jongseong is, but either way you find yourself standing in front of his huge apartment building, wondering how one can actually afford living there.
Your eyes roam every little detail of it, only for your heart to skip a beat as soon as you realise that you simply can't enter the building without Jongseong letting you in first.
For a moment, you actually, genuinely consider going home and just throwing away every single part of your little plan, but the tiny little voice in the back of your head is loud enough to convince you to just pull through with it.
That's how you find yourself at the reception of Park Jongseong's apartment complex, something you believed to be a made up concept of rich people in movies and dramas, casually telling the woman in front of you who you've come for.
"Mr. Park Junior didn't tell me about any guests for tonight", the young lady says, her voice slightly condescending and as her eyes roam your body, you can't help but regret your choice of outfit. Maybe you should have dressed up a little more formally than your jeans-hoodie combination but at the end of the day you're pretty sure she would have judged you either way.
"He doesn't know about my visit", you say and try your best to hide how much her attitude intimidates you, "could you maybe tell him that Y/N's here to drop off something?"
"We don't just call Mr. Park Junior for random night time visits", yet again, the brunette makes sure to belittle you with just her tone and all you can do is sigh softly in response.
"I'll call him then." You don't even look at her as you turn around and pull your phone out, your bottom lip firmly tugged between your teeth as you try your best to stay calm.
Dialing your boss's number has never been easy ever since you've started working for him, yet this time you can actually feel your heart thrumming in your throat and the blood rushing in your ears as it rings.
It doesn't take longer than a few seconds for Jongseong to pick up your call; your number the only one besides his boys and his mother he's put on the list of exceptions when he's got his phone on 'do not disturb'.
He knows it's wrong but using the excuse of your new position as his personal assistant easily overshadows his actual intentions. Is he a bad boss because he wants to be available for you all the time? Or is it considered inappropriate? Either way, Jay simply can't get himself to care enough to overthink it.
After taking complete advantage of his first day off in months, Jay actually feels energetic enough to sit himself up, casually ignoring just how excited and nervous he is about the fact that you're calling him. He can't help but wonder if you've missed him, only to mentally slap himself for even allowing those thoughts to enter his head.
He's your boss, why the fuck would you miss him?
"Hello?" The soft sound of your pretty voice takes him aback and for a moment he actually feels dizzy again, yet quickly regains his composure.
"Yes, Y/N, how can I help you?" As he speaks, Jongseong genuinely hopes you can't hear the excitement wavering in his tone, too afraid you'd misinterpret his reaction to you.
"Misinterpret".
"I really hope this isn't inappropriate, Sir but I'm โ uhm โ in the lobby of your apartment building because I wanted to drop off some of the soup I made for you." The words just leave your mouth, too fast for your brain to get the chance to overthink any of them and you actually catch yourself holding your breath as you wait for his reaction.
After a whole beat of silence, Jay finally manages to somehow form a response.
"I'll call the receptionist", is all he says before he hangs up and you find yourself slightly overwhelmed, not ready to face the young woman behind you.
It doesn't take longer than a a handful of minutes for you to find yourself at at the door to your boss's penthouse.
You don't really know what you expected, especially considering that he explicitly mentioned his current physical state, yet the sight of The Park Company's CEO in a pair of grew sweats and a black shirt, glasses comfortably placed on his nose, a completely bare face and messy hair was probably not the sight you had imagined.
But it quickly becomes your absolute favorite version of him.
Seeing him in such a...comfortable state feels a little surreal after only ever having seen him in his suits and daily clothes in the few weeks you've been working for him.
Jongseong, on the other side, doesn't get enough time to actually hide how much your sudden and unexpected presence flusters him as a deep blush covers the apples of his cheeks as well as his nose and ears all the way down to his neck. A single impulsive thought rushes through his head, but he does manage to stop himself from slamming the door in your face and simply accepts his current situation.
"I know you told me not to do it but I love taking care of people and this is my standard Y/N-care package, which includes beef soup, kimbap and some cookies", you explain and look at him with big eyes, trying your best to stop yourself from letting your gaze drop to his slightly exposed chest, as a tiny little black line poking out underneath his shirt on his right side catches your attention.
Jay loves the way you look at him. He's had so many woman look at him like that, yet your gaze just seems different than theirs. You don't just look at him with bedroom eyes, no. Your pretty eyes are filled with adoration and this hunger he can't put a name on.
And at first Jong struggled to understand why he enjoys your gaze until that one particular day where the two of you went into a meeting together and you were hiding behind him when all of these business men suddenly started talking to you. It's the fact that you're actively seeking his presence because you feel protected and safe with him which makes your needy eyes so different from all the others.
You actually need and want him in more ways than just sexual and Jong's afraid that's exactly what's going to make staying away from you so, so much more difficult.
"Here you go", you say after a whole minute of silence, "I hope you feel better soon, Sir. Please don't rush yourself to get back to work, Mr. Lee is taking great care of the office and all your meetings and appointments have been rescheduled to next week already."
Your words somehow manage to calm his chaotic thoughts down. Jongseong hadn't even realised how much he had been worrying about work until you mentioned it. He definitely feels better than just a few hours ago but the mere thought of getting up tomorrow morning and going through all those meetings and paper work has shivers run down his back. Knowing you've got it all under control eases his mind to the point where he actually doesn't feel guilty about staying home one more day.
"Thank you so much, Y/N", your boss replies calmly and takes the bag from you, his hand touching yours for a single second and still managing to send shivers down your spine.
"You're welcome, Sir", you whisper, a little too shy when his eyes find yours again and all you can do is smile softly at him.
"Have a good night and getโ", but Jongseong doesn't give you the opportunity to finish your sentence.
"Waitโ", he says quickly, subconsciously reaching for your wrist but immediately stopping himself before his skin can touch yours.
"Yes, Mr. Park? Is there anything else I can do for you?"
Your willingness to satisfy his every need is going to drive him into absolute insanity. Jongseong knows it's because you work for him, yet for some reason he can't help but feel like it's actually because you genuinely want to and not because you get paid for it.
His therapist is going to have a field day during their next session.
"You came all this way to drop these off, why don't you come in and have some coffee with me?"
He didn't mean to invite you into his apartment because he knows just how unprofessional and inappropriate it is, yet he can't even deny how badly he wants you to spend some more time with him. Especially after you've decided to keep your distance to him the past week.
"Oh", you reply softly, desperately suppressing the big smile threatning to form on your face, "sure, that's really kind of you. I hope I'm not overstepping any bound-"
"You're not, Y/N. I promise. Please, come on in."
You can't help but be visibly surprised about being interrupted by your boss for the second time within a few minutes, something he's never done before to you or basically anyone he's galked to in your presence.
