Fem! Aventurine And Dr Ovulatio. Cw Slightly Suggestive Under The Cut + Artistic Nudity

a collaboration with my beloved @inkukitsune0w0

i think .i thibk i became an entirely different person after my korekiyo era

tw blood under the. cut

my unfinished wip from december inspired by no pains no gains by malice mizer. i highly doubt that i would ever finish this cause i made a lot of mistakes that i’m too lazy to fix

and here’s a rough sketch of this thing. these japanese letters are lyrics of no pains no gains but i honestly have no idea how to write by hand in my native language not to mention japanese

I feel like people are quick to characterize aventurine as the overly emotional half of the ship with ratio being the emotionally constipated one, but hear me out: yes I think aventurine is ruled heavily by emotion and ratio is ruled heavily by logic, but I think aventurine is very good at putting on a show and hiding what he’s actually feeling (not necessarily in control of his emotions, but good at hiding them). Not to mention aventurine is so traumatized he’s the kind of guy to say something incredibly concerning and then laugh and do a cartwheel, I think it would take a lot for him to be really emotionally vulnerable around someone. I don’t think ratio is as experienced at hiding intense emotions and even though the fandom LOVES to characterize him as a robot with no feelings, I have to disagree. I prefer to look at him more like…he prefers logic because it’s predictable and conclusive and safe. Emotions are wild and always changing and sometimes aren’t rational and that’s scary! It’s easier to isolate yourself and focus on your hobbies and your job and whatever because it’s predictable. That doesn’t mean he’s incapable of feeling things, though. I just think he avoids situations that could cause them because it’s unfamiliar territory and he’d probably view it as unproductive.

Believe me, I like the dynamic of ‘ratio is soft and patient and fixes aventurines broken emo soul one tender kiss at a time’ as much as the next guy (probably even more than the next guy tbh that’s my bread and butter) but I also like it flipped sometimes. I like the idea that when shit hits the fan, it’s ratio who’s an emotional mess and aventurine who’s stunted and can’t muster up a tear. I like the idea that ratio would be the one crying if they met up after aventueines stunt in penacony because he’s angry and relieved and upset and scared all at the same time and he doesn’t know how to showcase that since he rarely leans into his emotions, so it comes out as just yelling and crying and aventurine is like :3 ?? It’s fine, doc lol !! But the more it carries on the more he’s like oh this is like a serious emotional moment for him and I cannot fathom why another person would feel this strongly about me in any capacity what is he crying for

Anyways these two gnaw at my brain

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I'm trying to put more effort into the rendering, usually I quit too early and my work looks unfinished

Hope this one's alright

Kaveh will get swept up by the tide of emotions, tumbling through waves and currents of highs and lows. He will be proud of what he accomplishes, only to dip beneath the waves because of guilt (not just because of his family issues, but maybe the guilt of not "doing enough" for everyone, not changing Sumeru to a point where he thinks his ideals could meet reality). He is stuck in this eternal limbo of feelings and I think at this point he is so deep in it, he doesn't really think there is anything else. The world is the merciless water, and any solid land is a dreary dream that won't save him, because he still needs to brave the ocean.

Alhaitham on the other hand, stood firmly on the ground for most of his life. He would observe the ocean from a distance, feel the moisture, smell the salt in the air, hear the waves crashing on the shore, but he himself wouldn't partake in this song and dance personally. I think through Kaveh he realized that to actually understand the ocean and how the earth needs water to flourish, he needs to touch the waves. Especially when he once got the taste of rain that nourished the garden of thought, only for drought to wreck it for years, leaving a limited, dull hollow behind.

I think we're currently at the point in their lives where Kaveh is still struggling, salt in his eyes and water in his lungs, trying to keep his world afloat as he drowns. Alhaitham on the other hand learned to sit by the waves, and let them crash against his feet, soaking the emotions and observing them, one tide after another, never letting himself get overwhelmed by diving in headfirst.

Kaveh is blinded by it, and still doesn't realize, that Alhaitham is waiting for him just out of reach. He tossed him a lifeline so he could pull him out the ocean and take him back to solid land, where a home waits for him. But he can only stay there and wait for Kaveh himself to actually grip it and let himself be helped out.

Kaveh thinks the only way to experience feelings is by being drown by them, Alhaitham figured out you can live on solid ground, and just run a tap or bath if you want to feel, still in the safety of home.

I wanted him to be more like Shadow Milk.... (my birthday is in a few hours according to my time btw :3)

Commission with Anaxa for @d3091yu

got hyperfixated on danganronpa again after 5 years..

happy birthday to my beautiful wife ✨