If there was something that annoyed me greatly in my childhood,
It would be all the little boys and girls– That would cry out for their mothers
Their shrieks and wailing. It made my head ache
No, I'm nothing like those children
I don't need a mother, I don't need her at all
I've grown stronger, becoming an adult more quickly than others
She looks at me with foggy eyes, they are unable to comfort
I hate her, I can't bear to look into her eyes devoid of love
She doesn't say anything, only sighs, and I immediately know what she means
I pity her, I'm okay with her leaving a child she didn't want.
She holds a knife, slowly cutting into the board
I loathe her, I wish she'd step out of my life– let me breathe
She leaves the room, and it's like she was never there. I'm left with an open wound
I miss her. I yearn for her touch, no matter how forced it felt
“Mom, where did you go?” I ask
“Mom, come back!” I cry out.
“Mom, hold me!” I yell.
“Mom, tell me I'm still your little girl,” I beg.
Mom, you really are a cruel and tragic woman
How dare you give birth to a child and walk away
How dare you leave me all alone in this world
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There's mold on these bones,
Vines encircling the limbs.
Flowers are blossoming all around, and yet none get to us.
Mushrooms lay in their absence, creating a crown.
Movement is hollow.
It rains, no drops reaching my lips:
For they fell off when the worms ate them.
Exhaust and wings flapping around entice my numb senses.
I stand for I can't sit. Everything identifiable has rotten off of me, including ligaments and skin.
No one can tell me she's going to come back.
Wind gushes through, yet still unwavered.
A water stream nearby makes barely a noise, too shallow.
Passersby are never the same, blank faces to never be recognized after; home lays within their town.
Begging to go back to what once was,
All I can do is listen to the nearby churches hymns.
I have so much to say,
warn people so then they would avoid the agony I endured.
If only corpses could roam.
I just realized it said "want ideas that won't get arrested" KYSSSSSSS DIEDIEDIEEE
It knows me too well... sigh
Self-reminder
i love sociopaths i love narcissists i love low/no empathy havers i love people so mentally scarred it makes them generally mean people who push everyone away i love chronically angry people i love people with horrible intrusive thoughts (yes even yours) i love people who want horrible things to happen to the people who hurt them i love people with pervasive feelings of hate i love people who are uncontrollably agitated and irritable i see you i care about you i want you to get better i think you deserve as many chances as it takes for you to pull through i mean it i really really mean it
trans men be like hot and shit like they're just hot as fuck like what the fuck man why are you being so hot god damn
ohhh october be kind. on god be kind
reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions
I could easily show you what ive written.. or I could just read it to you as I pet your hair and tell you how proud I am?? Your choice not mine
The Thing (1982)|| Horror Fanatic || 18 || Hopeless Romantic (He/Him)
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