But without giving it too many thoughts, you walk past him into the big hallway of his apartment, your face quickly giving away just how impressed you are and for a moment you simply feel embarrassed for being so obvious.
You wordlessly follow your boss into the living room and then the kitchen, your eyes eagerly roaming the huge spaces as if your brain couldn't comprehend the fact that this is really how some people live on the daily.
After moving out from your tiny childhood home, you thought your new two bedroom apartment was big, maybe because it was the first time in your life where you didn't have to share a room or a bed, yet seeing the way your rich boss lives, you can't say you don't feel the tiniest bit envious.
"Your apartment is very pretty, Sir", you say quietly, a little intimidated by the whole situation and if it wasn't for the physical exhaustion, Jay would have wholly appreciated your compliment.
The sight of you in his penthouse is something he's imagined way too many times in the past few weeks and he has absolutely no idea why. Just the mental image of watching you do the most basic tasks in his home instead of your own has brought him the type of comfort he's been craving so desperately all his life, and that's how he knew he fucked up.
This wasn't meant to happen. You're his secretary and personal assistant, he can't and won't ever have you. But why can't he stop imagining you as such a prominent part in his life to the point where he actually manages to get his own hopes all the way up to the sky?
"Thank you, Y/N", he replies and as soon as you look up to meet his exhausted gaze, an expression of genuine worry washes over your face and before he can even overthink it, he watches the way you approach him.
The feeling of your hand on his forehead is definitely not the next thing he expected, yet the cooling sensation your touch comes with easily overwhelms him.
"Sir, you're running a fever again", you say and only realise that your hand has found its way to his cheek when he slowly moves into your touch, a sight so sweet and gentle, your brain quickly makes sure it's forever engraved in your memory.
You don't pull away right away, but rather slowly to make sure he knows you regret your subconscious decision but also not take away the comfort it probably comes with.
"Yeah, I feel a little tired again. I think the meds have started to wear off."
Upon his confession, you basically push him to lay down on the couch again, quickly cleaning up the little mess of tissues and empty water bottles before making your way to the kitchen to reheat some of the soup.
Jongseong feels his lids growing heavier by the minute, yet he'd never miss the opportunity to watch you in his kitchen. The fact you seem to fit in perfectly makes all of his worries even worse because why the fuck did it have to be like this?
It doesn't take you longer than five minutes to come back with a bowl of hot soup and a spoon, a water bottle firmly tugged underneath your arm as you come to sit next to his head.
"I know you also told me you didn't need any meds but uhm, my grandmother swears on these and every time I catch a cold they save me from the worst. But I do understand if you don't wanna take them."
Your voice calms his heart and soul, your words barely reaching his brain as his whole attention remains on the way you sound and never once in his life did he ever think he'd want someone to talk to him forever.
"That's very kind, thank you", Jong whispers and caughs softly, his usually tanned skin slightly paler than usual and you hate the way your heart aches at the sight of it.
"I'm also making you one of my grandmother's remedy teas, I promise you'll feel better in no time."
For some reason, the fact you're so casually telling him about your family again makes him happier than it should. But does it make him a bad boss if he wants to know more about you and your upbringing? You're spending so much time with each other after all, it's the least he should want, right?
"Your grandmother sounds like a wise woman", he says softly and slowly tries his best to sit himself up, every single limb hurting like he he run against a wall with full force and as soon as he reaches for the spoon, Jongseong actually has to take a break from moving so much.
"She was", you whisper and pull your bottom lip between your teeth, unsure whether or not to offer your help, "she was my best friend and the only person in my life who took such great care of me and everyone around her. I cherish her recipes and that's how I came up with my Y/N-care package."
Jongseong attentively listens to the things you tell him, something you genuinely appreciate when it comes to him because besides your best friend, you've never had anyone listen to every word you say with such focus, especially not a man.
You carefully watch the way he nods, his pretty lips pushed into a soft pout, big hands in his lap as he looks at you with tired eyes and with a soft sigh you finally give into your disgusting need to take care of him.
"May I feed you, Sir? I know I'm not being professional butโ", "Please do, Y/N. I'd really appreciate it." Jong is quick to interrupt you, because if it wasn't for you initiating it, he would sit there waiting to gain enough physical strength for another twenty minutes.
He's never had anyone but his mother and sister take such sweet care of him and the fact you do it without any intentions makes this whole experience even more intimate than it's supposed to be.
As you reach for the spoon, Jay thinks of all the things he'd do for you if you let him, only for his conscience to slap him across the face because no matter what, at the end of the day you two would never work out. Not only because you're his employee and he's your boss but because he'd never forgive himself for pulling you into a life you couldn't handle. You're too soft, too gentle, your heart is too kind for the world he lives in. A world full of faux happiness and sincerity, where nothing is real, no smiles and laughter, no words and promises, no friendships and marriages. A world so dark, it'd kill the light in your soul within a few weeks, something Jongseong could never, ever forgive himself.
"Say 'ah'", you chuckle and lift the full spoon to his lips, your pretty lips stretched into a gentle smile and without hesitation, Jay bends a little over to take it into his mouth. The warmth as well as the comforting taste of the soup easily has his whole body slowly waking up.
"It's delicious", Jay says with raised brows, his eyes finding yours and the way his compliment so obviously flusters you manages to play with his thoughts and feelings yet again, "you're a great cook, Y/N."
You hate how much his words mean to you, but besides two words of appreciation, you can't get yourself to say anything else. For some reason this feels way more intimate than you expected but with each spoon, the urge to play with his hair and caress his back becomes more and more overwhelming.
All you want for him is to feel good and be okay, something you want for everyone in your life, so why do you want to do everything in your power to make it happen.
Your boss is a rich bachelor in his late twenties, who not only grew up with old money but probably won't ever know what it feels like to wonder if there'll be any food left for him and his siblings to eat the next day, but you still want to somehow be involved in his well-being.
"Tell me more about your grandmother", Jay suddenly asks and isn't really sure why he decided to bring things back to your family, but he simply can't hold back with his curiosity, especially after those few family issues you've mentioned to him.
He also doesn't want you to feel uncomfortable, but physically doesn't have enough energy to lead the conversation. On top of it all he's always been a better listener than a talker, especially when it comes to the people he cares about.
"Are you sure you wanna hear that? She's the only topic I can talk about for hours", you chuckle shyly and lift the spoon up to his face yet again, only for Jay to nod softly.
Upon his approval, you tell him about what it felt like to be raised by her as the only grandchild, how she spent most of her time showing you her recipes even after working long days at the market. You feel yourself getting more and more emotional as you slowly lose yourself in the memory of the only blood family member who always cared for and about you, the only one who didn't abandon you after the things your parents did.
And Jongseong just listens. He tries to save it all to his memory, your words, the stories, your grandmother's personality from your point of view, details about your childhood, the sight of your teary eyes when you come to the point where she passed away when you were sixteen years old.
Jongseong has never had any good relations with anyone in his family besides his mother and his older sister. Mostly because his father's side of the family is exactly like him, victims and servants of capitalism who have made money and financial success their only priority in life to the point where betrayal and lying has become part of their daily routines. His mother's family had decided to abandon her as soon as they found out about her pregnancy and despite their pathetic attempts of reconciliation, Jong has never allowed her to let them back into their lives. Not after everything they put her through.
Hearing about how you lived a whole life with this one particular woman makes him want to meet her. Jong knows that you probably have your soft heart and kind soul from her, and he can't help but wonder what kind of person she was.
"She sounds wonderful", he then suddenly comments and for some reason, you know those words come from his heart and all you can do is smile at him.
"Yeah", you whisper and gulp harshly when the tears suddenly prick at the corners of your eyes, "I miss her a lot."
Jay lets out a soft sigh of acknowledgment before he does something he knows he's going to regret but at this point he's jusg mentally tired of fighting his urges all the time.
With a gentle smile he reaches for your chin and lifts your head up to have you meet his gaze, his sudden touch eliciting a soft gasp from your parted lips and thankfully he manages to at least suppress the urge to just kiss you.
"I just know she's really proud of the beautiful, strong woman you've grown into", he whispers and then places his big hand on your cheek, his touch soft and gentle despite how rough his hands tend to look and you instinctively move further into his touch, the way he did just a half an hour ago.
"I know I am", Jay adds calmly and maybe it's the way you've been working so hard to take care of him or maybe it's all the built up frustration about your situation but no matter how much he tries to stop himself from saying them, he knows those next few words are nothing but the truth.
"I'm so proud of you, Y/N."
And those are the words which have you spiralling all the way back into your deepest feelings for him. You knew coming here and doing the thingds you just did weren't the smartest thing considering you've been trying to distance yourself from him, but never in a million years have you expected to hear such a genuine and sweet praise from him.
"T-Thank you so much, Sir", you whisper and shift your gaze to your hands in your lap, too embarrassed about just how flustered you are.
"Not for this", he calmly replies and probably has no idea what his words have done to you. Even if he knew, you know he'd never care enough for it to effect him.
To your luck, he's long finshed the soup so using the excuse to get his tea, you basically jump onto your feet and run into the kitchen, only to realise that you can't actually lose your shit because he can see you from his spot on the couch.
The following five minutes are filled with nothing but absolute silence and you can't hide how glad you are about it. The tension between the two of you has become unbearable and the urge to crawl onto his lap and never leave again is about to take over every other rational thought in your head.
"Thank you for taking such good care of me, Y/N", Jay says when you finally place the tea on the little coffee table in front of the couch, his eyes casually roaming your whole body and you're surprised how he doesn't even seem hesitant about it. Maybe it's the meds showing their effects or maybe the physical exhaustion, but regardless of the reason, you refuse to accept the possibility of his potential interest in or attraction to you.
"Of course, Sir", you reply calmly, "it's my pleasure."
"Have you been taking care of yourself as well? I know you haven't been feeling the best lately and I wouldn't want you to neglect yourself", Jay says and takes a sip from the sweet tea, his eyes focusing your reactions and he can't help but love just how much his words seem to effect you.
"Yes, Mr. Park", you say softly and smile at him, finally a little less anxious and excited as your body has managed to calm down from the high he'd put you in just a few minutes ago.
"Good girl."
Yet, those two little words basically shoot you all the way up to the milky way within just a single second.
Jongseong doesn't even realise what he just said, yet once he does, his eyes widen and he basically stops in his tracks.
Never once in your life have you expected him to say something so intimate and forbidden, but you physically can't get yourself to hide your reaction.
With a soft gasp, your head shoots up to look at him, hoping that you just misheard what he said but at the way your boss doesn't move a good minute, you know you heard exactly what you he said.
"I'm so โ so sorry", Jay says once he regains his composure, his heart thrumming in his throat as the blood rushes in his ears and he actually feels a headache making its way into his brain.
"It's okay", your voice a mere whisper as you're aftaid for it to break if you spoke too loudly, "don't worry about it."
Maybe it's just a habit he has and maybe he just mistook you for someone else, someone who actually gets to hear those sweet words of praise every time he does what he needs to do to get rid of his frustration. That's it. It was just a slip up.
Park Jongseong would never think about praising you in such a manner if he wasn't actually physically sick, so there's absolutely no need for you to get your hopes up again.
"I didn't mean to โ fuck โ please, just forget about this, okay?"
All you can do is nod as you try to ignore the thick veil of tears that have already blurred your vision, not because of shame or embarrassment but because you know it really wasn nothing a stupid accident.
You hate yourself for wishing to hear it again, and again and again. All you want for him is to call you a good girl until it's engraved into your brain and you actually start believing it.
Jay carefully watches your reactions again and he can't believe the immense guilt he's feeling for having to retract his words knowing you probably needed that more than anything else. The way you seem genuinely disappointed about it has his heart aching in the worst way possible because fuck every single rule he's set for himself. You are a good girl. His good girl. So good, so obedient, so hardworking and so, so perfect. You're everything he's ever dreamed of in a woman, yet there's no way he can be what you need and deserve.
"Not because you aren't one", he suddenly says, not quite sure why he decided to but simply following his instincts, "but because it wasn't appropriate and I'm sorry about making you uncomfortable."
"It's okay, Mr. Park. I'm just โ too easy", you basically laugh off the embarrassment and try your best to escape his strong gaze knowing he's going to see your tears if you let him.
"Y/N, look at me, please."
Of course Park Jongseong is too attentive to miss your actual reaction and since at this point your brain has decided to never, ever disobey him, you find yourself looking into his eyes the very next moment.
"We can't do this", he suddenly says and has your heart drop into your stomach, "not only is it super inappropriate and unprofessional but it's also not...right. I'm your boss, you're my employee and things would just get super messy if we acted on this tension between the two of us."
All you can do is nod because you can't quite understand that he just verbally rejected you, especially when you thought things couldn't have taken a wronger turn.
You hate how much youmre struggling to breath yet the knot in dour throat seems to double in its size with every second passing by and for a moment you're genuinely worried about passing out.
"Yes, Sir", is the only response you manage to whisper, too ashamed and embarrassed to say anything else.
"I wish I could be the man you need, but I'm not. And I won't ever be, so please, let's just forget about this and keep it going the way we did until today, okay?"
Yet again, not a single word leaves your lips, the fear of bursting into tears if you dared to say something too big.
"I think it's better if you leave now, I'm sorry."
And it's those words which manage to break his heart into thousands of pieces, but after seeing the way you reacted to his praise and the image of you standing in his kitchen like it's your own has given him false hopes he's not ready to deal with. He can't have you and no matter how much sending you away hurts him, Jay knows he has to do this for you to hate him. Even if you happened to quit your job after today, he'd rather have you be distant than give you the wrong idea.
"No, don't be. I'm sorry, Sir", you say and quickly get onto your feet, reaching for your phone on the coffee table and your jacket before quickly taking a few steps away from him.
Being so physically close to him feels like actual torture and all you want to do is go home and cry yourself to sleep.ย
You never expected your hopes and little daydreams to be shattered like this, but you know you needed this and it's the only thing which could have brought you back to reality.
"I don't need the boxes I brought the food in, just keep them or throw them away. Please excuse my lack of professionalism tonight, Mr. Park. I promise it won't happen ever again. Have a good night and get well soon."
You don't even give him the chance to get on his feet as you basically turn around and run to the front door the second the last word of your apology leaves your lips and even if he wanted to follow and pull you into his arms, Jongseong just stays exactly where he is because there's no point in comforting you. He did what needed to be done and that's it.
Even if that means watching his good girl run away from him with tears streaming down her cheeks.
This pain is only temporary. You'll eventually get over him, you're so young after all. And once that day comes, you'll be grateful for escaping him and his love. Because Jongseong has always ruined the things he touched and the people he cared about. He'll make sure you won't ever be part of that list no matter how much it hurts his heart.
โ ๐ฉ๐ซ๐๐ฏ๐ข๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ โ ๐ฆ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ โ ๐ง๐๐ฑ๐ญ โ
(A/N: here we go babies ๐ it's a little heartbreaking ngl and things will be a little angstier from now on but the spicy part's also around the corner so let's go!๐คญ thank you so much for all the love and support, you guys are truly the best. feedback and reblogs are always appreciated!!!๐ฉท๐งธ)
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JIWOO + PILDO MY NAME 2021, dir. Kim Jin Min
how dare he?!?!
who even allowed him
โSend us.โ I admire how Jace and Luke are very much like Harwin and Rhaenyra ready to go fight and get allies for whatโs right and true. But knowing what happens to Luke.. ๐
pairing: mark lee x afab reader
word count: 6.6K
summary: stuck in the monotony of your job at the mall, every day feels the same: opening the store, sitting behind the register, and counting the hours til close. you've even memorized the routines of the stores around you. but when a new guy starts at the comic book store across the way, you realize your predictable days may soon change.
warnings: 18+, minors do not interact, comic book store employee!mark, retail employee!reader, really cute and fluffy until it's not, public sex (public space but no one is there), unprotected piv (DONT DO THIS), mark throws u around like a lil play thing, oral (fem recieving), fingering, use of a petname (baby), lmk if i forgot anything!
author's note: this one took forever yall i know its been a while! been going thru some shit irl but things are settling and i was deadset on finishing this bc it's so cute :'-) thank u to T and @hausofmingi for being my beta readers ( ห ยณห)โก
working at a mall can be really tiring, but itโs not so bad when you have a crush.
youโve been working at a retail store at your local mall for a few months now. itโs boring, thereโs too many people on the weekends, and you have the worst hours. you found yourself working open to close for far too many shifts. but at the end of the day, at least it keeps the bills paid.
on slow days during the week, youโre always sat at the register, scrolling through your phone or twiddling your thumbs, counting down the seconds til closing time. sometimes you would even stare off into space, watching people pass by all day long.
you went to work always knowing exactly how the day would go; set up shop, maybe help some customers, and do fucking nothing for 8 to 10 hours. maybe a wave to the employees at the stores surrounding you, but sadly, that was usually the most interesting part of your day. you became accustomed to the monotony though, watching the same employees open up their shops next to yours.
the store directly across from yours is a comic book store. you know the few people that worked there, usually just saying โgood morningโ and going on with your day. you swear, you have this store memorized, knowing when the employees take their breaks, whoโs working, what theyโre working on that day. you didnโt really mean to, but when all you have to do is daydream, you kinda picked up on the routine there.
so when you arrive in the morning for yet another brutal open-to-close shift, you expect to just roll up the security shutters and sit back at the register all day. but thereโs something different today; or rather, someone different.
sitting at the register at the comic book store is a man youโve never seen before. his hair is perfectly messy and his glasses framed his eyes, which are focused on reading a comic. heโs working all by himself, which is surprising to you since youโre certain heโs new. you catch yourself staring and try to brush it off. heโs a new guy, so what?
you try your best to go about your day as normal, but you canโt help stealing glances over at the man at the store across from you. he has a captivating energy, and it makes you want to know more about him. he seems charismatic, being friendly with customers and earning smiles, then resuming his doodling once they leave. you notice that when he looks really focused, he bites the corner of his lip gently.
you gotta stop staring, or he will definitely notice. you decide to actually work on something for once, organizing the stock and straightening the shelves. soon enough, closing time creeps up on you. you do all of your closing duties and grab your things from the back. you close the security shutters, looking behind you quickly to see that the man is doing the same. he notices your gaze, so you kindly wave at him. instead of a wave back, blush forms on his face with a shy smile. and with that, he walks away.
the interaction was unreadable. he seemed to be so extroverted with customers, having no issue having casual conversations with them. why is he getting all shy now?
you started to pick up on the new routine at the comic book store. from what you could tell, the man worked similar hours to you, often opening and closing too. he rarely worked with anyone else, so the majority of the time you glanced over, he was reading comics, manga, or doodling in his notepad.
you never really got into comic books like that, and only dabbled with reading manga, but the growing interest in this man made you curious about learning more on what he was reading. maybe it wouldnโt hurt to check out the selection? perhaps get some recommendations? you just finished a short shift today so now was the perfect opportunity.
after grabbing your things and saying goodbye to your coworker, you make your way over to the comic book store. you approach the man, whoโs sitting at the register as usual, reading. you see his name tag on his chest; a cute red pin with a spider-man drawing next to his name, โmark.โ
โhi,โ you say, pulling his attention away from reading.
โoh, hi,โ he says, placing his comic down. โsorry, i didnโt see you come in.โ
โitโs okay,โ you reply, looking around at the goodies at the register. โi was wondering if you have any recommendations for a beginner at reading comics?โ
โoh for sure,โ he says, eyes lighting up. โmarvel has tons of great ones. you could start with an ironman one, or maybe captain america? i personally like spider-man, but iโm definitely biased.โ
โiโll try spider-man,โ you say after a beat.
mark gives you a nod with a warm smile before leaving the register to grab your comic. he searches through the spider-man section until he finds the first issue. he returns to the register, ringing you up.
โi think youโll like it, itโs really good,โ mark says, handing your receipt to you.
โiโm definitely looking forward to see what all the hype is about,โ you chuckle. the conversation pauses for moment, clearly indicating that the interaction is pretty much over with. but you donโt want the conversation to end there, so you find something to keep talking about. โyouโre new here, arenโt you? like you just started working here?โ
โyeah, sort of,โ he says, sitting back in his seat at the register. โi used to work here a while ago and i just came back โcause they needed someone.โ
โoh nice,โ you reply. โwelcome back i guess?โ
โhaha, i guess,โ he smiles, rubbing his hand on his neck. โitโs chill here, but it gets kinda boring.โ
โtell me about it,โ you chuckle. โitโs so slow during the week. i usually have nothing to do.โ
โyeah, i just read or draw to pass the time,โ mark says, pointing at his notepad on the counter.
โyou like to draw?โ you ask, curious.
โyeah,โ he places a hand on the notepad, grabbing it. you can tell heโs getting shy again. โitโs just doodles.โ
โyouโll have to show me some of those โdoodlesโ sometime,โ you say with a sweet smile. you check your phone for the time. itโs getting closer to dinnertime and youโre starved. โi guess iโll get out of here.โ
โokay,โ he stands again. โwell, let me know what you think of the comic.โ
โi will,โ you say, turning to leave, then flipping back to look at him. โmark, right?โ
he nods, asking for your name as well. he beams at you. โitโs nice to meet you. see you tomorrow?โ
โsee you tomorrow,โ you say with a wave, walking out.
for the next week, you find yourself aching to talk to mark again. you read the comic he gave you, and it provided a little bit of insight into himโฆ that heโs a bit of a nerd. definitely not a bad thing. itโs actually really endearing to you, knowing his life basically revolves around superheroes, free time and work alike. that he probably draws little comics in his notepad, and has sweet dreams about being superhuman. why is that so fucking cute?
you have a reason to talk to him again, of course: the next issue of spider-man. the problem is building up the courage again, which is ridiculous because heโs just a guy. a nerdy one at that, and you know that he would be putty in your hands if you really wanted him to be. but the longing you developed for him during those long hours of your shift, seeing him across the way, looking so cute in his round glassesโฆ itโs making you nervous in a way that is difficult to explain.
youโve been putting off going back to his store at this point. wouldnโt someone that wanted to get into superhero comics come back for the next edition? why arenโt you using your excuse to talk to him? not only that, but he even said he wanted you to come tell him what you thought of the comic. youโre just overthinking things.
you have another short shift one day, and decide today is the day. you gather your things and walk to the neighboring store, feeling the familiar butterflies you felt the first time you approached mark at the register. heโs drawing this time, crouched down and focused. he hears you walk in, lifting his head to meet your eyes. maybe youโre crazy, but it looks like his eyes light up.
โhey,โ he says, closing the notepad in front of him. you present the spider-man comic to him, and he flashes a smile at you. โwhatโd you think?โ
you chuckle, holding the comic close to your chest. โit was good, but too short. thereโs another issue, right?โ you joke, hoping it lands.
he lets out a giggle, โyeah, there definitely is. iโll grab the next one for you.โ
he walks over to a section near the front of the store, flipping through the excess of papers before he finds the 2nd issue. โif you liked that one, youโll like this one even more.โ he returns to the register with the issue, placing it on the counter for you.
โduel to the death with the vulture?โ you read from the page. โi havenโt seen any of the movies recently so correct me if iโm wrong, but i donโt remember there being a vulture.โ
โoh yeah, heโs in one of the later movies actually,โ mark starts. โbut you got a long way to go til you finally meet one of the iconic villians like the green goblin, or even the love interests gwen stacy or mary jane. itโll be so worth the wait though.โ
โhow much do i owe you?โ you ask, already pulling out your wallet.
โyou can borrow it if you want,โ he says.
โbut this one belongs to the store, wonโt you get in trouble?โ you ask.
โjust bring it back and itโs like it never happened,โ he whispers, faking a shhh at you. โletโs just say itโs mall employee perk.โ
you smile and accept it.
your new routine feels like a nice change of pace. every second of every day used to drag by, and yet at the same time, when you got home, everything that happened was so unbelievably boring that it all felt like a blur. nothing really significant happened to you. but something about trying something new, learning about a brand new niche interest, and even developing a crushโฆ itโs finally something exciting.
you looked forward to the next time you got a new issue. not just that, but the next time you got to talk to mark. he has this charm about him that piqued your interest. it feels so easy to talk to him, as if youโve already known each other for a long time and it isnโt just a budding friendship. youโd find yourself stopping by the comic book store a few times a week, anticipating the next comic and the underlying tension between you and mark.
like today, when you finally got off of work after a long shift. you were able to close up shop quickly and now youโre walking over to the comic book store, attempting to run in before mark locked up.
โhey, is it cool if i get the next issue real quick?โ you ask, popping your head in the store.
โyeah, one sec,โ he says, looking up from counting the cash in the register. โlemme just finish closing up the register.โ
โare you implying that youโre gonna let me borrow another comic?โ you ask, a flirty tone floating beneath.
โwell of course,โ he says, swiftly closing the cash drawer. โunless you want to start collecting, which by the way, SUPER expensive.โ
โi think iโll stick to being a casual reader for now,โ you joke, approaching mark at the register.
โi donโt know, you might change your mind after this one,โ he says, grabbing a comic from his bag. he holds it out to you, you grabbing it with your fingers briefly brushing past his. the motion makes you feel a little dizzy, and you can feel heat rising to your cheeks.
you shake your head, realizing this one doesnโt belong to the store. โwait, is this your own personal comic?โ
โyeah, itโs one of my favorites,โ he says, half focusing as heโs writing something on a sticky note at the counter. โi brought it in so you can borrow it.โ you can see the corner of his mouth turning up, as if heโs trying to hold back a smile.
โyou didnโt have to do thatโโ
โi wanted to,โ he says, lifting his head up to hand you the sticky note he was writing on. โjust treat it with care.โ
you take the note, which is pale blue with a cartoon spider-man in the corner. in the middle of the note is a scrawled out phone number. you look up to see mark rubbing the back of his neck nervously.
โif you want to tell me what you think?โ he says, almost like a question.
โor maybe when i get bored during my shift?โ you ask, chuckling.
โiโd like that a lot actually,โ he smiles, his previous nervousness quickly washing away.
โyouโll regret it though,โ you say, sticking the note on the front page of the comic. โbecause i get bored here a lot.โ
โdonโt worry,โ mark laughs, shaking his head. โi donโt think iโll get sick of you anytime soon.โ
you finally reached issue #14 of spider-man, the one mark is lending to you. you grab it out of your bag at the beginning of your shift, sitting back in your chair behind the register and getting comfortable. you realize what itโs about and immediately text mark.
sent 10:17 am omg wait i didnโt realize this issue is the first appearance of the green goblin
you look across the way, seeing mark pick up his phone and smiling.
sent 10:18 am mark: oh yeah, heโs fuckin sick mark: youโre gonna love it
you click your phone off with a soft sigh, flipping back to your comic. you go about your shift switching from helping customers and checking them out, and reading. every once and a while, youโll message mark with your comments and he would always reply with enthusiasm.
the end of your shift approaches quickly, and soon enough youโre closing the security shutters. you look behind you to see mark locking the doors and then doing the same. he mustโve felt your eyes on him, because he turns and flashes his famous smile to you. you walk over to him with the comic in hand.
โyou were right,โ you say, handing it him. โgreen goblin is super sick.โ
โi told you,โ he says, reaching for it, and your hands momentarily touching like last time. he gets flustered. โuh, i can give you the next one tomorrow if youโre working.โ
โi am, yeah,โ you reply, adjusting your bag on your shoulder. โi am so curious thoughโwhen the hell does gwen stacy show up?โ
โoh,โ he giggles to himself. โyouโre like, halfway there to finally seeing her.โ
โi didnโt realize how extensive this series is,โ you chuckle. โnot that iโm complaining. iโm actually surprised by how much i like it.โ
โiโm glad,โ he says sweetly. โwell, just come by tomorrow and iโll give you the next issue.โ
โi will.โ
the following weeks, you became overtaken by superhero comics and stupid-fucking-adorable mark. you would read an issue of spider-man at work, and text mark with your reactions to certain scenes. at first you thought it might be annoying to him, but he actually seemed to encourage it, asking for your opinions on the characters and storyline.
it doesnโt help that every time you see mark, you get butterflies in your stomach. and it seemed to only be getting worse; you keep finding yourself smiling when his name pops up on your phone. you wake up excited to go to work, because you know youโll probably have another interaction with him. sometimes, mark would even catch you staring at him and give a little nod with a smile. but what made things exponentially worse was when you catch him gazing at you too, catching you off guard but making a smile spread across your lips. you are smitten, and if anyone else was concerned, mark is probably smitten too. the issue is getting him to finally take the hint and making a real move on you.
he may get a little flustered around you, but heโs not exactly shy. after all, he did give you his number unprompted. but after weeks of going back and forth strictly talking about comics and work, you started to lose hope. you just want him. he must want you back just as bad.
after another closing shift, you watch the mall-goers pass by and file out of the building. the mall is basically empty now, most of the neighboring stores already closed and employees leaving for the day. you had to stay a little bit late, cleaning up a huge mess in the store from some rude customers. you thought you would have time to stop by to see mark, but with the amount of things you have to put away, your chances are looking slim.
you shuffle around the store, placing items back on the shelves and organizing the tables of merchandise. you eyes shift over to the comic book store, expecting to see it dark and locked up. but it isnโt; mark is still in there, half the lights still on, with him unboxing comics from their latest shipment. you already knew it was restock day for them (god you have way too much free time), but you didnโt realize how many boxes they got in.
you open the front door of your store, whisper-yelling through the security shutters. โmark!โ
markโs head turns to look at you and flashes a grin at you. โyo, youโre still here too?โ
you nod, leaning on the glass door. you hold up a few of the displaced items in your hands. โgo-backs,โ you shrug.
he points at the pile of boxes in front of him, โrestock. we got a lot of shit in early for christmas.โ
โdonโt say christmas please, i donโt want to think about it yet,โ you say with a laugh.
you turn away to get back to work, putting all the merchandise back to their assigned spots. you donโt know what the hell got into people today; messing up all your organization youโve done and putting things in all the wrong places. it didnโt help that you had to deal with some assholes with returns today too. you always theorize itโs from a full moon or mercury retrograde or something; those things must be the reason people start acting up.
after about an hour of cleaning, you finish up and can finally call it a day. you close up shop and turn to see mark still working on stocking at his store. you approach the security gate of the store, with its front door still propped open.
โi still need my next issue by the way,โ you say to mark, who stands from his crouching position in front of an open box. he walks up to the gate and pushes it up, just enough for you to come through. you look hesitant.
โcome in, itโs okay,โ he says, motioning you in. you duck under the security gate, slipping into the store. โhow was your day? looks like you had a lot to do.โ
โyeah, the store was a mess,โ you say, following him to the register. โiโve never had to stay so late after close.โ
โitโs only gonna get worse the closer it gets to christmas,โ mark says while weaving around the boxes with you.
โwhat did i say about christmas?โ you joke, nudging his shoulder softly.
โsorry, sorry,โ he laugh, putting his hands up. you wait patiently for him as he kneels behind the register, looking for your comic. he pops back up with a stumped look on his face. โi swear i thought i put it up here to give to you but i canโt find it. iโm gonna go check the back.โ
he starts walking to the back room, and looks back at you. โfeel free to sit if you want. our stockroom is a wreck, this might take a sec.โ
you nod to him, squeezing past the tower of boxes to sit in the chair at the register. it feels kinda funny to sit back here, like youโre seeing the store from a different perspective, from markโs perspective. you look around behind the counter, seeing the little notes and cute super-hero knick knacks gathered around.
thereโs a mini batman funko pop positioned in the corner, with a sticky note placed under his feet reading โno drinks at the register.โ you look over to see a large iced coffee with markโs name in sharpie. well, we all bend the rules a bit. his name tag is placed on the counter by a stack of comics. you grab it to take a closer look. itโs a plastic red pin with a white pop-art bubble. in the corner is a small piece of paper stuck on it, attached with office tape. on the paper is a spider-man doodle, made with red and blue marker and pen ink.
youโre sure this mustโve been drawn by mark. you have yet to see any of his drawings (despite your prying), so maybe seeing this one up close will give you a sneak peek into his style. itโs a little messy, with scratchy lines and colors bleeding outside the borders. despite that, it has a distinct style that youโre fond of. itโs not perfect, let alone does it look like the super-heroes youโve been reading in your comics. but it has a quality to it that feels less polished and flat. it has character. the messiness makes it feel moreโฆ real.
you set his name tag down, placing it back next to the large stack of comics. these must be his go-backs. heโs been so wrapped up with his shipment he probably hasnโt had time to put them away. you think maybe it would be nice to help a bit. heโs been nice enough to let you borrow comics from the store, and youโre just waiting around after all.
you pick up the stack of comics, situating them into your arms, when you look down and see that under the stack is markโs notepad. itโs not closed like youโre used to seeing it, opened to a clean white page with a drawing covering up a majority of it. itโs in a comic book style, youโre not surprised. but it has the same quality that his name tag doodle does; scrawly and messy, with no real precise lines. the colors are splashed across the page, with blotches of scribbled colored marker decorating it. then realize what it isโwho it is.
itโs you.
the whole image captures you and a little bit of your surroundings. positioned at your normal spot at the register, youโre looking down at a comic with your fingers playing with the ends of your hair. but it has a dream-like feel to it, with the pages of the comic illuminating your face as if a source of power is emanating from it. and then the best part: the wings. placed behind your shoulders are pair of feathered wings, outstretched in a sketched black ink. itโs beautiful.
itโs beautiful and itโs you. mark drew you.
โyo, sorry that took so long,โ mark says while emerging from the back, eyes still focused on the comic in his hands. โi finally found it, but dude i had to do some diggingโโ
markโs words are cut short when he notices you holding his notepad, comics that were placed atop abandoned on the counter by you. he visibly gulps.
โmarkโฆโ you start, not moving your eyes from the drawing. โwhatโs this?โ without a response for a few moments, you tear your eyes away to see mark with blush on his cheeks, mouth open but unable to let any words out. โdid youโฆ did you draw me?โ
โlook, it gets really slow during the day, i just did a little sketch to pass timeโโ
โmark, this isnโt just a sketch,โ you say, looking back down at the notepad. โthis is amazing.โ
โy-you like it?โ mark says, hand rubbing the back of his neck.
โof course i like it,โ you say.
โyou donโt think itโs weird that i drew you without telling you?โ mark asks, nervousness radiating from him.
โi donโt think itโs weird at all,โ you say. โi actually love it. i like that you drew me as a superhero too, and one with wings at that.โ
mark stays quiet, looking at his feet and probably overthinking everything right now. you look back up at him, tension building in your stomach as you ask what you already know the answer to. โyou like me, donโt you?โ
mark lifts his head to meet your eyes. he bites his lip anxiously as he nods slowly.
a streak of courage overtakes you as you grab his arm to pull him closer, him tripping over his own feet and crashing into your chest. youโre leaned against the counter, with markโs arm behind you and hand placed flat on the surface. your faces are close, and you can feel his breath. his eyes are glued onto your lips, and he swallows thickly.
โmark, just kiss me,โ you mumble, aching for him.
he wastes no time, leaning in to slot his lips between yours. he snakes an arm around your waist, holding you as close as he can. you melt into him, goosebumps floating across your skin in all-consuming desire. you move your hand to hold his cheek, thumb swiping on his smooth skin and fingers tangled in his soft, messy hair.
he pulls away, breath still shaky. โiโve been wanting to kiss you for so longโฆโ he trails off before leaning in and kissing you again, this time with more passion. he swipes his tongue between your lips, with you willingly accepting him. his hands trail up and down your sides, then finally places a firm grip on your waist and lifting you to sit on the counter. he slots between your legs, his body pressed close to yours. your fingers card through his hair, earning a sweet hum from him.
his hands trail down to your ass, pushing you closer against him to where you feel the bulge forming in his jeans. he canโt even hold back his moan, it being muffled by your lips. he pulls away again, this time kissing from your cheek down to your neck. he sucks at the expanse of skin while he caresses the other side of your throat. you let out a soft hum in pleasure, savoring every bite and lickโ
โfuck, you sound so hot too,โ he says in between kisses. he moves a hand down to your breast, kneading it roughly. you throw your head back, soaking in the pleasure from just his hands alone. his beautiful fucking hands, the ones that drew you. his lips feel so good on you, but his hands feel even better. itโs as if heโs been waiting for this moment for eternity and he doesnโt want to let you go. almost as if holding you, touching you is the only thing keeping him grounded in reality. it doesnโt feel real to you either; that mark, the cute boy youโve had a crush on for weeks and weeks is kissing you, holding you, and yearning for you all the same.
you feel so wrapped up in the moment that you almost forget that youโre in public. sure, thereโs no one left in the mall and the only people left are probably mall security, but the risk of being seen is still there. it just feels too good to stop.
โmark,โ you say, giving in to the anxiety. โare we really doing this? right here, right now?โ
he pulls back to look at you, still holding you close. โitโs just us here, and if itโs okay with you, i donโt think i can wait any longer.โ
โi donโt think i can either,โ you respond.
suddenly mark is ripping your clothes off, all while pulling you both behind one of the comic display cases. itโs your turn to take his clothes off, and youโre yanking his jacket off and pulling up his graphic tee and discarding them both on the floor. the exchange is a jumbled mess of constant touching of skin and clothes flying in every direction, a true testament to how desperate you both want each other. heโs kissing you all the while, taking every opportunity to peck at you between the tugging of clothes.
he leans you against the display bookshelf full of comics, completely unbothered when an issue or two falls off. your hand travels down into this jeans, feeling him hard and pulsing against your palm. you stroke his length slowly, focusing most of the stimulation on his dripping head. he lifts one of your legs slightly to get better access to you under your skirt, then looks at you as if heโs asking for permission.
you nod your head profusely before leaning in to kiss him deeply. it doesnโt last long, because suddenly heโs pushing inside you and youโre gasping at the stretchโ
โyouโre soโfuckโso fucking tight,โ he hisses, attempting to push in as slowly as he can. your mouth is fully agape in bliss as he finally bottoms out, reaching deep inside of you. he catches your eyes, lust filled in his own as he slowly starts to move.
heโs slow at first, knowing that his size is stretching you out to the point where itโs nearly painful. but it feels so fucking good, his cock dragging in and out of your tight walls. you can tell he wants to pick up the pace, with his breath shuddering with each stroke. you take the opportunity to kiss him again, wanting to taste his soft lips as he gradually begins to pound into you.
heโs groaning against your lips, and your moans are muffled against his. youโre trying to salvage any sort of public decency by holding back your sounds the best you can. itโs when he grabs your legs and lifts you to press you against the display shelf that you realize that that shred of awareness of your surroundings is about to be long fucking gone.
heโs holding you up by gripping your ass, pistoning into you at a pace that you can only describe as brutal. itโs no use trying to stifle your moans anymore, with him hitting your cervix over and over and making you see stars at each strokeโ
โmark, it feels so fucking good,โ you can only whine out to him, wrapping your arms around his neck tighter, tugging at his hairโ
โyou feel so fucking good, jesus,โ he groans against your neck, heaving breaths tickling at your throat.
his pace is wild, but the force in which heโs pounding into you begins to cause the comic books around you to tumble off the shelves, creating a pile at markโs feet. he doesnโt seem to care though. that is, until a comic book falls from a shelf above you and hits him on the head.
โah!โ he exclaims, realizing what happened. he stops his movements to look at you, holding back a smile.
you canโt hold back your laugh, giggling profusely at the ridiculousness of the situation. he laughs too, shaking his head and letting out a sigh.
โthis is crazy,โ he says, resting his forehead on yours.
โi know,โ you reply, still giggling. with one last laugh, he leans in and kisses you tenderly, smile still formed on his lips. you melt into him, ruffling your fingers through his hair as he begins to pick back up the roll of his hips into you.
it feels like a sweet moment, the fact that you can be doing such a scandalous act and still giggle with him. the tenderness doesnโt last for long, however, when he hits that perfect spot inside you that forces you to release a sharp moan.
โmark, oh my god,โ you whimper, attempting to roll your hips down onto him. โkeep doing that, pleaseโโ
โfuuuck,โ he groans, feeling your core clenching around his length. โyou take me so well, baby.โ
all you can do now is nod, whimpering and whining on him. you canโt believe that this man that has always been so endearing, so kind and lovable has this completely different side to him that youโre only now getting to experience. it brings a different sort of intrigue to him; that heโs more than just a cute boy that works at a mall. heโs complex. heโs a fucking man. heโs a fucking. sex. god.
his breathing starts to become irregular, and his pace is back to merciless. his groans, fuck, his moaning. heโs bouncing you on his cock in the perfect way to where your moans are matching his. you can feel his dick pulsing inside youโ
โiโm gonna cum,โ he can only breathe out, burying his head into the crook of your neck. โcan i?โ
โyes mark, please,โ you whine, tugging at the ends of his hair. all the while youโre clenching around his cock, bringing him closer and closer to his release.
with a low groan, his hips stutter and you feel his seed spilling into you, completely filling you up. the rocking of his hips stall, and heโs finally letting you down and kissing you sweetly, caressing your cheek with his hand.
โgod, you are fucking perfect,โ he whispers to you. you let out a giggle, leaning your forehead against his. โhey, iโm not done with you yet.โ
he quickly moves you to the glass display counter, lifting you to sit you on it. he pushes your thighs open, lifting your skirt up to get a better look at you. he looks enamored, like heโs starving and the only thing to appease his hunger is by having you on his mouth.
he dives in, licking a stripe up your core with a groan. he repeats this action, as if heโs savoring every drop of your essence mixed with his release thatโs slowly dripping out of youโ
โso fucking hot,โ he hums, releasing a hand from your thigh to tease at your entrance.
โmark, please,โ you beg. โstop teasingโโ
he attaches his mouth to your clit, swirling his tongue around in smooth, controlled circles. your hands fly to his head, body already twitching from stimulation. his finger is still prodding at your hole, wanting to enter but not just yet. he instead continues to ravage at your sensitive bud, intentional movements making your head spin. he knows what heโs doing and he knows heโs good, especially with the shaking of your thighs and high pitched moans escaping your lips egging him on.
he looks up at you, flattening his tongue out and doing long, drawn out licks. the eye contact is insane, the lust filled in them only making it that much hotter. heโs enjoying every second of this, seeing you shake and begging him to keep going. he loves the taste of you too, so sweet and almost addictive. he could die like this.
his teasing finger finally starts to deepen inside you, slowly at first. he can feel every pulse of your core around his finger, and itโs so hot that he can feel himself getting hard again. and youโre so wet, oh my god, so fucking wet. your arousal is dripping down his chin and his hand, making a sticky mess. when you start to roll your hips onto his face, he swears heโs in heaven.
he inserts another finger, feeling that tightness grip around them. itโs only getting more erratic now, clenching around him with each grind of your hips. he curls his fingers to prod at that sensitive spot, causing you to moan out his nameโ
โmark, donโt stop,โ you whine, looking down at him basically making out with your pussy.
he continues the same movements, repeatedly hitting your g spot and swirling his dripping tongue on your clit. your back arches and legs unintentionally close around his head, making him push them back open with his free hand.
and then he starts humming against you. the vibrations send a shock wave through your body, that mixed with his fingers, his tongue, his hand gripping tightly against your thighโฆ it feels so intense and so so good. you cum on his tongue, with him desperately holding your hips down and he helps you ride out your high. he doesnโt stop until youโre shaking, and you have to grab his head and lift it.
โoh my god,โ you gasp, slowly coming down.
he smirks up at you with arousal-coated lips. โyeah, oh my god.โ he stands up, immediately going to kiss you and you accepting him, wrapping your arms around him. he pulls away and leans his head against yours.
โi canโt believe we just did that,โ he says, sighing out an exasperated laugh.
โi know, what the fuck, right?โ you giggle.
โare you- are you doing anything right now?โ he asks. โlike, do you wanna get food or something?โ
โare you asking me on a date?โ you ask teasingly.
โdonโt tell me you decided youโre creeped out by the drawing now,โ he laughs.
โyeah. suuuper creeped out,โ you joke, leaning in for another kiss. you hear a noise behind you, and look out through the security shutters to see a mall security guard passing by, scrolling through his phone.
โlooks like he just missed the show,โ mark says, causing you both to try and hold back your fit of giggles.
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The literal definition of INCEL right here
Nothing will ever be funnier to me than the Duffer Brothers creating Eddie Munson and bringing him into the show just to kill him off because they're too scared to kill off any of their main characters then it totally blowing up in their faces because everyone fell in love with him and he became the most talked about thing in season 4.
They tried to play it safe like they do every season, by bringing in a new character and killing them off at the end of the season so they could have an emotional death, but avoid killing off any of the main characters whose deaths would actually impact the story and it finally backfired on them.
I have to laugh. Itโs ridiculous. Theyโre ridiculous. Yes, Iโm still crushed over Eddieโs death, it broke my heart, but this backlash they're getting is hilarious because their same old tricks finally caught up to them and they're never going to hear the end of it.
Happy Pride month to everyone, but especially that episode of Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-Kun/Monthly Girls Nozaki-Kun where Mikorin and Nozaki stay up all night creating gay fanfiction manga for that dating sim they were playing.
bro looks like he just found out what women go through everyday